Dragon Emperor 2, Year of the Phoenix

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#141
  • OK, I ordered the wealth focused custom that I’m going to alternate with a physical custom for the foreseeable future.

TITLE: Financial Phoenix 2. (Named after the RICH custom Ultima I ran to great effect during the first Year of the Dragon Emperor)

Module #1Genesis: Mogul Core
Module #2R.I.C.H. Core **
Module #3Cashflow Catalyst **
Module #4Debt Annihilator **
Module #5Financial Success Reality Shifter**
Module #6Job Seeker **
Module #7Wayfinder **
Module #8Mastermind **
Module #9Void of Creation **
Module #10Fortune’s Favorite **
Module #11Immortal’s Blade **
Module #12Safety Net **
Module #13Secret Source **
Module #14Wealth Limit Destroyer **
Module #15Mosaic **

I’m expecting big results from this one.

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#142

  • I had what was maybe a, call it, pre manifestation, or half manifestation today.
    A friend of mine posted on social media that his brother’s company was offering a job. It’s not at all in my field, but I thought maybe it was something dropping into my lap, so I contacted him.
    It turns out that it would be too much of a pay cut for me to take at this point, but I think that it’s one of those near miss manifestations from Job seeker, and I’m taking it as a very positive sign.

  • We had some financial shortcomings this month. The wife got pissed about it, and she started to go after the expense of my gym membership, which isn’t much.
    That was expected. She does things like that a lot.
    I don’t think that it’s actually the money so much as it is that she can see that I’m starting to make good progress, and that scares her.
    It may make her think that it’s going to be easier for me to find another partner, and despite us being open, and her having an FWB until recently, this makes her feel insecure still.
    I think that she liked it when she had an occasional playmate and I didn’t because, frankly, I didn’t have the time to devote to getting out there and finding one. It made her feel secure, and possibly that she was the one with the power.
    I’m not saying that this was conscious on her part, but there is always that subconscious driver. At least I suspect.
    It doesn’t help that she’s in pain because she just added carpel tunnel on top of her MS.
    It is kind of normal that I get some back pull from her when I start to make real progress on a sub, especially an Alpha title. I don’t know, she just seems to kind of feel threatened and try’s to put me back to how I was.

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#143 
       **2/12/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 4**
       **WASHOUT WEEK #2**

  • I haven’t posted much lately because nothing much is happening. Not blatantly anyway.
    I’ve still been having some fairly low grade anxiety about financial issues that could become a problem, but it’s nothing too bad.
    This morning something changed. That was still there on, call it, a lower level of my conscious mind. However the top of my mind was taken over by the surety that I would be getting enough money that we can breathe easy for a while in the very near future.
    Not something I did deliberately or had to force either.

  • Last week marks the fifth week in a row that I hit all of my workouts.

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#144

  • I felt that high energy nervous feeling when I woke up again.
    I’ve dealt with this before and realized what it is. It’s my energetic system running at a higher level than I’m used to.
    That gives me the physical sensation of nervousness and anxiety. Like the butterflies in the stomach and kind of a jumpy, jittery feeling.
    If I don’t catch it, my mind will find some problem or impending problem to focus on to make the feeling make sense.
    This is actually a good thing.

  • Our roommate spontaneously said I was looking slimmer today.

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#145

  • FP2 has arrived so I’ll be starting that as my second program on Sunday when I break my washout.
    I’d like to continue with LOTS, but it’s time that I made some appreciable progress on the financial front, and I have no idea how to do that at this point.
    LOTS should continue giving me results for a month, so all is good here. I’m still thinking about switching FP2 and an LOTS/Beast unleashed custom each cycle for the rest of the year.
    I think that seduction goals are probably sidelined until next year when I’ve got a more stable foundation in the more important things.

  • I think DRP dug something out. I was thinking about the phrase “in the world but not of it” for some reason, and then I thought that I’ve always been, or at least felt like I was “in the world but excluded from it”.
    I’ll expand on this later tonight. I wanted to enter this to remind me to do that.

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#146

  • There wasn’t that much nervous energy when I woke up this morning. I’m feeling much less anxious.

  • What I meant by feeling that I was in the world but excluded from it is hard to put into words.
    It’s more than just feeling excluded from any kind of in crowd, but I always have been and that is part of it.
    It often seems to me that I’m kind of separate from the world around me, and it stops me from fully engaging.
    There are a lot of ways this shows itself. Socially, I usually have difficulty engaging. It often seems like there’s like, a thin cellophane barrier between me and at least most other people that prevents them from really noticing me.
    I mean they talk to me if it makes sense to do so? But other than that, I’m just not there, and forgotten the second I’m out of sight.
    There’s more to it than the social. I’ll get to that when I’ve thought about it more.

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#147
  • I felt a lot more calm and relaxed today. No jitters and stress, I wasn’t thinking about things that might go wrong. I was thinking about things that could go right as if they were a granted, and I was in a much better mood.
    I guess I was getting more recon off of this one than I realized.
    It’s nothing unmanageable though, and it does mean that it’s working.
    I think that if I could find some effective action I could take on the financial front, I would get through a lot of it.
    I am counting of FP2 to get some manifestations going enough that I am actually able to make some changes and get an upward spiral going with that.
    I believe that that will happen, which is one important aspect of these things working.
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#148
  • I noticed something while I was working out today.
    I caught a view of myself in the mirror along with everyone else in the gym and I realized that at that time I was one of the most, if not the most jacked looking guy in the gym. At least at that moment.
    This is a really new experience. Before, all of my life actually, I always thought I was like one of the weaker looking dudes in whatever gym I was in.
    Not this time. I really noticed that my arms looked bloody huge, and while I’ve still got a bit of a gut, it isn’t as prominent.
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#149
  • I think I’m back to an equilibrium, and just in time to start a new cycle tomorrow.
    So far I love the increase in discipline and drive that New Emperor is bringing.
    I am making regular improvements in those aspects of my life that I feel I have control over.
    The phrase that started going through my head when I started was “Focus on what you have direct control of. Gain momentum. Upward spiral” and it’s holding true.
    I think that the recon is coming from the financial side of things.
    I’m being driven to do something to improve the situation, but the problem is I am not having any ideas about exactly what I can do to get us out of the survival mode that we’ve been in for a long time.
    I am hoping that FP2 does a couple of things.
    First off, manifests enough money so that I can make some moves. Like pay off some of the debts that I’m making payments on so that I can actually dedicate more money to getting rid of the others.
    Second give me ideas and opportunities to increase my regular income so that we have even more.
    Looking forward to tomorrow.
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#150 
        **2/19/24 CYCLE 3 WEEK 1**

  • I ran seven and a half minutes of DE2 and five minutes of FP2 last night.
    I haven’t felt any real need to increase exposure on DE2 so I didn’t.
    I woke up with a tiny bit of that energetic feeling that I sometimes interpret as stress and anxiety.
    It dissipated seconds after waking up.
    Maybe this means that there is something going on under the hood while I sleep. Like my subconscious is analyzing the issues and searching for solutions, so there may be a positive spin on this feeling after all.

  • Now it’s time for me to really start looking into what I can start DOING about my financial situation. We have enough monthly obligations that in order to get out of survival mode I’m going to have to lay hands of a sizable chunk of money and or increase my monthly income by a considerable amount before I can actually make much of a difference.
    It’s ok, my manifestation system is on that in the background.
    What I need to do is figure out what actions I can start taking right now to improve the situation in the meantime.
    I think that the first answer is going to be to start studying personal finance.
    If anyone has some suggestions for books on improving financial conditions, I’d appreciate it.

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#151

I’m reading “The Millionaire Fastlane” right now finally. It’s good so far.

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#152

I’m currently focused on getting out of trouble rather than like becoming a millionaire or anything like that. That’s later if it’s even a goal I choose at all.
Does it have anything about that stage of things?

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#153

It covers it all. Talks about why most of the other advice out there will keep the average person stuck.

I recommend it. Worst-case, you think it sucks and can still read the other stuff.

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#154

It’s on audible, so I’ll give it a try. Thanks.

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#155
  • I haven’t noticed anything out of the ordinary today, not so far anyway.
    Will be starting that book right now.
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#156
  • It’s interesting. Running two subs with NSE has no after feel to it.
    Everything I’ve run before has caused at least a little feeling afterwards that tells me that I’ve run something.
    After my loops tonight, it doesn’t feel like I’ve been doing anything.
    I’m assuming that the difference is NSE because that’s been the only major change.
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#157

  • New Sanguine sounds awesome. I may actually add it in as a third core for DE2 at the halfway point.

  • I’m having some thoughts about my relationship to money. They’re still kind of under the surface at this point and hard to really see clearly.
    I’m quite fearful of really breaking it down and taking a good thorough look at my financial situation.
    Why?
    Well, answer number one is that I’m afraid that what I see will confirm my fear that I’m in unmanageable trouble and I’m just about to lose everything.
    I don’t think that that’s actually realistic. But the fear is there.
    Why?
    I think that a large part of it comes from my father.
    His life went to absolute shit in the period of a month when I was in kindergarten.
    He had a very good middle management job with a huge corporation, a house, a wife, and obviously a kid. All of the things that a man at the time was supposed to have.
    And then he got laid off. And at the same time he made the final payment for my mother’s graduate school so he was no longer useful to her.
    She filed for divorce days later.
    Not only did he lose his job but mom took well over half of his assets, got generous alimony, and of course child support.
    He lost most of what he had, and the effect it had on him (one of them) was to put him into a perpetual state of fear of losing everything he had left.
    It’s understandable. What happened to him was the equivalent of having the earth split open beneath your feet while you were out for a nice peaceful walk. A normal person would worry about it happening again for the rest of their life.
    His mind constantly dwelled in the worst case scenario and he feared every day. It affected the course of the rest of his life.
    He never did wind up homeless or whatever it was he was sure was going to happen, but he spent many years sure that that was right around the corner. It was like he lived life constantly bracing for a final fatal blow.
    As he was my male role model, I took on that fear of loss and the constant fear and tension that comes with it. Especially where finances are concerned.
    It is just my normal to be so focused of the prospect of losing what I have that I’m not even thinking of getting more.
    That’s why I have this tendency of keeping myself in survival mode. It is the mind space that I learned to think of as normal as I formed as a person.

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#158
  • I was looking for more books on getting out of a financial hole today. I got a few unconventional ideas from looking at them.
    Are any of them viable for me? I don’t know.
    However, it shows that the stagnation is starting to break.
    I don’t just have to wait until something drops into my lap. I am thinking of actions I can take to get us out of this hole, and seeing getting there from taking action as possible. I don’t feel so helpless anymore.
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#159
  • I’m feeling pretty even keel today. I’m not that worried about finances or anything else, but I’m not envisioning anything getting better either.
    It would be easy to fall into the “nothing is happening, this doesn’t work” trap here.
    I’m not going to though.
    Since the new tech is so smooth, I think it is very important to trust the process and keep going even if you don’t feel anything.
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#160 
       **2/26/24 CYCLE 3 WEEK 2**

  • I had a decent weekend. We went up to a small tourist town that we sometimes go to and had lunch and just walked around and shopped a bit.
    That turned out to not be such a great move because it overdrew the bank account.
    It’s really OK because the wife gets her disability check tomorrow.
    It does show what happens when I take my eyes off the ball for even a second though when we’re this close to the edge.
    I justified it by saying that we need to have a life sometimes, but that’s an excuse. What we need to do is increase income and reduce monthly expenses so that we can afford to have a life occasionally.

  • I listened to some of that Millionaire fast lane book. It’s good, and I can see where he’s going with it, but it’s not what I need right now.
    I need something on budgeting and getting out of a hole.
    I got one and I’ve started listening to it. I noticed something interesting. It causes me a low grade stress/nervousness feeling to listen and consider taking the recommended steps.
    You know that feeling like when you’re considering doing something that might hurt like say jumping from a moderate height or something.
    It’s a strong urge to shy away from looking at my financial situation in total because I might really not like what I see. Even listening to a book about what to do about it causes me stress.
    I know. That feeling means that it’s something I need to lean into, and I should be acknowledging that it means that this is something that I should be taking action on immediately.
    I’m getting there, but it’s actually harder than I thought. I mean just taking that first step.

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