Unrelated to subs… i have watched the trilogy of movies called zeitgest… it started conspirasy theory-esuqe and made tons of solid points considering i have whitnesed the destruction of my country first hand in 2003. Without making it about the conspiracy theories themselves or getting political about it… around the second movie i started realising something… wether true or falsy, partially true or partially false or completly in a completly grey area independant from judjment…
Even if it was completly fictional, for me it was a highly educational experiance about what the extent of how far people can go. And looking at the mirror i am no different than anyone else. Here i am, using subliminals to better myself… to gain an edge over everyone else who isnt using them. I am doing also doing whats best for me to be better than the next guy.
Just like a corporation who operates sweatshops to gain advantage… even though those two things are vastly different the motivation behind them is the same… to profit which in a since makes me no better and a hypocrite to judge.
What i got out of it is that its what humans do regardless of who is doing what. If the roles were reversed and given enough time the same thing will happen in a similar way by someone else just as easily. By coming to this realisation its not about stoping the supposed “ bad guy “ and more like what made him the way he is… how am i different from him? What he teach me about myself?
I started realising the state of the world, the horrors i whitnessed and the pain and suffering every human goes through one way or another is in essence what makes us human… i could have been 1 billion other people depending on my enviorment, who raised me, where i was born, who i met, what i heard and every experiance i ever had.
In a weird way. I am 99% the same as everyone else on the planet. Its a refreshing feeling of peace knowing there is no real enemy. There are no bad guys or even good guys… we are all both at every level and depending on the view point of things…
everyone is right since there is no absolute objectivity… everything is trulely subjective. Its the trying to do better and be better that gives meaning to life in whatever degree that entails.
After that realisation… its gonna be very difficuly for me to objectively hate or dislike anyone unless its deeply personal. I truely believe that the creator of those movies wanted this message to get across. It felt like it was more about human nature and the various ways to self persevere rather than pointing fingers. Not to judge but to understand… which is the first step
Years apon years of anger, dissapointment, failoures, fustrations and burdens dissipated. Because i no longer care about the question i have always asked myself… why me, what did i do to desurve this. How can i be better so i wont feel like this again.
I dont care about those questions anymore. By understanding why the world and by extention why everyone is in pain i realise that it fundamentally starts with me. And its up to me to end it and see the world with new eyes. The world by itself is a reflection of everything i am, can be and can do regardless if i want to or not . I dont know if this makes any sense or why i am even posting about it. It just felt like letting it out.