Choosing the principles you want to be a part of your own code of honor/conduct.
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I look for it. Thanks 
I would think yes. How about running Ascension Chamber once per week at 7, 5, or 3 minutes?
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At 7 minutes it seems great to me.
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Day 18 - 6 october 2022
I took small moments with myself to reflect and reached some conclusions:
1)a) I need proofs / experiences that I am actually have worth and I am not inferior â solution: have a little courage and try the minimum to talk to the girls and prove to myself that they like it.
The 1)a) evolved in the following conclusion.
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b) the lack of experience with women in recent years and a critical mother have created in me a sense of inferiority and the belief that no one wants me because I am not enough and that I will remain alone.
I therefore need proof / experience that I am actually I have worth and I am not inferior â solution: have a little courage and try the minimum to talk to the girls and prove to myself that they like it. (And I must also remember that in the past there are women who had interest in me, and was I to sabotage myself). -
a girl is never unique or special, she is never worth too much, in fact there will be thousands of other girls who could be better or equal to her. This destroys the concept of uniqueness and defines the concept of abundance.
And if a girl must be considered unique, it will not be her beauty alone that gives her this virtue, but what a person she proves to be. -
I canât value a girl just for her physical appearance and consequently give her all that value, and allow her to get me upset. In secret it could be a rotten person who is not worth a shit, so it is useless to raise her value in my mind for her aesthetic characteristics â solution: always asking myself âwho is she really deep inside?â " And trying to find out, this will allow me to understand if she is a low end or a high end girl.
Observation on point 4): This statement â âI canât allow her to get me upsetâ, reminds me of a teaching by Mark Manson in the book Models: "a male of superior value invests more in the idea of ââwhat he thinks of himself rather than on the idea of ââwhat others think of him ". By allowing a girl or any other person to make me tremble, I am investing more in the idea that she/he might think of me rather than the idea of ââwhat I think of myself.
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Day 19 - 7 october 2022
- Yesterday I was very desperate for women, today I feel calmer.
I did 3 min of K and LD before sleeping as recommended by @RVconsultant. I had vivid and strange dreams.
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I want to go out, meet someone (girls) and talk to someone. I feel melancholy.
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I feel insecure about approaching or talking to girls. I also have problems relating to people.
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I had an existential crisis and moments of reflection that made me realize that I am weak.
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FROM NOW ON I DONâT WANT TO LIE TO MYSELF ANY MORE, because it makes me suffer. In the long run when I cover myself with that cloak of lies that I tell myself, then it tends to break and only show a wounded heart of who I really am. So thereâs no point in lying, itâs better if Iâm honest with myself right away and start accepting things even if they hurt like hell sometimes. Only if I accept things can I begin to truly heal and change.
I have to accept that I am a nullity, that I am not capable with women, that I have difficulty in relating to people, that I am insecure, that I am introverted, that I am closed in on myself. And maybe, this hatred I feel towards everyone is just a translation of the frustration I feel because no one considers me a friend, a boyfriend or accepts me. -
Kst1 is working, it is tearing me apart, as per the title (and then rebuilding me maybe).
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It comes to my mind Ruffy of the One piece anime, despite being a fictional character is to admire and inspiration for the kind of man you want to become. Itâs funny that a fictional character creates more admiration than real ones.
I love him for his way oof not giving a fuck of people and thus breaking up social hierarchies. With only strength (physical and willpower) he can do everything, he defeats the strongest and those who hinder him or mock him in his dreams. He never gives up and has a colossal dream that needs to be fulfilled and no matter what happens he will make it.
Such as to him is Zoro. They are both men with massive ambition and with personal, mental, physical and spiritual power to envy.
I want to be like them.
Looking at them I also understand how much I am in a cage, because I am doing what I hate and not what I love. My dream, my mission, I am not chasing it now⌠but I made a promise to myself, I will work hard and âI WILL BECOME THE KING OF PIRATES!â.
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Day 20 - 8 october 2022
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I went out tonight and felt free, sociable, outgoing and carefree. Does 3 minutes of Khan St1 produce this effect? After yesterday afternoonâs reflection, did something in me become free or cured?
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I feel a total contempt for a girl from my past for whom I had a powerful crush, after I saw her, now I am sick of just hearing about her. When I saw her yesterday, I felt only contempt for her.
I have given enough mental energy for that girl and now I am left with only hatred towards her, this is the sign that I have to let her go completely, that I have let her go completely. I finally moved on and I donât need her anymore. -
What I noticed yesterday was that among people I was able to express myself freely, without filters and I felt comfortable doing it. Furthermore, the need to seek the attention of others has greatly diminished. I feel that if I want to do something, I do it. For myself, without having to prove anything to anyone and I donât even care about anyone, the mental focus has become on myself.
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day 21 - 9 October 2022
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This kind of weird thing happened to me now that I think about it, last night. When I was looking at a girl and her female friend I perceived them as normal people. They were beautiful girls but I didnât give them too much credit for their beauty. This way of seeing things relieved me a lot and could give me the opportunity to talk to them as human beings and enjoy the moment, talking and vibrating. Basically I wasnât sexualizing them. Itâs a weird experience, because those are the same girls I valued so high in my mind that I considered them unattainable. Now they seem more within my reach⌠itâs so weird that this feeling makes me feel different.
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today I feel a burning desire to learn how to seduce women, to know and learn how to do it, because looking back I realized that I have not learned anything and that I feel ignorant in this area. Although I have read a lot on this subject I do not feel I have learned anything and I have not put into practice anything that has given me great teachings.
Having also had a past with PUAs it has been difficult to find a reliable source that gives realistic advice that works.
Iâm really hungry to know, to know what attracts a girl, how to behave with women, how to text girls in efficient ways, etc ⌠-
I understand that many times, meeting, knowing and having a relationship with a âspecificâ girl is simply about being in the right place at the right time, where she is.
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You were stonewalling on the 15 mins bruh 
I have not listened to the full 15 minutes. Throughout the cycle I listened to 5 minutes and once tried 7 minutes. Eventually I stayed at 3 min every other day.
Maybe I was a bit on overload.
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3 mins seems to work well for you!!! You were executing the scripts perfectly it seemed, without fear and this instantly changed the way you looked at this womenâŚ
5 min may have already been too much 2 mins with ZP can be a delirious amount of scriptingâŚ
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Seems this is working. I started listening to 5mins of Khan St2 for my second cycle let see how it looks like.
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Yes, you are right. I noticed it too.
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For me I had the programs manifesting girls (Wanted) and even on Khan but I was careless and in a state of emotional turmoil within that I could not even enjoy the manifestations (that was on the full loops, 2x loops on Khan).
So, I think on 3 mins this would have been a different story.
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Interesting thing. Iâm curious what 3 minutes can offer me to now on.
Today begin my washout, Iâll see after that.
For me it seems the progress should not exceed the amount that Iâm capable of handling and accepting both internally and externally or Iâll start seeing diminishing returns or âshutting downâ and stonewalling.
But if this works for you Iâm very happy and I hope you can achieve Khans objectives!
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Thank you! Wish you good results too.
I am following your journal, curious to see you results
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Seriously so more loops could make one unable to enjoy the manifestation?
@SWITCH I donât even know how you perceptionalised it like that.
Essentially the scripts did what they are meant to do.
It was manifesting the women, but I had massive reconciliation on the inside. So an event which normally would arouse and entice every normal human being did not change the feelings I had within me.
So feeling bad, while the outside manifest âgoodâ scenarios makes you not really enjoy them. Because the enjoyment comes from within.
I do not know why that is but for me the subs can bring results and recon at the same timeâŚ
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