companionship is only appreciated and recognized when its too late lmao
lust is only recognized as unimportant when its too late
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True, but lust often leads to it. I call my wife the one night stand who wouldnāt go away. Itās not too far from the truth.
I know the feeling. I think that itās partly exposure. I donāt spend much time just being in public spaces like busses or coffee shops where I can meet people. Itās also just that times have changed. People donāt seem to spontaneously socialize like they used to.
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Like trulyā¦ Iām not trying to be pessimistic here but the more I get success the less girls I seem to getā¦
More girls that automatically place me into āproviderā categoryā¦ More girls thinking im a fuckboyā¦ More testsā¦ Its like I bring out their insecurities
When I was broke there wasnāt any games being playedā¦
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Exactlyā¦
My nightmare is being in a mediocre marriage where we schedule sex once a month because it was prescribed by our marriage counsellorā¦
Iād rather die alone than to not have that passionā¦
I saw that with my parents and theyāre divorcingā¦ Its so sad that my mom spent her entire youth away and wonāt have the chance for that movie romanceā¦
fucking tragic man.
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And I hate being put into āpotential boyfriendā category so much
I prefer āloverā but its usually confused with lustā¦
Very few girls notice that. But when they doā¦ itās instant magic.
I guess thatās my struggle reallyā¦ finding that beauty
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What were you doing differently, like how were you carrying yourself?
I had my most successful times, at least numbers wise when I was feeling bad about one of the ones who got away, and I didnāt care much one way or the other.
Are the trappings of success, the look and attitude you have to project getting in your way?
Thatās not a bad thing if youāre looking for that one amazing girl. That means theyāre actually considering you relationship material and not just some guy she wants to have fun with. Also that youāre attracting better quality girls who donāt just try snagging a guy by throwing the, ahem, kitty, on the table immediately.
Itās so oddā¦
Iāve become so jealous of the bartender at this restaurant and his connection to all these beautiful girls who invite him out to parties, his weekends chilling at the cabin
while here I am making money but lonely as fuck without anyone to go out with so im having lunch aloneā¦
Fuck man.
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Honestly I prefer that over the games and tests. Maybe thats me but I can never build an emotional connection with a girl I havenāt had sex withā¦
Already did that before and swore to myself I wonāt allow that to happenā¦
Observe him. How does he carry himself? What is he doing that you arenāt?
Possibly run a custom with, I think the module is called Rakiov in it.
One thing he has is the opportunity to interact with a LOT of girls throughout the day.
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Nothing. Im the same artsy nerd Xavier Iāve always been me. Iāve gotten more attractive (I literally have the dream physique of most menā¦ Like Iāve never been so good looking) and aestheticā¦
Not reallyā¦ I guess I just stand out more now that I wear nice clothes I guess. I never mention what I do or how much money I makeā¦ Idk man
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So do we all, but it doesnāt work that way. If they see you as more than a little fun, they have to run the tests in order to make sure that you arenāt going to hurt them.
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Yeah and I simply donātā¦
Like Im not jealous of the way he carries himself cause the dude literally whimpers around me and seems clueless about his schooling and what he wants to doā¦
Like weāre the same age.
Heās studying business. I run a businessā¦
Itās just so crazy to me man. He has the things Iāll trade all my money for.
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also gotten way more confident approachingā¦
Like I have zero āapproach anxietyā and I take more action nowā¦
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100% feel this so fucking hard.
I had sex with an ex-gf one time and the condom broke but we didnāt realize it until after. Iām not exaggerating when I say that was the only time Iāve experienced true dread in my life. I never fucked her again and I lost any remaining interest I had in casual hookups.
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- A very close female friend from high school contacted me this morning.
We were close friends from the time I moved into a new school. We also hooked up occasionally. Iād say it was when neither of us were with someone, but that would be a lie. A big one.
I donāt know why we never actually got together, but we didnāt. As a matter of fact it was her who set me up with girlfriend #1.
Our occasional thing went on for the last couple of years of high school until she met her husband (actually I introduced them) the last year that I was in the first college I went to.
Turns out that she and her husband have a non monogamous relationship as well.
She has hinted that she wanted a repeat performance recently, but even knowing that and knowing her as well as I do, I have previously been really hesitant to do any really hard flirting.
Not today though. I just went for it with the banter and not even veiled innuendo. Now I know for sure that she wants me, and she said that she is planning on coming out (she still lives in my home state) for a visit as soon as she can.
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- Iām in the process of admitting something else about myself. I have adult ADD. I was diagnosed as a child, along with most boys in my generation. But I refused to take meds for it.
I had the symptoms, though my parents often blamed it on me being lazy or willfully defiant. Often I just didnāt know what was going on, was socially weird, the whole nine yards.
Thing is, I still have it. I have trouble hearing a conversation through background noise, and I also sometimes have difficulty with high speed multitasking.
This is why the career path I had chosen was a very bad fit for me.
I donāt know if there is anything I can do about it at this point, but Iāve been denying that I have a problem for many years.
This comes up because I realized that one of the problems I have with parenting is that the constant noise my son makes is a problem for me. His voice just kind of jams my consciousness. Iām able to fight through it because I have to, but it really takes a toll. Itās exhausting.
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Iām wondering if QL ST1/ST2 would help any.
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- Iām just entering this now so I remember. I just woke up in the middle of the night from the first actual sex dream I can remember having since, probably, my twenties.
It was part of a very long involved dream involving working at some kind of complex as security.
I was relieved of my post and went to another part of the complex (I think) with some people. My son was there, that female friend, and this girl who was a student when I worked on a college campus.
In real life, she had been nineteen when I was pushing forty but had made no secret that she wanted me.
The other people went into the other room leaving us on a couch. She initiated amd was begging for it. We were in the middle of the act when I woke up.
It was extremely vivid. I almost never had dreams like that even as a teenager.
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I had a vivid sex dream the other night too. I forgot about it until reading yours.
Khan is doing that for me I think.
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- I couldnāt sleep after making that entry because of the, letās say, lingering after effects of the dream. Eventually I woke the wife up to help me with that. Going to sleep now.
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