Being professional would be ideal. I’m guessing you would love that luxury too. But it would allow for later contributions to the community as giving back, encouraging the next generation of talents, the same way I was.
Khan will reveal the path somehow - one way or another.
That’s a possibility @Michel. However, I believe as long as you’re alive and breathing, there may be other possibilities.
What could you think some benefits might come to you from being a late started, and having experienced what you experienced before, when success comes your way? Any wisdom or experiences or valuable things you might have gained by starting so late, that maybe you couldn’t have learned if you got your success and exploration early, and everything came easy?
Yes, Khan makes you question whatever path you are going in, and helps you find the “right” path that would serve you better. It’s a possibility. But it also might be reconciliation.
The only way to know the difference is to give it time. If it’s reconciliation, it will go away. If it’s real Khan effect, it will stick, and the old path will be abandoned, and new paths will open up over time.
@AMASH namely having a sense of perspective, maturity, persistence and the ability to value opportunities when they come. The younger me would NOT have coped with the demands of outside life.
Hmm, good questions @AMASH.
That’s very interesting, and those seem to be very valuable wisdoms you carry.
If you had no limits at all @Michel, how could you mix those things you have learned, the wisdom you have gained, the skills you have, to go for a success that is beyond what you may think is possible right now? Even if you act as if you’re someone else giving advice to you, what would they think the mix of your wisdom, skills, passions and desires could create a success in the world that is unique to you and beyond what you expected before?
The most liberating idea for me was realizing in life there’s no finish line or perfect destination to arrive at… there’s only satisfaction (or dissatisfaction) with the path you’re on now
The illusion that there’s anything to experience outside of what you’re experiencing now is based on the universe expressing itself through you by demanding growth…
Even if you were to get to the exact place in life that you envisioned it wouldn’t be permanent (nothing is), before long life would start to pull those circumstances away from you…
When you internalize this you start to realize there is no wasted time or mistakes…
There’s only a sense of dissatisfaction with your level of action and progress, which can be changed right now with a clear intention followed by action.
So your dissatisfaction is good, it means you’re alive and want to grow. But guilt or regret is something you want to stay away from.
Purpose in life is about who you’re becoming rather than what you’re doing for a living…
Choose a path and get busy.
Hope that adds some value brother
I’m only on Day 5 of my Emperor’s Journey or whatever you’d call that. But today I was dicking around with how many loops of Emperor to run and how many of Rebirth while in the home office working for me job.
I had the thought “It doesn’t matter…just do as many as I can get in each day. The time will pass by whether I do anything or not, so may as well swing the pendulum in my favour.”
It reminds me of the stuff from Jeff Olson’s book “The Slight Edge”…he had that quote of “You’re either gradually succeeding or gradually failing. There is no neutral”…that’s what I remember of the quote anyway.
Seems like you’re on the right track as long as you keep pushing yourself through this stuff.
@AMASH Blimey, tough to answer that one. There is this charming personality that could go very far indeed, if he was in the right social/work situation. Then he could mentor those coming up in the same way.
That does sound like the near future - Khan
@Hollywood Very wise words. Reminds me of a saying: strive to be a human being, not a human doing. Somehow that’s been lost.
@Palpatine Luckily that bell curve is going up in your favour, which is great.
Thanks for all your supportive words.
Khan
Total Nervous Breakdown
Day 8
I’ve had enough.
Painful thing is I can’t answer back because “there will be consequences”, usually physical beatings from way back. Just stand there and swallow dogshit.
There. Reconciliation or not, I’m pissed.
Reconciliation reflection:
Calming down… all this reconciliation anger is touching on something deeper - being repeatedly abandoned by my mother as an infant. The anger is about feeling unsupported emotionally, - whilst being over supported physically and not being allowed to learn by myself and fail. Mother always attended to everything - so I now expect it from others. When that doesn’t happen, I get angry.
Being more real to myself
Another thing, I’ve dropped putting on a performance in public, where I would behave according to what “society” deemed acceptable. Now, I’m yawning when tired, adjusting my pants when needed, being “extra extra polite” to others, gone. Being more “real”.
Being perfect in order to get some kind of love token.
Narcissistic families require their members to perform for society - to fake the funk that “we’re perfect, better than yow”. If I’m performing, it because it is genuine.
Dreams:
One random woman decides to get up real close in my face and gently rubs her extra long nose against my forehead.
Reconciliation breakthrough
This breakthrough is important - this will allow me to not give a flying fuck what others think (I can’t control what they think anyway) and to be allowed to have a life of my own where I’m not treading on eggshells trying to cater to some unstable personality or anyone else that fancies it.
I admire your courage very much @Michel. This is hard. The process is painful. And too few are willing to do it, but you are. Pat yourself on the back for that, really.
Also, if I may suggest something, this can be of help:
Never heard of Albert Ellis, but he makes a salient point: you are not your failures. Trouble is, emotions aren’t very rational and can crowd out logical thinking.
Found the reconciliation issue: I’ve been needing approval from someone to be myself and to define myself. Now I’m aware of it, I can remind myself (like Albert Ellis stated) that the story in my head can be changed to something more positive.
I am worth something, even if I fail, I’m not a useless failure.
Didn’t expect for Khan to go THIS deep into my psyche. Very few things outside of deaths have changed my life. I’ve definitely getting my money’s worth.
Seems like EoG or Khan may be the way for me to go once I’ve pushed Emperor to the limits 
Both products will be beneficial and will run smoother with the Emperor foundation.
Honestly, I believe Khan ST1 to be the most powerful all-purpose subs ever created to unearth negative beliefs and let go of them. It’s just so comprehensive and so effective. Regeneration is more “comfortable” compared to Khan ST1. It’s painful, but it works so deep!
The truth is, there is no limit to these subs. They work in a way that adapts to your goals. Especially Khan. So as long as you have goals, there is further pushing to be done 
Khan
Total Breakdown
Day 11
Work is finished, time to reflect. I’ve been treating myself like a beggar and accepting beggar status. This is why I keep to low wage jobs, bad environments and third party love situations. It’s a security blanket. I didn’t feel like I deserved more. Worse, I was chasing goals that were out of step with my real self - money, fame, status etc. Now, my real self emerges and demands to be respected. Funnily enough, I’m noticing little outward signs of that happening with family.
Fear of authority. Dream of closing up a market stall booth at dusk, the owner of the stall is furious and calls the police. I’m scared because the police tend to kill, but I stand my ground and decide to let him face the consequences of wasting police time.
Khan ST1 keeps hitting me where it hurts, pulling up every last faulty belief and smoking it to ashes. Dare I say the process is getting enjoyable? What’s the next splinter to be removed?
The resisting to do more productive things is the old you trying to stay in your comfort zone and not change
Thats like happy wife happy life 