EmpERROR - Every great Khan was once an Emperor

[Risky]

Yeah totally.

I personally have realized it’s so draining to be pulled into every single thing people do. That’s another thing I am working on or that is improving, the aspect of not caring and deciding what to spend your time and energy on. Literally started to naturally come to the conclusion that if I give everything my time and energy I’ll be so drained and the things that really matter I won’t have juice for.

People will test me, people will do what people do, and I just gotta accept it and not take it personal, because otherwise I’ll go insane. So like you, I am slowly learning to accept and detach from other peoples BS. I have enough bs from within to deal with.

Always good to read other Emperors journey.

[Risky]

Washout and recon 🥲

I need to stop escaping and face it!

[Risky]

“No one wants to get up at 4 and run when it’s pitch-dark, but it has to be done. The only reason i do it so early is because i believe the other guy isn’t doing it and that gives me a little edge” - Mike Tyson

[Risky]

Cycle 1 - Washout III

So much anxiety and drama in me when I decided to take a gaming sabbatical. I guess it’s more than just a hobby then, huh?

It’s like when you take the ring from Bilbo Baggins.

Crazy. I really need that sabbatical then.

(that’s how I look now, minus the teeth and hair. I have no hair and my teeth are pretty well taken care of)

[Risky]

Cycle 1 - Washout IV
Introduction at work was great so far. Met some cool people that I’ve already learned some stuff from. So many cool dudes and dudettes. It’s going to be interesting.

Recon has settled and with that it left a message that needs to be reflected upon, it revealed a unhealthy desire:
“I just want to be liked.”

It’s a natural thing really, and healthy if not based on trauma, but like anything it can also be taken to the extreme. So if it’s causing stress and anxiety, there are some beliefs that need be sorted out.

You can’t be liked by everyone. You can’t please everyone. You can’t control everyone or their perceptions of you. You can just refine your values and work on living up to them and live your truth. Find the people that click with that. Some people will dislike you no matter what you do.

You’re not here to be liked by everyone.

[Risky]

Cycle 2 - Day 1
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Index Gate: UPX

It’s hard to be lazy on EmpERROR.
It’s getting harder and harder to waste time.

This cycle I’m thinking of adding Limitless back in. But we’ll see… recon has settled now but boy was it challenging at times and I don’t need more growth and recon because empERROR is giving massive growth already.

Dude at work asked me to review his CV and I took my headphones off and just mentioned tips I got from a HR person. And I looked behind me, as saw a head turning in my peripheral view, and there she was, overheard me mentioning her name and came over to help. I connected them. No guilt over throwing him at her. Felt good, now she can help him and I can focus on my tasks.

Headphones back on.
Azure certification studies. Locked in.

[Risky]

Rant?
When I see other people’s bs and catch myself judging or virtue signalling I go, yo where am I doing the exact same thing?

Where am I lost?
Where am I delusional?
Where am I self-sabotaging?
Where am I rationalising myself into weakness and loser mentality?
Where am I rationalising being good but actually I’m lost in recon?
Where am I self-sabotaging?

Oh wow, recon is crazy. It’s only crazy because we are are also crazy good at rationalising, playing tricks on ourselves, self-sabotage, delusions etc. wow

You are your greatest enemy and no matter what we say, if you keep rationalising weakness for greatness, and if you don’t see that, no one can help.

I don’t want to be blind. It might be hard to see unconsciousness in yourself, but I know it’s easy seeing it in others and judge. So I’m using that to turn the lights back on me and find my blind spots.

[Risky]

Was at a lovely work party today. Met some cool people and had some fun with my superior.

I pushed them a bit too much, but they said, hey man, proactivity is always welcome, as long as you’re ok with answers like “Not yet, be patient.”.

So it all good. I just want to make sure, they know, I reached out and am hungry. In the meanwhile I’m leveling up (cert exam), and doing work internally.

[Risky]

If I ran WB I would be crazy. My current work, dude, wth….

It’s insane, it’s actually pretty weird.

Don’t do it!

[Risky]

Me

I refuse to be a broken record.

[praisetheurdtree]

Yup, that how it do go tho. Before you know it you’ve run 30 subs in 2 years and you’re like…wait, why haven’t I changed lol.

[Kingarthur256]

Don’t do it bro
It’s most likely Emperor’s romance scripting pushing you to take action, and one of those actions can be listening to a seduction title.
If you add WB all this progress will be down the drain. It’s completely another path.
Continue with your stack.
You are getting better and better.

[Risky]

Thanks for the input guys, I’m not switching. 🫶

That was a drunken cocktail of recon, massive sexual energy and whole lot of beautiful girls checking me out.

[Risky]

Cycle 2 - Day 3
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | Limitless

See you on the other side of the weekend. In recon I enter, in glory I must come out. 🫡

I decided to add Limitless after all, we’ll see if the recon gets too much with regards to my issues around cognition.

That O in empERROR was always an infinity symbol.

EmpERR R

[Risky]

Cycle 2 - Day 4
Rest

Recon bruv.
But it’s not a bad thing, it means things are happening and I’ve been focusing this Sunday on reflecting and refining my goals.

Recon this rough I usually find myself escaping and coping, then catching myself in the act or after and realise I need to wake up and dive into the recon with curiosity and courage to find the gold nuggets of glory.

I wonder what forms of conscious guidance there is besides setting goals and taking action towards those goals? I bet visualising is one. I want to find advanced and extreme versions. Because I want to squeeze the juice out if this experience.

I’m an extreme person. Bring it on.

[Risky]

Cycle 2 - Day 5
03:00 | Emperor
03:00 | IG: UPX

Conscious Guidance formula:
Intention + Action

I’ve struggled a bit with how I’m doing this or if I’m doing it at all. I feel I got a better grip on it today.

Basically, I sit to study, I intend to study and retain all the information for passing certification exam and being able to use this knowledge later for decision making or implementation. I also think of the subs I use and what I want from them. I want the drive and motivation from Emp, I want the cognition from IG and Limitless. I also want opportunities to use this knowledge in practice.

Just some random thoughts I needed to write down.

What would empERROR do, think and feel?

Noticed these things today:

• A better idea of how to work with my goals and subs (conscious guidance)
• Better plan for a certificate
• Improvements to my study methodology
• Drive and focus +
• Intuitive understanding of when I need a snack to keep the CPU in my head at full throttle for 8 hours
• Self-esteem +

I studied for 6 hours straight today and am confident I can take the certificate exam one day earlier. Some insights will make my studying even better tomorrow.

[Risky]

My new wardrobe just arrived. I look smooth and pro now. I just have the need to dress for success. It’s a play, it’s a game, and you gotta play your part.

A lot of looks in the office. Yep, I’m the new guy and I’m here to crush it. I want that my presence automatically increases everyone’s standards and work ethics. I want customers to feel like they just hired The Wolf and all is good, don’t worry now, the guy is here to fix it. I want them to feel instant relief when they see me.

Anyway, leveling up and proactively looking for assignments. Feeling good and confident.

[Risky]

This image is on my mind. I used it to prioritise at work and an thinking of using it for other areas of life as well. Even at work I can have different ones at different “states”. For example in project, outside of project and at parties even.

Likewise in my private life I can make one for personal development, which areas are of highest priority for upcoming 3-6 months etc. also for my specific areas, like one for fitness, spirituality.

Basically learning and implementing prioritisation.

For example even sub use. Action intention and journaling might be urgent and important, and reading the forums compulsively not urgent and not as important. But I can also use it to decide on subs that are most important/urgent for my current life and upcoming goals.

It’s true what they say about Emperor, it cuts the bs.

[Risky]

Cycle 2 - Day 7
03:00 | Limitless

Another day at the office. Focus on studying, networking and doing some various CV and assignment communication at work.

Tomorrow I have a couple meetings and a test to take. I hope I pass so I can show my boss what a drive I have. If I fail, it’ll show how bold I am and not afraid of failing. Also a lesson on more realistic planning. On empERROR you always win.

Late reflections and recon have been around the subject of putting people on some weird pedestal. Respect is fine, you should treat every human with respect, but putting them on a pedestal? Nope. Also respect needs to be mutual.

Anyway just something I’m processing, noticing where I do it and letting it go.

[Risky]

To be above average you have to do more than average. You have to do more than is accepted and expected of you.

Why?

Because from a slight different perspective, perhaps even an bird’s eye view, you might realise that what is expected and accepted is pretty low standards.

Check the standards!

This pretty and pro girl at an office said like 10 times, “I’m going to pee. I’m going to pee and then we can leave for lunch. Peeeeee.”

At first I was like, wow, it’s pretty down to earth here. I can lower my standards too and let myself go. Might even let some gas go soon.

But then I was like, wtf, that is kinda weird thing to say, out loud (pee) in an office environment. I got kinda disgusted. I was envisioning myself working top notch business and being super pro but this peeing talk ruined that vision. I also realised I put this woman on a pedestal and lowered my standard because she’s pretty, but I’m pretty by her now. (Not really, that’s a harsh thing to say. But I’m rather disillusioned.)

Ah it’s complicated!

TLDR: Step up kid!

Also being pretty is not enough buddy, step up if you want to lunch with an Emperor. Where my hot monarchs at? You know, the fine ladies who say “I need to use the rest room” like pros?