Dragon Reborn
Hey guys, so I just about hit my 2 week mark on Dragon Reborn and have a few things to report on. Overall things have been going surprisingly well, I haven’t hit any reconciliation and feel pretty good. I was expecting it to be quite rough but maybe S1 isn’t a script that is troubling with my subconscious or the new alternate day schedule is excellent. Also I had to already change my stack just a week in, more on that later.
- In the first week, DR made me feel as if I’m above everything, not better than or more important than someone, just above the struggle we go through to be better than others. It just seemed like a silly struggle because it felt like I achieved all I want already. Of course, that hasn’t projected externally, but it’s just the kind of feeling I had. It also had a bit of a sexually attractive aura that came with it, almost libertine-esque. I’m guessing this is just the fact that confidence is attractive.
- First week was a great trading week, followed by a poor one. But I think my personal reaction to both was better than usual. First in the good week, I may have been tempted to get greedy and not sell but I sold and I’m glad I did. Second week, I may have been tempted to sell some stocks at a loss but held and now seems like there could be a recovery. I am less into it though, probably because I no longer am using RICH.
- I’ve noticed that I’ll share my opinion with less of a care on how other people will react to it and can gather my thoughts better, not be so lost in them. My jokes with friends can be more extreme and drier too, but also with an intention to get people thinking.
- I found my mind is pondering things much more, processing concepts, events, and traits of humanity in general. I did this a fair amount already but now it’s dialed up even more. Instead of a conversation, it’s a courtroom in my head lol, but as mentioned before, it isn’t overwhelming.
- My dreams became quite hardcore, creepier, gross, violent, etc. Reminded me of the copy that said, “the dragon doesn’t hold back.” Well, my dreams defiantly weren’t holding back.
- Workouts have been very strong but…
Paragon
This is where I had to change my stack and rush to buy paragon. This stack probably got me to go way to hard at the gym and I injured my lower back by pulling it. The pain was pretty bad, it was nearly impossible to stand straight, I’ve had an injury like this before and I knew it would take at least a week to safely be able to go to the gym again. I was quite devastated because I’m enjoying complete freedom atm and suspect lockdowns will be back come fall, so taking a week or two off was unacceptable.
So I got paragon after a couple days with that pain and the day I got it, I noticed I had some bad swelling on the lower back, the swelling appeared so large that it even made me look like I gained quite a bit of weight from the side view.
- I listened before bed, the next day the swelling was cut in half, but the pain was about the same, stayed at home to rest too.
- Listened again before bed, the next day the swelling was all gone and the pain was about cut in half and I could stand/walk fairly normally. I was able to go to the gym and do exercises on the seated machines.
- Listened again before bed and the next day the pain was almost gone! I had to do a back exercise that day so I even did that and even did a bit of deadlifts, but with a light amount of weight and made sure my form was perfect.
- I kept listening until a week since the injury, and I was 100% and back to killing it at the gym. Totally unbelievable results for me! As I said before, under normal circumstances, this would have taken me a week to even get back at the gym and then two more weeks for the pain to go away.
- I also did some physio exercises during this period to help with the healing, I pretty much know what to do since I have experience with this kind of injury.
In hindsight I see this event as a blessing in disguise because I think paragon will be a great addition to my stack. I have replaced DREAMS with Paragon and will use it as a major title now, not every day as a booster like before, since it is pretty taxing on the energy levels.
I also noticed my hardcore dreams ended once I got paragon. My dream became a wish fulfillment one in the first night listened to it and since then I haven’t dreamt as much because of DREAMS missing, but the few I have had have been positive or neutral. I joke that DR is the dark side of healing and Paragon is the light side, using both brings balance to healing.
Another thing, I felt a strong connection to my body as I was lying down to sleep after the first time I played Paragon. Like a sense of awe and thankfulness towards it, as if it was a separate entity, or a collective of entities of each cell. Sounds crazy, but it was a nice wholesome feeling.
That’s about it, a good start I’d say. I would consider the advanced schedule with this low amount of reconciliation, but I’ll wait for now because of the tiredness that I’m experiencing.
To reiterate my stack is now:
Main Titles: Dragon Reborn, Paragon, Mind’s Eye
Booster: Beast Within