Force in Motion - By Akin

Journals - Major Programs
#54

∆ washout ∆

You know… this sub is perfect — anytime, anywhere. I can get what I want (almost everything).
I’m a bit shocked, though, by the things that are being revealed about me.

I also hope I can remain wise, so I don’t create unnecessary or difficult situations.

Overall, I’m really enjoying it.
Being liked is really something special. I get messages every day from people who want to talk to me, who remember me, who want my presence. And wherever I go, there are always two or more people wanting my attention and wanting my sexual energy to be directed toward them.

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#55

I’m torn between:

C&C + WDB + RoW (occasionally) → long term

and

EoG + RoW + WDB → short term, to build a base

#56

C&C! C&C! I think you’ll love it.

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#57

You know, I have a feeling you’re right :sweat_smile:

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#58

∆ washout ∆

Deep down, I’ve already chosen. Even before I was consciously aware that I had.

I’m expecting some kind of recon during the pre-results phase. I’ve been experiencing that — along with a different kind of headache — ever since I read the copy. I’m weird like that.

In a way, I’m grieving certain parts of myself that I know will need to die for C&C to really act and for me to become that person.

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#59

∆ New cycle! ∆
∆ C&C 21s ∆

New cycle!

The money cycle has begun, and with C&C I’m setting the tone for what this year is going to be.

First impressions: I really like it. It’s exactly what I need to get unstuck and start building my empire — the empire I’m going to raise, that only I know where it’s heading, and that only I know what I’ll do next with the power I’m going to have.

:leaves: :leaves::leaves::leaves::leaves:

But ok, today I’m really pissed off with my own limitations, and with the way I placed myself in relationships — and how people ended up seeing me because of that.

I guess this is part of the initial contact, right? That’s what it feels like. Today I’m dealing with a lot of aggression, but I’m also aware that these are initial impacts, so it’s probably not a good idea to be too abrupt or cut people out of my life all at once.

That said, I did three important things today — and I finally completed one thing I had been procrastinating on for about three months.

I genuinely feel like a tiger.
That’s my power animal.
On this first loop, I felt a bit of that sensation — an insatiable hunger. A hunger to go after what I want and strike.
(I keep imagining a tiger hunting relentlessly, taking down its prey to feed.)
Anyway, I hope I can translate this into good things in my life.

I’m going to keep WdB because I know I’ll have more than enough energy for money and for pleasure — and also so I don’t become too closed off within myself.
But everything in this beginning will be a experiment.

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#60

∆ 2 rest days ∆

So… not much to say here, but I’m changing.
Just one loop, and so many internal perceptions are shifting.

One thing is certain: if I stick with it, it’s going to transform me into a rich person.
I’ve never felt this with any other title.

I intend to stick with it this year.

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#61

Didn’t mention this, but a friend who hadn’t seen me in about two weeks asked if I was back at the gym — said I looked stronger and different. WDB physical shifts.

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#62

∆ C&C 22s | WDB 08s ∆

So… my first impressions is that C&C is a pretty a complete sub.

I’m feeling how it blends with WDB today, but I also felt that it slowed down the attraction process a bit — especially in terms of being more selective about who’s actually worth my exposure and energy.

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#63

∆ rest day ∆
∆ C&C 21s ∆

Yesterday, something happened with a girl I’m into, and it left me really pissed off. the fuck. Especially after two nice days and good moments together.

I went to bed pissed off and woke up the same way.
My inner dragon is so angry.

My first thought in the morning was, “Fuck this shit, let me listen to the C&C loop. I don’t wanna care right now.” And “No matter what happens, I’m sticking with C&C this year.”

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#64

Yeah… some reflections about yesterday’s and today’s lessons:

“How can I love someone romantically if I’m judging them?”

and

“How am I going to be happy in love if I’m not allowing the other person to love me?”

#65

So… I was having really good vibes with her when I was only on WDB.

I feel like C&C shifted things — not just with her, but in the environment in general. Even a cat that usually loves me seemed afraid of me yesterday.
Well… let’s see how it goes. I don’t wanna lose people around me because i’m becoming too brutal.

WDB is my archetype. The only thing missing there is the money part.

#66

∆ 2 rest days ∆

So I’m slowing down my exposure to WDB because I realized it’s not my main priority right now. I want to have more energy to process C&C and eventually RICH, without keeping my focus too divided or ambivalent.

I’m thinking of using specific WDB loops when there’s an event, party, or something like that. But for now, I’m going to stay off it for a few days and see how C&C’s romance scripting responds on its own.

I’ve realized that to get real results with subs, I need to preserve my energy and how I function. Processing titles takes a lot of mental energy and from time to time I need more focused attention.

"Fewer titles, less stimulation, more focused direction."

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#67

Just a heads up: C&C’s romance scripting is lighter compared to the other Emperor titles. We focused more on the wealth scripting. All the scripting is also aimed at producing the “Crown and Capital” effect as well, so these relationships could be a bit more serious as business will most certainly be involved.

WDB’s scripting is much easier to process than other romance titles – it shouldn’t harm C&C results. In fact, I think C&C + WDB is a fantastic combo. Brings some of the edge off C&C, allows you to have more fun.

As always, I’m only commenting from what I can see from the outside, so trust your instincts on how to proceed.

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#68

Yeah, that makes a lot of sense, Saint. I do feel like it can soften the hardness a bit. My challenge is balancing the two. It’s mostly because I have an energy that naturally tends to prioritize relationships above everything else, and that can easily become my main focus even while running C&C, lol.

But I’m still going to test things out. The authenticity that WDB opens up is really beautiful and amazing.

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#69

∆ C&C 22s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I’m noticing an increased ease in just getting things done — even small tasks. I can feel my mind starting to operate differently when it comes to what I need to do, and also in acting according to the boundaries that are important to me in all situations.

I’m paying attention to what happens when I don’t follow an intuition or a clear signal from my body.

I’m still observing how to deal with the authority aspects, because people seem to feel my presence as soon as I enter a place. Some act weird, like they don’t know how to handle the energy I’m vibrating, while others just show respect and that’s it.

I also seem less interested in more trivial things or being in situations that don’t really match the vibration I’m in right now.

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#70

I was so pissed the bot didn’t open a trade today, so I took one manually and 10 seconds later I had already hit my profit goal.

#71

So I discovered that this day, at the end of the day, I was more profitable than my bot. $44 more.

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#72

∆ C&C 22s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I’m going through some pretty intense experiences right now.

And I’m realizing — more than ever — the importance of this more “closed,” firm, direct side of Emperor. It has its value, its place, its importance.

#73

After self-observing the growth experiences that WDB brought me, and realizing that I’ve interacted romantically with six different people during this period on an ongoing basis, I decided to hold off for a bit.

Some experiences were good, others were very challenging, mainly because they pushed me into a lot of personal growth. I had to define boundaries and deal with many different types of people and expectations.

I’ll return to higher exposure in around two weeks, because a very festive period is about to begin here in my country — Carnival — and that’s when it really gets a chance to shine. There’s a lot more collective openness for romantic and sexual connections, and I believe it’ll also be a good time to better process everything that happened this month .

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