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Tomorrow will make two weeks of hitting all my workouts. This is amazing. There is absolutely no “I don’t feel like it. No excuses. Nothing but getting up and doing it. It doesn’t even seem like I’m having to force myself. It’s just what I do every day.
And some of these workouts have had me feeling like I lost a fight with a freight train the next morning. -
I had something interesting happen while I was shopping for groceries today.
A lady and I kind of got in each others way. She was about my age, and I suppose I found her a bit cute.
Then it happened again in a different isle. I made eye contact and said “we have to stop meeting like this”. I had a bit of flirtatious energy with it. The just for fun kind, not the kind with any type of intent behind it. She smiled and laughed.
It may not sound like much, but it’s not something I’d have normally done in the past.
Plus, her husband was standing right there.
He didn’t look like he minded. Maybe because he sensed that I really didn’t mean anything by it, and maybe because I’m a lot more physically imposing than he was.
That really is out of character for the old me.
I think that the new Primal may be a very valuable tool for me later in the year.
I may drop DRP and add it in as the second core with Emp after a few more cycles if I sense that DRP’s work is done sufficiently.
For now though I think that my energy is best spent improving my mind, body, and living conditions.
- I think I noticed a couple of women subtly checking me out today. Hard to describe, but momentarily glances and very subtle instant eye contacts that I would have missed before.
There was one at the gym, and a couple while I was out to dinner.
Primal IS doing something. At the very least it’s adjusting my reticular activation system to pick up on things that I wouldn’t have before.
- I just ordered a large amount of whey protein and some Creatine. I’ve actually been having a protein shake right after I get up and work out, and one in place of my unhealthy before bed snack.
I may have to dial it in a bit more as far as diet goes, but I’ll start here, and let’s see what a longer run of LOTS can do with some proper action on nutrition and training.
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since I can remember I have wanted to write fiction.
I’ve made a few starts and written a few short stories for assignments that were very well received.
But I’ve never finished anything of note, let alone even attempted to get it published.
Lately I’ve been telling myself that that’s because I didn’t have the time.
You know what? I do have the time. I sit on my ass all night at work.
I just bought a keyboard for my phone. I don’t need a computer or even a tablet to do this. I found an app that helps you organize a novel and will accept the writing. I have no excuses for not getting on it.
I’m going to make that another one of the things I do on a daily basis. -
This is another thing that fits the theme of going back to the person I saw myself becoming when I was eighteen or nineteen.
**1/22/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 1**
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I ran seven minutes thirty seconds of DE2 for half of a full loop last night along with five minutes of LOTS.
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I woke up not feeling it this afternoon, but after I pushed my ass into the gym my workout was great. I was able to put weight on each of the lifts I was assigned today, and really pushed myself on the sprints for the cardio. Awesome day, and despite feeling more than a little soreness developing I feel great.
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Once again I looked into the mirror and Fuck! I’m starting to look awesome. My arms are already starting to stretch the sleeves on the T-shirt I put on and I just don’t look fat anymore from the front.
- I had a fairly normal day free my workout. I’m not feeling anything particularly unusual from having started LOTS other than my workout went very well. Well, maybe.
My uniform shirt does feel tighter around the arms and shoulders. If that’s from one five minute loop last night that’s flat out amazing. I can’t wait to see what a couple of months of dedicated use with vigorous workouts will bring.
- I love these NSE titles. Looking back, it just seems like when the time comes I just start taking action on something. Seems like the most natural thing in the world and not a big deal even if it’s a really radical behavior change for me.
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Once again I noticed something. I swear that my arms are bigger today than they were yesterday. When I put on the T shirt that goes under my uniform shirt the sleeves were stretched tight.
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@AnswerGroup. I’ve been thinking about making a custom with LOTS and Beast Unleashed. That should let me hit the workouts harder and get the benefits of LOTS.
Is BU still something that would just do me good if I ran it before my workout, or would it do what I want it to if run with LOTS as a normal part of my stack?
- I remember hearing a couple of places that the best mental health assistance for a man is to lift weights regularly and ride a motorcycle.
They’re right.
It ties into something else I heard somewhere that struck me as true. I don’t recall where I heard this, but it’s more or less that the entire mental health system, both the formal treatment system and the pop psychology world is set up for women.
The goal for them, what makes them feel better is making them feel loved, accepted, and secure.
I can only speak for myself, but I don’t think that works for us.
If we’re down we need to feel powerful, accomplished, and competent.
Lifting does that for me. First off, I’m doing what I’ve committed to. I get up every day and work toward a goal that I set for myself.
I’ve been bad about that before, but doing it makes me start to think (this may sound weirdl) that I can trust me. That I’ll actually do the work to get the physique I want.
And seeing results. That gives me a sense of accomplishment.
Not only that, but the sense that I can have an effect on things. That my effort actually matters.
That sounds awesome, not weird! What a great realization!
Seriously.
- This morning, the cute lady who I’ve mentioned before came in.
She was her usually bubbly self, but today she was really complimentary of me.
She had something complex going on that involved letting a bunch of VIPs who were likely to be arrogant, obnoxious, and possibly cause trouble.
She said she wished I was “her person”. She meant that she wanted me to be the security guy who dealt with it, but she didn’t say so immediately. Maybe a Freudian slip. She said that I was the only one that she really trusts to deal with complex things.
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My sex drive has dramatically decreased since I started this program.
I was wondering why, and maybe a little concerned about it.
Then I remembered something. This happened on the original DE too. It feels the same.
My body works just like always, it’s just I’m not thinking about it very much so the fire rarely gets lit.
I think that this may just be a side effect of healing subs for me. I don’t know, maybe my mental energy is just going elsewhere while DRP does its thing under the surface.
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I think maybe I should switch DRP for Primal at the six month mark.
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I was REALLY not feeling it when I got up this morning. Normally that would mean that I’d either miss my workout or have a major struggle getting myself in there to do it.
Not today. I got in there, and even though I was feeling pretty low energy compared to my usual, I did the workout. I even increased the weight on everything that it was appropriate to do that on.
Didn’t feel good, but I damn well showed up and did it. -
Here’s my plan for a LOTS Beast unleashed combo that’ll not only do the physical shifting bit, but help me crush the workouts.
- LOTS Core
- Beast Unleashed Core
- Alpha Body Language
- Anvil of Hephaestus
- Berserker
- Blink
- Deep Sleep
- Equilibrium
- Heracles
- Inehhustable
- Masters coordination
12.Serum X - SPS Endocrine
- SPS fat burn
- The Aligner
- Thunder
- Mosaic
**1/29/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 2**
- I’ve been getting some recon this weekend.
More or less its surfacing as anxiety about our financial condition and pessimism about ever being able to dig out of the hole that I have let myself get into,
There are a lot of problems that could blow up on me at any moment, and I don’t have the resources to solve a lot of them.
Long and short, I feel that I’m in a lot of trouble unless I find a way to come up with a very impressive amount of money in pretty short order here.
It was especially bad when I snapped awake in the middle of my sleep cycle last night. Despair, catastrophising, pretty bad.
All right, I’ve hit recon. This is where the real progress begins.
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I woke up pretty stressed and anxious this morning, but I pushed myself to get to the gym.
Usually, if I’m stressed out, nothing really helps unless it directly affects the situation I’m stressed about.
Today though, I was able to just focus on what I was doing and enjoy it and had a great workout.
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My wife has been having severe pain in her arm, hand, and wrist. It may or may not be related to her MS, but she is able to do less, so I have to do more.
So far though I’m bearing up under it and still managing to do what I need to. -
I saw one of the older members here say that they thought that a good way to make progress is to switch out one sub for another, related one monthly to alleviate subconscious boredom.
I’m considering switching out DE2 for a GM/RICH custom for a cycle to see if that works as a plan.
I don’t know if AM has been upgraded with NWE yet. Or if Ascension itself is due for an awesome upgrade in the near future, so I’ll hold off for a while on that. Just something I’m considering.
- OH, DUH. It doesn’t matter. I can throw NWE core in there anyway.
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I woke up stressed out again today. This time though I spent some time in the twilight state, and got some impression of thought voices. Not sure what they said, but there is definitely something going on under the surface that is causing this to happen.
And once again it dissipated as soon as I started working out.
I was able to focus on my workout and exclude anything that was worrying me.
I was also able to push myself considerably harder during the cardio at the end than I think I could have before.
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I am starting to look very different. Especially noticeable in the arms, but my shoulders are broader too.
My weight has remained steady despite looking different and my clothes fitting differently. That means that I have definitely put on some muscle.
- My body is definitely changing. And quickly.
I was not feeling it for my workout today. And yet I dragged my ass in and did it anyway, plus I added weight and completed all of my reps.
I’ve been feeling more sore and lower energy this week. I think maybe I’m not eating enough or something.
Or maybe it was the weather change or something. Or just that I’ve been putting my forty six year old body through a lot more strain more consistently than it’s used to. When I make up my workout tomorrow, that’ll make four weeks with all five workouts completed.
After I was done I looked in the mirror in lower light as I went into the bathroom, and I noticed that that groove in the center of my abs was back. It was a lot more distinct, and it goes most of the way down.
I felt, and sure enough, my gut is noticeably smaller.
I still have a fair amount of slop at the very bottom, but that seems to be just where my body likes to store fat.
**2/5/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 3**
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I’ve been feeling pretty stressed today about finances. Maybe it’s a little recon, or maybe it’s the program and my mind directing me to the next thing that I’m going to need to really focus on.
The goal this year is to get my life under control and that is definitely the main aspect of it that I need to focus on to do that.
It’s also the one that causes me the most dread to really look at.
There are a lot of problems that we have to solve that are going to cost a lot of money, and we only have so much.
We’re behind on a number of bills, and frankly we’re kind of just hanging on by a thread at the moment.
This has to change.
I really have no idea how that’s going to happen. It’s going to take me getting a much better job or an immense stroke of luck. -
To that end, I’m going to be whipping up a GM RICH custom tonight.
I’ve proven to myself that I have some control over the cleanliness Of the house if I work at it. I’ve proven that I have control over my physical condition and the discipline to get my ass into the gym daily.
Now it’s time for the bard part to begin. -
I will say that I have been somewhat disappointed by the ZP version of RICH.
The old Ultima version worked like gangbusters. I’d start playing it, and money would start rolling in from this that and the other unexpected source.
None of the ZP versions of RICH have done that for me, but maybe with NWE in there things will be different. I’m going to work on expecting it to work because I think that is an important part of making these things work.
- I think that my strategy, maybe for the rest of the year is going to be to alternate my second custom between that and a physical shifting one while keeping DE2 as my main program.
That means that I will probably be putting any sedation focus off until next year, but that’s OK, the focus of this year is getting my shit together, and that would be a distraction.