9/8/2023 Day 1 - Stack 4 - Cycle 1 Mogul & The Aesthete
Genesis, Mogul, The Aesthete
Just Finished My Second Cycle of Wanted Black
I’m not vanishing from the forums after all, not yet. The desire to vanish, to act strange on the forums, etc, seemed to be reconciliation–my subconscious seemed to be tricking me into running away to get me to stop listening to Wanted Black.
On that note, I think I’m going to stop listening to Wanted Black for now. Wanted Black is just too much for me, and what I’ve learned over this last cycle with it, is that I’m not ready for it–maybe I am, but a big part of me feels like I’m not.
This journal is about building my foundation, expanding, growing, and mastering life in new and interesting ways (wealth, social life, and seduction), and I’m just not ready for Wanted Black. It’s too far away from where I currently am. Or, that’s how it feels at this point
This hasn’t been an easy decision to make, and I’m tempted to just dig my heels in and run Wanted Black until I get results, however, I wonder about that. Is it wiser to stick it out with Wanted Black, or to change to something “easier” to build up a stronger foundation in the “pre-requisite skills” and then run Wanted Black later on? There’s a part of me that feels like my subconscious doesn’t even know what to do with Wanted Black, as if where I am now, and what Wanted Black is trying to give me is so far away, so foreign, so distant, that my subconscious just isn’t able to deliver for me. It would make sense, I’m pretty early in my journey still, and when I look back over my journey, I really haven’t done my due diligence–I haven’t run healing titles, I haven’t run Ascension, I only ran about 2 cycles of Genesis and both were a bit broken up
I can’t ignore the experience that I’ve had with Wanted Black so far, though I’ve gotten many beautiful results…is this really the best way forward? There are so many blocks, there is so much resistance, is this really the best path forward?
I think I was wrong, in my newbie arrogance, I was wrong, again. I used to believe that healing was bull shit and that I would just naturally heal along the journey by running subliminals that aligned with my goals–though that IS TRUE to a certain extent, there are blocks that go MUCH, MUCH deeper, and I don’t think they will just vanish on their own. My brief encounter with Khan showed me this, and now Wanted Black is showing me this.
Perhaps I’m better off continuing to build my foundation with beginner titles. As much as I hate to admit it, that seems like it’s probably the way forward. The ego, the ego.
I Understand Now
Saint humbled me a bit a couple weeks ago, and at the time it pissed me off, but he was pointing to something that I was unwilling to accept and once again, my perspective on subliminals has shifted.
If you give a pencil to an architect, what will they do?
If you give a pencil to a writer, what will they do?
If you give a pencil to a secretary, what will they do?
How am I supposed to execute titles like Wanted Black and R.I.C.H. when I don’t even have the fundamental skills required to do so? How?
I spoke earlier about blocks. I’m still terrified of being wealthy, I’m still terrified of approaching girls that are, quite honestly, in my ACTUAL “looks level”–8’s-10’s. I’m gonna be real, yes I should be fully capable of pulling 10’s, I look like a freaking model for godsakes. Like, I’m so fortunate to be blessed with good looks and it would be an insult to the world to not take full advantage of my god-given good looks…yet I self-sabotage.
I over-eat and I drink too much, why? Here’s the real reason: because I’m scared of reaching my true aesthetic potential. I’m a legit 10, looks-wise, but I deliberately keep my body around a 7 because I’m scared of actually fulfilling my potential. I also go for girls who are “below me” because it’s easier and safer and less challenging.
For the record, I don’t look at women that way, but it’s useful for the sake of you understanding my position–we’re visual beings.
I keep myself in jobs that are below my level of earning potential and skill because I’m scared of wealth and success.
Essentially I’m saying that Wanted Black and R.I.C.H are the equivalent of teaching high-level physics to someone who hasn’t even grasped the basics of calculus. Will they be able to understand some of the philosophy and logic? Absolutely! Will they be able to understand physics on a deep, intuitive, mathematical level? Absolutely not! They simply lack the skills and knowledge required to make full used of the information.
In the same way, I simply lack the skill and knowledge to actually use Wanted Black and R.I.C.H effectively. Just like the student of physics, I can grasp some of it, but the other 90%, the real depth, simply goes over my head and manifests as intense recon and self-sabotage.
New Stack
Having said everything that I’ve said so far, I don’t know about my new stack. What I do know, is that it’s time for me to use healing and to use a new wealth title.
For wealth, I have two options: Mogul and EoG, my intention is to run both, but for now, as of today, I’m going to start with Mogul because it can help me get my feet wet and actually start helping me release my wealth blocks and put me in a better position to run EoG in 4 months.
So, R.I.C.H becomes Mogul, that was easy enough. So I’ll commit to Mogul for the next 4 months and then trade it for EoG.
When it comes to the rest, I have many options, but the ones that I’m looking at seriously are: Genesis, Ascension, The Aesthete, and DR: Limit Destroyer.
I’m going to rule out Ascension at this time, because Genesis seems like a better fit and I’ve used it before.
So…
It’s…
Genesis, The Aesthete, Mogul for 2-4 cycles
Then it’s
…
Something else, time will tell.