EmpERROR - Every great Khan was once an Emperor

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#35

Yooo, never seen a red head blush that much… given that redheads usually have very pale skin and when they go red in the face, they go red! :slight_smile:

Going to use that lovely energy from that interaction to crush my foes, thank you red head. Your feminine energy will be used for prosperous endeavours.

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#36

Whenever I feel like complaining or wearing my victim suit and feeling like a special snowflake I see this gif in my head and laugh lol

I won’t let fifty laugh at me like that! Lock in!

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#37

Cycle 1
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Index Gate: UPX
▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓░ 90%

Almost done with this cycle and it’s been interesting to say the least.
Still recon and stuff to solve internally, but I feel like we made huge progress.
I take more action than before, and I think we’re gaining amazing momentum.

The concert/orchestra last night was okay, but it was my first and I am sure I will find even better ones. It’s like my history with ramen. I thought I knew good ramen until I went to Japan and started getting to know japanese people where I live as well, they showed me the way. Don’t get me wrong, I love instant noodles, but to call it ramen is an insult, and to go a place that say they serve ramen and it’s barely touching the real deal, that’s a sin. lol

Orchestras have triggered my curiosity and I look forward to hearing the real masters. The ones that got there through sweat, blood and tears.

Started to listen to more majestic and epic soundtrack music, because I feel like I am in my own movie building my story and movie, and it’s going to be epic. All powered by Emperor.

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#38

Cycle 1 - Day 20
▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓░ 95%
Rest day

Almost done, final listening day tomorrow. :slight_smile:

I have received my new gear from the new job as well this week. I am going to set it all up before the onboarding next week when I got the time.

I’ve been getting more and more aware of how to prioritize stuff better. I feel less stress this way. I have a feeling this process of prioritizing will get better the more I run Emperor. Right now I have to sit and analyze alot, but with time, things will just be clearer and the decisiveness will be bolder.

Is this important? Is this urgent?
if (!isImportant || !isUrgent) => It can wait.

I look way leaner and sexier in the mirror, regardless of the fat. I just feel like my body has gotten better and my veins are popping more. I just look so strong as well, very masucline and good posture. I love the way my body seem to change and how my self-image is also improving. Can’t wait til I actually start a serious cardio and fitness routine, which will happen somewhere in October.

Anyway, time for some coding studies. Later tonight I am heading to a social activity and dinner with an old circle of friends.

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#39

Cycle 1 - Day 21
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Index Gate: UPX
▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ 100%

And we are done!

  • I feel sexier and more masculine when I look myself in the mirror, a mix of physical shifting and better self-image.
  • I have actually been free of PMO for 21 days now. Which is awesome! I couldn’t do it on Khan Black, but I have done it now.
  • I have been taking action daily, and a fear of not taking enough action has also emerged. Moar, I need moar.
  • I have meditated daily.
  • I got a new job, and about to start next week, after countless interviews and denials.
  • My confidence and self-esteem is growing.
  • I have worked alot with self-acceptance, so the confidence I am building now isn’t as fragile, and I think it will be a great foundation as I keep running this stack and build upon it.
  • Alot of deep healing I guess, or rather, recon that lead to me facing my emotions and energies in the body and processing them better.
  • Fearlessness of my emotions and demons.
  • Better outlook on the future and the growth ahead.
  • Challenges excite me, bad emotions excite me, because I know I am about to hit another level.
  • Improved goal setting habit
  • Work in progress: Improved prioritization, self-acceptance etc.
  • Consistently walked 10k steps daily.
  • A crazy drive to keep pushing to the next level… thinking of all the ways I can improve, and fearless of admiting my flaws.

Anyway, it’s just the first cycle, but I can’t wait for the next one and the growth it entails.
Emperor is awesome but you gotta be ready to do the work and face your bs. I am learning more about myself everyday, what runs me and overcoming those challenges and blockages. Oh and you gotta take action, else you will feel even worse.

Washout and the next phase starts after that.

  • New job and new goals.
  • About to take my fitness to the next level with a consistent strength training and cardio routine.
  • Work on my sleep hygiene and hydration, still working on this.
  • My sexual energy is getting out of hand now and I am thinking i might hit blue balls zone soon. I might need to release or find a way to transmute it more hardcore, or just reset and then do it again. No pr0n, but I might just release the nectar. I don’t know.
  • Keep going up!

Another interesting thing that is growing is self-acceptance. Self-acceptance is not weakness, or losing or failing. It’s actually the toughest thing, because you gotta accept your flaws. Every thing that triggers me, I (try hard to) face it completely, and even if someone else is at fault, I use it to ruthlessly investigate what rotten thing in me it brought out and if I somehow am triggered because it reminds me of some darkness inside me. Fearlessness. It’s a work in progress, because facing the bad thing in you is very hard.

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#40

That absolutetly summaries my current state on Emperor. Thanks for writing it down.

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#41

Yeah totally.

I personally have realized it’s so draining to be pulled into every single thing people do. That’s another thing I am working on or that is improving, the aspect of not caring and deciding what to spend your time and energy on. Literally started to naturally come to the conclusion that if I give everything my time and energy I’ll be so drained and the things that really matter I won’t have juice for.

People will test me, people will do what people do, and I just gotta accept it and not take it personal, because otherwise I’ll go insane. So like you, I am slowly learning to accept and detach from other peoples BS. I have enough bs from within to deal with.

Always good to read other Emperors journey. :slight_smile:

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#42

Washout and recon 🥲

I need to stop escaping and face it!

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#43

“No one wants to get up at 4 and run when it’s pitch-dark, but it has to be done. The only reason i do it so early is because i believe the other guy isn’t doing it and that gives me a little edge” - Mike Tyson

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#44

Cycle 1 - Washout III

So much anxiety and drama in me when I decided to take a gaming sabbatical. I guess it’s more than just a hobby then, huh?

It’s like when you take the ring from Bilbo Baggins.

Crazy. I really need that sabbatical then. :face_with_hand_over_mouth:

(that’s how I look now, minus the teeth and hair. I have no hair and my teeth are pretty well taken care of)

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#45

Cycle 1 - Washout IV
Introduction at work was great so far. Met some cool people that I’ve already learned some stuff from. So many cool dudes and dudettes. It’s going to be interesting. :smirk:

Recon has settled and with that it left a message that needs to be reflected upon, it revealed a unhealthy desire:
“I just want to be liked.”

It’s a natural thing really, and healthy if not based on trauma, but like anything it can also be taken to the extreme. So if it’s causing stress and anxiety, there are some beliefs that need be sorted out.

You can’t be liked by everyone. You can’t please everyone. You can’t control everyone or their perceptions of you. You can just refine your values and work on living up to them and live your truth. Find the people that click with that. Some people will dislike you no matter what you do.

You’re not here to be liked by everyone.

#46

Cycle 2 - Day 1
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Index Gate: UPX

It’s hard to be lazy on EmpERROR.
It’s getting harder and harder to waste time.

This cycle I’m thinking of adding Limitless back in. But we’ll see… recon has settled now but boy was it challenging at times and I don’t need more growth and recon because empERROR is giving massive growth already.

Dude at work asked me to review his CV and I took my headphones off and just mentioned tips I got from a HR person. And I looked behind me, as saw a head turning in my peripheral view, and there she was, overheard me mentioning her name and came over to help. I connected them. No guilt over throwing him at her. Felt good, now she can help him and I can focus on my tasks. :smiling_imp:

Headphones back on.
Azure certification studies. Locked in.

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#47

Rant?
When I see other people’s bs and catch myself judging or virtue signalling I go, yo where am I doing the exact same thing?

Where am I lost?
Where am I delusional?
Where am I self-sabotaging?
Where am I rationalising myself into weakness and loser mentality?
Where am I rationalising being good but actually I’m lost in recon?
Where am I self-sabotaging?

Oh wow, recon is crazy. It’s only crazy because we are are also crazy good at rationalising, playing tricks on ourselves, self-sabotage, delusions etc. wow

You are your greatest enemy and no matter what we say, if you keep rationalising weakness for greatness, and if you don’t see that, no one can help.

I don’t want to be blind. It might be hard to see unconsciousness in yourself, but I know it’s easy seeing it in others and judge. So I’m using that to turn the lights back on me and find my blind spots.

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#48

Was at a lovely work party today. Met some cool people and had some fun with my superior. :slight_smile:

I pushed them a bit too much, but they said, hey man, proactivity is always welcome, as long as you’re ok with answers like “Not yet, be patient.”.

So it all good. I just want to make sure, they know, I reached out and am hungry. In the meanwhile I’m leveling up (cert exam), and doing work internally.

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#49

If I ran WB I would be crazy. My current work, dude, wth…. :blonde_woman: :woman_red_haired:

It’s insane, it’s actually pretty weird.

Don’t do it!

#50

Me

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I refuse to be a broken record. :facepunch:

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#51

Yup, that how it do go tho. Before you know it you’ve run 30 subs in 2 years and you’re like…wait, why haven’t I changed lol.

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#52

Don’t do it bro
It’s most likely Emperor’s romance scripting pushing you to take action, and one of those actions can be listening to a seduction title.
If you add WB all this progress will be down the drain. It’s completely another path.
Continue with your stack.
You are getting better and better.

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#53

Thanks for the input guys, I’m not switching. 🫶

That was a drunken cocktail of recon, massive sexual energy and whole lot of beautiful girls checking me out. :face_with_hand_over_mouth:

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#54

Cycle 2 - Day 3
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Limitless

See you on the other side of the weekend. In recon I enter, in glory I must come out. 🫡

I decided to add Limitless after all, we’ll see if the recon gets too much with regards to my issues around cognition.

That O in empERROR was always an infinity symbol.

EmpERR :infinity: R

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