Been in an extremely productive mood lately. All major work is done in the first few hours of the day, absolute productivity, ideas are overflowing, confidence is extremely high. My diet is getting better, my enthusiasm is getting better, adding more and more “recharging stations” that I mentioned above which allows me to recover better, gain health, increase productivity further, etc.
The great thing about this productivity is that it’s not based on discipline and pushing myself (“alright, today I have to this, that and that…”) - instead, it’s based on desires. I genuinely want to work on the productive things
Also, noticed an extremely important shift in my mentality. Before, I’d naturally get discouraged with each failed attempt at something. But now, I actually gain more enthusiasm and agression (not anger! just healthy agression) to pursue my goals after each failure
I realized that I rely on the subs too much. Well, I mean, “physically”, I’m out here taking action, it’s part of my life, but mentally, I still FEEL as if it’s the sub that manifests stuff into my life, achieves the results, etc.
I always understood it cognitively but right now something clicked. I recently made a thread about the desire to listen more and seems like it was my stack trying to make me take more responsibility over my life and not on the subs.
I’m not really sure how helpful this realization is for me currently because as I said, I already am taking action, constantly working on improving, etc. - but now I truly FEEL (and not just cognitively understand) that the responsibility is on me
Finally got a definite RICH result! Unexpectedly was gifted some money. Converting in dollars, it’s around 50 which doesn’t seem like much but in my country that’s quite nice - just not sure how to illustrate it lol
woke up fatigued today, I didn’t sleep well. Mostly have been doing easy tasks. I’m quite easy on myself. I’m not pushing myself anymore, I’m doing what I want and not doing what I don’t want.
My posture is better, I’m learning to look people in the eyes when I walk outside (I don’t know why but I had problems with it). I’m waking with shoulders back, chin up.
I do feel more confident and certain in my future overall. There’s this “keep going” attitude. Like, giving up is completely absent from my mind, in any endeavor. Before this journey I would occasionally think like “maybe I should give up X/Y/Z” but now it’s not an option. As I said somewhere in this journal, there’s even more motivation after each failure, until I succeed.
Also, I decided to hell with it, I’m gonna do Stark Black instead of OG Stark, for fame aspect loool. If it works, good; if not - I can always switch to OG Stark (I’ve started my cycle a few days ago and already listened to SB)
Also, I guess this unexpected desire to journal a bit publicly is a direct result of SB. Subs are fascinating
Have an important thing to do tomorrow, something for which I’ve been preparing for almost half a year already. Something which will free up a ton of my free time and cognitive resources once completed. I’m not going to go into details
Other than that, accidentally made a friend who is going through a similar thing. SB is really shining lol.
I did well. The initial phase is over, now I just need to do some things in the next couple of months and hopefully I’m done forever with it…
Other than that, seems like I cleared some big things regarding subs and now the results are blooming again. A lot of people are messaging me, I’m productive, etc.
Girls are trying to flirt with me, people are trying to talk to me. That’s good
Still lacking in the income department though. Well, I’ll get there.
Seems like Wealth is still my number 1 area that needs improvement regarding beliefs and actual income lol. I had a dream which kind of highlighted it for me. I think this is NSE at work. Actually it’s like I for the first time understand how NSE works on me, I understood its principles.
Also, it’s kind of weird but it looks like the subs have an effect of teaching me to use the subs properly, from zero. Like, today I’ve been reflecting a bit and understood the importance of journaling, importance of working WITH the script (instead of just living my life, listening to subs and taking action and hoping for the best - it works as well, I did it, but it’s not as efficient as deliberate work).
Idk if it’s the effect of ST2 of EOG or bloom of ST1, or the synergy between my subs but I spent all day talking to DeepSeek, exploring my inner blocks for wealth, learning financial literacy tactics. It’s been extremely insightful to say the least
Ngl, it seems like I’m encountering some roadblocks in every step on my journey. Like, technical issues/some services turning out to be blocked in my country/some of the necessary apps not working properly, etc
I wonder if I just need a bit more healing around wealth and it’s just faulty beliefs manifest, or am I not the one to blame here and it’s just geoeconomical situation in my country and I should just keep going? lol
That’s also partly recon. I feel like I’ve stagnated and not moving further. It’s interesting that this feeling doesn’t go away despite me looking at my journal entries and seeing quite good progress lol
Recon precedes results, so far that’s been the pattern for me. Finally my social media accounts started attracting some clients
Also, I must accept now that I’m not that great as I imagined myself to be - thinking I can handle full loops and less rest days, thinking that I don’t get much recon, etc. In truth, I was drowning in recon and wasn’t noticing it lol. I subconsciously sabotaged myself by using full loops, getting bad recon, switching subs. Or just drowning in recon and not being to resolve it.
The truth is, microloops really work. And additional rest days are useful too. I was chasing sensations, thinking that the sub will do most of the work; now I guess I’ve truly grown enough so that I take full responsibility for my life both consciously and subconsciously and prioritize long-term growth and programming over some sensations from listening. Took me long enough huh. But I’m still very pleased with the progress I’ve made here overall
I don’t know why, but this message specifically hit me when Saint wrote it 4 days ago
Currently my loops are around 3 mins. It’s not fixated but I just have no urge to go further like I had in the past. For SB, I actually stopped somewhere around 2 mins. Yet I see the objective data that it works (views on social media, amount of people messaging me out of nowhere, understanding of wealth, growth of confidence, basically everything promised) and works better than when I ran it in the past with full loops, for example
I’m even considering doing a full cycle of 30s loops of EOG ST1 when I’m going to be re-running it in the future. Just to see how it would affect me compared to 3-15 mins
Feeling good overall. A bit of recon in the form of some uncertainty in most things - but it’s barely noticeable.
My sleep has been not so good lately - I’d wake up after 6-7 hours naturally but would not feel refreshed. And at the same time I can’t go back to sleep. Will need to work on that
How does one even discern when you want to switch stack out of recon or when you want to switch stack because it is just a good idea for you? lol
I had a thought this morning to take a break from RICH for 1-2 cycles, to give more focus and exposure to SB + EOG combo. Sounds logical, sane, right?
Then I thought that it must be just recon, to which my subconscious responds with the idea to take a break from the sub. But if it’s recon, I should continue because some breakthrough is right around the corner lol
Decided to stretch my productivity and comfort zone a bit and learn a new skill to get money. Will do my best to maintain the necessary minimum for my activities, but gonna focus on this new skill.
My thinking: if I learn it and apply it, I’ll be able to earn some money in the short term which will close my debts + provide money for accelerated business growth (because starting with no initial capital is rough lol)
It’s very interesting to see how subs nudge me to do it. Like, I woke up today after a nap (I guess RICH processed lol) and immediately just knew that I need to do this. Also, I got resources for that through my network.
It’s 3D motion design, There are not a lot of 3D motion specialists in my country and the pricing on videos is quite nice, as opposed to basic video editing which is oversaturated and hasn’t been that great lately
I think it’s a good idea for me to invest 2-3 months in this currently
Gonna have RICH’s manifestation tmrw (did a favour to some close family friends without expecting anything in return, today learnt that they will actually pay me)
