The following are the summaries of the days on this stack from day 2 to day 13:
I oscillated between moments of wanting to do something really great and feeling lost and not knowing what I want from life.
My interest in girls had waned, but then I realized it was an excuse to run away from reality and not try.
just at the first run of the cycle I felt my ambition and my desire for research and achievement of objectives rise.
I had memories of a girl who hurt me in the recent past, I haven’t thought about her in a long time.
Other than that I have had angry thoughts.
Taken from an inspiration, I set goals to be achieved.
Doubts about myself and my ability with women.
Thoughts again about the girl who hurt me, I haven’t thought about her for long.
Doubts and insecurities have surfaced.
Insecurities and a sense of inability with women have arisen.
Old harmful thoughts of redpill have surfaced. This happened to me previously with Total Breakdown.
More intense libido.
I started to value the quality of the girls more for their inner beauty and less for the aesthetic one.
Questions on how to overcome the fear of girls.
Sense of asocial when I was out, but I felt a burning desire for the women I saw around me, but I didn’t have the courage to talk to them.
Subtle insights or guts feelings about how I should behave around women.
Desire to feel strong internally and deserving of the girls I like.
I didn’t feel mature for my age. I felt that I hadn’t had enough experience to be.
I self confessed to being an introverted guy and that I don’t like talking to others very much, but despite this character gap I want women with ardor but I don’t know how to get there.
Angry at the female world.
Bad mood and little productivity with study.
a girl touched my chest to put some color on me at a color party in the evening. I asked myself a thousand questions about this and many doubts emerged.
Still feeling introverted and antisocial and having difficulty bonding with people. But the few times the others talked to me it made me happy.
fear that my presence will annoy others and therefore I feel like running away. This is a consequence of the fear of rejection and also fear of not being accepted or not good enough for people.
Next summary days coming soon.