Yes it is. I stopped it because I felt like I wasn’t doing anything towards my goals I was just enjoying life outside of work but was not working on getting out of the 9 to 5. I needed some more grit and determination which AM brings.
I also stopped everything I was doing and ran AM to build a foundation.
Have you ever considered running wanted? The journals on wanted are really clear that the self-talk and self-acceptance that comes from being on wanted is amazing.
That would be a good foundation as well.
Also seems like Wanted is great for guys in committed relationships, get more affection and desire from the ol’ wifey
I have run wanted when it first came out but my stack became a kitchen sink so I went back to basics and am running a building business stack since that is my number 1 goal in life ATM.
Day 65/180
Holy cow 65 days on AM! As someone with ADHD I will celebrate this achievement to stick to something.
I started my addition to Stark to it and it was a delightful ingredient in the first sips. I feel just lighter and taking life a bit less seriously. I got some more of my spontaneity back which the wife appreciated on our spontaneous date nigh after her girl friends canceled on her. I feel like creativity begining to flow through me. It’s like the color came back to life.
I still appreciate AM and will continue to run it. I feel deep inner growth with it that I don’t have on Stark… yet. It caused a lot of introspection for me.
I love this picture so much. All of our relationships, troubles, insecurities, history is a spec on this wonderful pale blue dot we call home in this vast space of emptiness. That’s a magical feeling to me.
How are you feeling now?
What is your current listening schedule?
I’m feeling pretty good now. I feel a lot lighter hearted when I added Stark. I feel a bit of the load on my brain from the scripts but nothing bad at all. It’s how I feel whenever I add a new sub. I felt my stress decrease from just 1 loop of Stark. I have that feeling it’s all going to work out.
My listening schedule is AM + Stark on Mon Wed Fri
Day 67/180
My managers have been micromanaging to the Nth degree at work and it’s begining to really piss me off. I feel taken for granted and unappreciated. They don’t realize how stupid they are being with treating employees like shot and the fact that is an employees economy not an employers.
I want to find a new job but I am so bored of accounting and finance which is all my resume is good for to find a different job that is a better work environment.
AM is really lowering my tolerance for bullshit. Even with tons of meditation I am completely fucking fed up with the situation.
On the same token this inner turmoil has really caused me to go deep within and really find my inner flame through meditation. I am learning to sit in my uncomfortable feelings and emotions rather than run away and bury them. It’s the the unraveling of the Demons I carry inside of me.
Back to existential dread about having to go to work tomorrow.
This all happened today but the up and downs are a clone of what I have been feeling for over 5 years Just an endless cycle of frustration.
Day 68/180
In my therapy session I came to the realization that I have a big fear of failure and rejection.
Day 69/180
Extra rest day. I felt like I needed another rest day so I took one.
I feel a mixture of depression, annoyance and anger. I wonder if there is something in Ascended Mogul that causes this kind of Recon. Stark seems to mellow it a bit but I haven’t run enough of it compared to AM. I am really tempted to end the experiment and begin one with Stark and other subs but I am going to run the full cycle.
Did you ever end up running a schedule like below?
Proud of you for knowing that you should keep it light and keep yourself committed.
I think running AM might be incredibly frustrating if you feel like your business might not be as successful as you hope it’ll be. And it’ll especially make you angry (at yourself and the world) if you desire business success now more than ever, yet, in reality your actions don’t reflect that.
I feel for you brother. Perhaps standardizing your creative output might help you. You’re creating content, and so, it could really help you to commit to one hour per day of creating content for your business. No more, no less. One hour is enough… better to have an unbroken streak of one hour periods than a sprinkling of 4 hour sessions scattered throughout the month.
No consumption, no research, no browsing for ideas… just pure creative struggling towards something meaningful, with the only people in attendance being you, your thoughts, and your attempts to create something out of nothing.
Two book recommendations that I have for you… my mind is SCREAMING at me to tell you about them because I think they both have nuggets of gold that will help you so much they might change the way you walk on your path entirely.
The first deals with procrastination, resistance, writer’s block, creative angst… it’s for anyone who is trying to xreate something creative as a professional, it’s Steven Pressfield’s “The Art Of War.”
The second book is a short read meant to inspire creative thinking and give you a framework for how great creators get ideas. You’ll like it based on what you told me about your process… it’s called “Steal Like An Artist.” By austin kleon.
Keep on pushing! You got this
On my test month of AM I was in constant internal turmoil until I caused a drastic work result.
I negotiated out doubling my salary. Once I put that in place I felt significantly better. It still not confirmed but 90% going through. I stopped running subs for a washout and that also helped. But causing that result was a huge shift in how I relate to myself, my worth, and was able to express and negotiate that and was a big first step. AM wouldn’t let me sit on anything I was tolerating. It got me present to the impact of the shit that didn’t work in my life to such a degree I had no choice but to deal with it.
That may be good source of guidance, internal pain is screaming at us to do something differently, put something new in a place, an action, a plan. Even if were not capable or competent to do it fully yet.
The War of Art
Day 70/180
I made it 70 days on AM. It has caused me great internal pain to the point of depression yesterday. Running Stark along side it has softened the blows somewhat.
I have in a position in life that I need to tolerate the shit worklife I am a part of. I have lost hope of getting a business off the ground when I need to use my work as a runway and hanger for building a entrepreneurial jet and take off.
I have fallen into a bit of a depression from AM
Should I stick with Stark and AM or use Stark and Mogul? I can deal with the pain. Not sure if my wife wants me to go though it. If that is going to get me where I want to go faster. I will do it but pain only works so well desire and hope works so much better in the long run.
“Rebellions are built on hope.”
When I woke up this morning I felt better almost higher vibration afte listening to a higher vibration sleep meditation last night. Inner turmoil is still surrounding me like a storm but I am a degree detached to it.
I have “Toss a Coin to Your Witcher” stuck in my head.
@Billions I will check those two books out. It may take a while to get through them. I have grown disillusioned by business and self help books.
Another frustrating day at work and instead of enjoying the off hours and striving towards my business with enthusiasm I am depressed and slogging along.
Is this pain considered some type of reconciliation?
It most likely is, I only did two loops this week.
Hey brother, I can’t say whether you should stick to it or not.
My experience is that after a 4 week washout, I am coming into tremendous bloom, my life has been in tunnel vision and is now opening up again and feeling better and better with new vision, drive, strength in a way that is integrated into my normal. The pain and difficulty has dissipated due to lots of action and standing my ground on moving things I tolerated previously, and time off.
My personal perspective on running Alpha/financial subliminals with the newest build is they create very difficult recon for me that has been both invaluable in growing and moving things and extremely challenging.
This may change now that things are moving and I have done a reset.
My personal gauge in general is if there is difficulty ask yourself 1. if your seeing progress or can create progress from the difficulty and 2. is the difficulty greater than the quality of your day to day life consistently and non-stop. If you can answer yes to the first and no to the second than keeping going. If you can’t you have to create change either internally and/or through action asap. Nothing will magically happen otherwise. Whether that means switching subliminals or not I can’t answer.
I agree I think pain is very limiting in it’s effectiveness-it may be a good initial push-but is not sustainable. If I were in your shoes I’d take two weeks off at least and reassess/see what happens.
During this time be as a bold as you’ll allow yourself with looking for new work that is less ‘tolerating shit’ or seek new opportunity where your at. Even if your long game is entrepreneurial, until you get there, you want your base income to be coming from something that is as least ‘soul sucking’ as possible lol.
It sounds like AM is working for you. It’s just getting painful now because you need to integrate more rest periods.
If you switch to Stark for a while, AM will still be working. Eventually you’ll get the feeling that you should bring AM back in. And when you do, you’ll find that you’ve become stronger.
You mean The Art of War by Sun Tzu ?
The War of Art
Yes just to clarify I meant the War Of Art by Steven Pressfield… NOT the Art OF War by Sun Tzu.
