DAY 12
my journey continues. Regeneration has made me much more peaceful. I think I will keep it for maybe 3 months and then I will replace it with something else maybe emperor or khan (I would like something for productivity and to take the world in hand) or the male version of seductress when it comes out. when I need it I will reuse regeneration. For the other two subs i’m waiting to have sex and the other QL stages.
DAY 13
I don’t know whether to keep updating you every day, because they are all working behind the scenes of my head and at the moment the only result is that I feel better. I would like to speed up the QL process and then move on to the other stages, but I promised myself to do things well and calmly, so I change stage every month and not before.
DAY 15
During the day I listen to regeneration x2, sm x1 and QL x2 and listen to my playlist during the night. So increasing the number of repetitions, I do not perceive reconciliation.
Regeneration is taking care of the traumas of the past, I’m really happy about this.
After july i think i will buy emperor and use it instead of regeneration, because now that I am healing myself, there is a growing desire to take my life in my hands and I think that emperor can help me.
DAY 20
Regeneration is taking care of my problems and my traumas, I feel it and I’m very happy about it. I feel like I’m building a solid ground in my head for the future, but maybe this feeling is related to QL st1 hahahah. I wanted to ask you a question: does SM contain any script on being an alpha? Because I behave in a much more frank way with people and I’m not afraid to express what I think.
DAY 27
Regeneration has worked very well, i feel very good thinking about my past. I am grateful to have bought it. After healing the wounds of the past, it is now time to move on to emperor and think about the present and the future. However, emperor also has parts that take care of the past, so the healing will continue, but from what I read, Emperor’s tactic is like “AAAAAHHH FUCK THE PAST, DO SOMETHING NOW, TAKE ALL WHAT IS YOURS, YOU ARE THE FUCKING EMPEROR”.
QL 1 has almost finished its task. I would already like to go to stage 2 but I want to end the month with stage 1, because I have the desire to start studying well (and from what I read st 2 should start giving you an important boost, and then you become god with stages 3 and 4. I haven’t tried SM’s skill yet. I think it’s something that only activates if you actually have sex with a girl, or should I already notice something now?
I decided to listen to masked tracks during the day when I can, in order to make my ears rest a bit because, after using ultrasonics, I have a very slight ear discomfort. I will try to turn down the volume while using ultrasonics, in theory up to -80 db the subconscious perceives the information right?
while SM has very little direct Alpha scripting and what there is is tailored towards sex, the increased sexuality, comfort with sex and your own sexuality, your increased attractiveness/aura, and relaxation probably contributes to more comfort in yourself and Alpha behaviors, that is what I’ve read and experienced.
As for fuck the past-sentiment of Emperor-I find that very much the case-there is no anger or resentment towards the past-it’s simply irrelevant
For SM i think it is giving me more comfort with sex, because before if i thought about having sex with a girl i was hoping not to make a bad impression, now I say “bah who cares”.
I’ve got Sex Mastery in my first Q Custom along with Ascension and Primal and a bunch of healing modules. Not sure what to say about it after only a week of listening, though. I can sense things happening but it can be difficult to quantify.
What do you guys think for a custom Emperor in Terminus add Sex Mastery as a 2nd core or no?
I’m not an expert about customs, but yeah why not, sounds good.
For the moment I perceive it as a potential within me, but I still don’t know how to release it. This both with SM and with QL (however for this, well it’s stage 1, the potential will come out with the next ones).
For SM every now and then I masturbate trying to see if I can control myself without ejaculating and I have not come since I had the problem with night pollutions, however I have the urge to come after a few minutes and I don’t know if it is because I haven’t come for a while (probable) or because SM has yet to take effect or is activated only with females.
DAY 28
I started using emperor. I will see what happens in the next days. I’m a little afraid of the challenges that it will manifest for me, but i will have to continue, in order to become a better me.
So now i listen to emperor x3, sm x1 and QL 1 x3 during the night. Sometimes i listen to emperor and ql uring the day but it depends on what i have to do during the day.
How did you know regeneration has completed healing?
Did regeneration make you think of past scenes of your life?not necessarily bad…?
Yes, i was thinking about past situations and i said “it’s okay, i can’t change the past, but the future will be brighter”. In general when i thougt about my past i felt an heavy weight on my heart, now i don’t have that feeling. For example now when i think about a girl that i loved in the past and really hurted me, now i say “if it will be the case, i will reconquer you and i will marry you” and i feel better.
However now I continue the detachment from the past with emperor and, if the heavy sensation should return, I always have regeneration to use.
I also really want to buy libertine ultima, but for a while I have to stop at these 3 subs. Who knows, maybe while i wait, the ultima versions of my subs comes out and then I will have new absurd results hahaha
DAY 29
OK EMPEROR, DAMN.
Today i broke up with my gf (it’s ok, we were going in that direction during these months), I had to search for an hour to find a document photo booth that worked and the car battery left me while I was in traffic.
I DON’T KNOW WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TEACH ME WITH THESE EPISODES, BUT OK. THE JOURNEY CONTINUES.
I broke up with someone too on Emperor 
Looks like if it was going that way-Emperor just cuts the head clean off- no dragging it out.
I believe it’s teaching one