I did well. The initial phase is over, now I just need to do some things in the next couple of months and hopefully I’m done forever with it…
Other than that, seems like I cleared some big things regarding subs and now the results are blooming again. A lot of people are messaging me, I’m productive, etc.
Girls are trying to flirt with me, people are trying to talk to me. That’s good
Still lacking in the income department though. Well, I’ll get there.
Seems like Wealth is still my number 1 area that needs improvement regarding beliefs and actual income lol. I had a dream which kind of highlighted it for me. I think this is NSE at work. Actually it’s like I for the first time understand how NSE works on me, I understood its principles.
Also, it’s kind of weird but it looks like the subs have an effect of teaching me to use the subs properly, from zero. Like, today I’ve been reflecting a bit and understood the importance of journaling, importance of working WITH the script (instead of just living my life, listening to subs and taking action and hoping for the best - it works as well, I did it, but it’s not as efficient as deliberate work).
Idk if it’s the effect of ST2 of EOG or bloom of ST1, or the synergy between my subs but I spent all day talking to DeepSeek, exploring my inner blocks for wealth, learning financial literacy tactics. It’s been extremely insightful to say the least
Ngl, it seems like I’m encountering some roadblocks in every step on my journey. Like, technical issues/some services turning out to be blocked in my country/some of the necessary apps not working properly, etc
I wonder if I just need a bit more healing around wealth and it’s just faulty beliefs manifest, or am I not the one to blame here and it’s just geoeconomical situation in my country and I should just keep going? lol
(I’ll keep going regardless)
That’s also partly recon. I feel like I’ve stagnated and not moving further. It’s interesting that this feeling doesn’t go away despite me looking at my journal entries and seeing quite good progress lol
I’ll double down on taking action then.
Recon precedes results, so far that’s been the pattern for me. Finally my social media accounts started attracting some clients
Also, I must accept now that I’m not that great as I imagined myself to be - thinking I can handle full loops and less rest days, thinking that I don’t get much recon, etc. In truth, I was drowning in recon and wasn’t noticing it lol. I subconsciously sabotaged myself by using full loops, getting bad recon, switching subs. Or just drowning in recon and not being to resolve it.
The truth is, microloops really work. And additional rest days are useful too. I was chasing sensations, thinking that the sub will do most of the work; now I guess I’ve truly grown enough so that I take full responsibility for my life both consciously and subconsciously and prioritize long-term growth and programming over some sensations from listening. Took me long enough huh. But I’m still very pleased with the progress I’ve made here overall
I don’t know why, but this message specifically hit me when Saint wrote it 4 days ago
Currently my loops are around 3 mins. It’s not fixated but I just have no urge to go further like I had in the past. For SB, I actually stopped somewhere around 2 mins. Yet I see the objective data that it works (views on social media, amount of people messaging me out of nowhere, understanding of wealth, growth of confidence, basically everything promised) and works better than when I ran it in the past with full loops, for example
I’m even considering doing a full cycle of 30s loops of EOG ST1 when I’m going to be re-running it in the future. Just to see how it would affect me compared to 3-15 mins
3:00 - RICH
Feeling good overall. A bit of recon in the form of some uncertainty in most things - but it’s barely noticeable.
My sleep has been not so good lately - I’d wake up after 6-7 hours naturally but would not feel refreshed. And at the same time I can’t go back to sleep. Will need to work on that
How does one even discern when you want to switch stack out of recon or when you want to switch stack because it is just a good idea for you? lol
I had a thought this morning to take a break from RICH for 1-2 cycles, to give more focus and exposure to SB + EOG combo. Sounds logical, sane, right?
Then I thought that it must be just recon, to which my subconscious responds with the idea to take a break from the sub. But if it’s recon, I should continue because some breakthrough is right around the corner lol
Decided to stretch my productivity and comfort zone a bit and learn a new skill to get money. Will do my best to maintain the necessary minimum for my activities, but gonna focus on this new skill.
My thinking: if I learn it and apply it, I’ll be able to earn some money in the short term which will close my debts + provide money for accelerated business growth (because starting with no initial capital is rough lol)
It’s very interesting to see how subs nudge me to do it. Like, I woke up today after a nap (I guess RICH processed lol) and immediately just knew that I need to do this. Also, I got resources for that through my network.
What skill? Or is it secret for now? (I understand the need/desire for secrecy, if so)
It’s 3D motion design, There are not a lot of 3D motion specialists in my country and the pricing on videos is quite nice, as opposed to basic video editing which is oversaturated and hasn’t been that great lately
I think it’s a good idea for me to invest 2-3 months in this currently
Gonna have RICH’s manifestation tmrw (did a favour to some close family friends without expecting anything in return, today learnt that they will actually pay me)
EDIT: done, got the same sum as here Emperor's Journey - #48 by anon15812918
For me, RICH manifests very organically (I guess because it synergizes with NWE in my stack) - it throws at me some opportunities and then gets me money through them. And it gives me more money than I expect
I’m kind of getting recon in the form of me wanting to delegate some tasks but also me not having enough resources to delegate some tasks lol
I think it’s SB’s (SB is a leader, not worker) and EOG ST2’s results (“Mastering delegation”). Idk how to resolve this recon, so I’ll just keep working on my stuff anyway until I get enough cashflow from my business to hire someone
Also, closed one of my debts with RICH’s manifestation 
- got just a bit now, I’ll close them by the end of the year if I just pay minimum. But let’s see if I’ll be able to close them faster with my stack
today is a recon day. Not feeling very productive overall, and also have the desire to switch subs lol - of course I’m not going to do it
Just going to take a nap, then tackle some easy tasks to kickstart momentum
Damn, I was just HIT with a BIG realization that I actually am lacking in self love. I don’t hate myself though but don’t love either, I just am. It ties to wealth too but seems to affect all areas of my life, now that I’m reflecting on it.
I think not loving myself does limit my potential. I’m not really sure how to work on it consciously, I’ll research it.
Sure, I could also add Love Bomb (or rotate it), but I’m not going to do it, not now at least - I believe there’s enough self love scripting in my stack already, that’s why this issue is even being tackled.
I was hit by so much recon after that, almost gave in and switched subs to youtube ones, how could I even thought of falling that low lol
Nevertheless, the rational part of my brain took over and I pushed through, it’s fine now but I’m also very angry.
My lack of sleep certainly doesn’t help the situation
I noticed that soon after listening, I start to get a lot of positive, hopeful thoughts on the topic of the sub
Recon seems to have passed mostly. There’s still something in the background.
I just realized that since adding Stark Black, my views on social media nearly tripled
Took a nap and saw a weird dream - in the dream I woke up in my room, with my leg tied to bed. I managed to untie myself and saw some movement outside of it. I found some sharp object and sneaked near my kitchen, where I saw some dude sitting, playing on a phone. Again, it’s all happening in my apartment so I just jumped on him, trying to pierce his back with that sharp thing I found and then went for his throat but his skin couldn’t be pierced at all. So we started fighting and he literally started trying to suck out the soul from my body. And at the same time I saw another dude running to jump on me as well, so I threw the first one at him and woke up. Fuck 'em demons, 2v1 isn’t fair lol
Anyway, weird dream