Giving feedback, something new, a expansion. Expansions can be scary and cause fear and anxiety. I choose to expand, fearless expansion. Courageous action. It’s my nature. It’s nature. It’s life. Its existence.
They say the universe is constantly expanding. Why shouldn’t you?
I fear. But I’m going to do it anyway. Because I don’t believe someone should fear their nature.
Oh wee, name embedded majors boy!
I’m going to get the stack I’m running now:
Today I weighed 94.7. That’s 7.3 kg lost. 
I finished a cyber security basics course just to refresh the basics.
Action man 
Been researching dumb phones 
I didn’t grow up with my father, but ask anyone who knew him and they’ll tell you he was the life of the party. He ran an international chain of nightclubs and was known for cross-dressing, stripping, and surprising friends by turning up on a camel. And you know what? He never drank.
The reason (likely apocryphal) was that he once got so drunk in college that he fell out a window with his pants off. Who cares if it really happened? For the next seven decades, he stayed sober. He never concealed it, never apologized, never made excuses. He just ordered a ginger ale and got on with the night.
Writing this here as well to remember to work through the questions and explore my inner landscape surrounding success and wealth.
Also, excited for the name embedded majors. Excited to find out how my run will evolve and how the recon will be like in the next cycle, which will be my 7th cycle of this stack. Probably the longest I’ve run a stack, so I have a pretty good feel for the recon and will notice changes, even subtle ones.
Lately, I also feel like my flow factor have improved, probably because I take more action and believe/trust more in process.
Consistency with subs it’s important for many reasons. For example to understand how recon affects you. How blockages show up. How nudges from the subconscious emerge to point you in the right direction.
How will you understand this if you switch subs every week? You’re getting hit by different scripts, different nudges, different recon, it’s a mess. Too many factors to keep track of, to make sense of.
Different blocks or success ceilings show up differently. Different ways you self-sabotage or rationalise out of fear, anxiety and discomfort.
But once you’re consistent, you start to see patterns and you start to trust the process even more, you notice changes and most importantly take more focused action. Things become easier and clearer. It becomes a snowball effect. It becomes a upward spiral.
Todays question, how do you define success?
What’s your goal? What’s your dream? How do you define success?
List a bunch of stuff. For example I might define success as salary. I know this because when someone in my career path earns twice as much, I might think they are more successful than me.
That’s one stuff. Then I question it. Analyze it. Counter it.
For example this dude after university got the sickest salary. It was a couple K’s higher than mine. Not insanely much. But still, highest entry salary I’ve seen. I got jealous, then I find out he works 60 hour work weeks for that. While I work 40 hours. Is salary really success to me?
Let’s not stop there, he also learned alot more, simply because he had to work that much, he probably got insane projects. He was also growing in resilience. Learning to deal with pressure. He did his dog years, while I was cozy. Too cozy. Is this still success? I don’t know, but now it’s alot more complex than just salary. It’s more nuanced.
Salary by itself can’t define career success. We’re making progress now.
And so on.
Ordered the majors…
Index Gate + MDFY: New Skill Experience
Emperor + SYNERGY: Carpe Vitam
Limitless + SYNERGY: Machine Totality
Joined a new team today and it seems like a top notch team. My last team was also top notch, glad it continues. 
I have a really great feeling about 2025.
Major action. Major prospering. Major growth. Major results.
Where’s my major?
”Yo I’ve decided! This is the way!”
1 week later
”This is more me. Decided to go that way instead.”
1 week later
”Actually this isme 4 real this time. This is the way. I was wrong before.”
To infinity.
Where am I delusional? In many ways. Let’s clean it up. Thanks for reminding me.
@Skadoosh you crushing it?
Btw, highest value posts are written by skadoosh.
Got asked to be the front guy at an recruitment event we’re holding.
I’m supposed to share what I learned from a conference to colleagues, hold a presentation. I’m nervous, but I can’t not push forward and face it all.
I’m on edge, I can tell I’m going through some recon right now. Anxiety, fear and worry.
I had my first meet up today with the security group. Went well, they were cool.
I’ve signed up for a 4 hour course on security for software engineers.
Gotta just keep busy, stay present, take action, and trust the process. Learn as we go.
Got the embedded main titles now. Listened to limitless + machine totality for 15 minutes. I repeat, the full loop and it felt smooth. We’ll see, the recon can come later. But it’s fine. It’s time to get real.
I haven’t run a full loop in a year or two. So this is interesting and exciting.
Feel super confident and capable.
I don’t know man. Embedded majors seems like the shiznit.
Me after running Limitless + Synergy: Machine Totality
Failure it’s part of life. It’s really a generalozed word that is not always fair to use, but nonetheless. We stumble, we fall, we get back up, we stabilize, we keep going, it’s part of life. Mistakes happen. Mistakes get rectified. Life goes on. Being stuck analyzing or being paralyzed by failure, or because of fear of failure is a trap and waste of energy and time. Go for it. Reap the wins and lessons and keep going.
Go on….
Another 15 minute loop of Limitless + Machine Totality. It’s awesome. I’ll push the other two embedded majors to 15 minutes as well next time. I can handle it. I want the growth.
Recon is winning. Recon is the way. In recon I trust.
I’ve become hyper aware of nudges and me acting upon them has gotten much better. These nudges could be what I need to do for the next level. I’ll just follow them, not blindly, but with pinch of faith, and a squeezed juice of common sense.
I’ve realised with big boy subs you gotta make a commitment to run them for a year or more, no matter what.
Because switching subs is not the answer. Why? Because I see the pattern. The pattern is, growth inducing challenge appears, I’ll switch subs.
Don’t.
No matter what because it’s bs.
Success ceilings, recon and self-sabotage
You might not know but in software engineering there’s fewer females than males. It’s improving, every year, but it’s a very clear there is less females in not only work but also tech educations.
I was listening to a programmer podcast with only females and they mentioned they both had this preconceived vision of how a programmer looks, lives and behaves. They were both reluctant to start that university program. Now they have been in the industry are glad they chose this path and also glad they challenged their preconceived notions.
While there does exist anti-social, neckbeards, with low emotional intelligence, bad hygiene and childish demeanour. Many SWE are pretty cool, working hard, exercising, skiing, hiking and camping. The 80s hacker image from Hollywood is mostly bs.
This is like people wanting to become coders, but they have this pre conceived notion of what that is, and what Index Gate: Ultimate Programmer X will turn them into. Forgetting that this is ZP and NSE, you will become your true potential and desires. Even if you don’t know what that means yet.
They might even experience the preconceived things. Simply because they are working through success ceiling and self-sabotage and limiting beliefs. Their beliefs and subconscious structures are transforming and this can be confusing and recon filled. Recon is also pretty confusing and complex thing.
This is similar to being worried that Emperor makes you antisocial or serious. You don’t know what you’re talking about.
It’s like poor people thinking rich people are stressed and work 18 hours a day. ” that’s not for me.” That’s a wealth ceiling.
From your current level, you can’t understand fully what people go through on a higher level.
What if they get rejuvenated and get joy from working hard? What if they feel better doing that than gaming? What if they just work smarter? What if they might work hard for 3-6 months then party in Bali for 6 months?
”No, they are just serious. You just know. You can feel it.” You’re right. Lol
Another example, obese family members think you’re starving and hurting yourself eating healthier and losing weight. Thinking you go around with hunger pains? Another success ceiling. When I lost 30 kg, eating clean, no refined sugar. A banana would feel and taste so sweet I felt slightly sick. When I was obese, I didn’t even think that banana had sugar in it. I was so used to bombard my body with sugar, fat and oil. How could I have known that a skinny person must be suffering if I did not get there and experienced it myself? After losing that weight, I ate so much and still kept the abs and I wondered God, how much do I have to eat (clean + weight lifting) to gain weight again? I was thinking obese people must be suffering because they must walk around with constant food coma and full belly pains. Funny.
It’s crazy, but ceilings are real. They feel real. Real or not, they keep you at bay, they might as well be real.
Anyway, just some random things I’m processing.
