Too tired to run The Elixir.
Started not running tracks at work. I have no idea if that will be beneficial.
I am essentially running a playlist with Dragon Reborn ST1 and two hours of white noise from about 6 pm to 7:30 am. Should net approximately four run throughs of Dragon Reborn.
I really have no idea why I am doing this except to ensure fewer listens to my subliminal track throughout the day. I am hoping fewer listens will bring more compelling effects out.
Dream that I was a radio host and a running gag was to send me tomahawks, which led eventually to a nearly 100 year old one and finally a three thousand year old archaeological example.
It was unsettling when no one wanted these returned to them and their fate was unclear, though on the radio show the custom was to put the hatchet to use somehow at least once.
Shifted to only playing my playlist between about 6 pm and 7:30 am. Subliminal is on 1 hour and replaced by two hours of white noise for other two hours.
I did have a pretty vivid and strange dream recounted above.
I used to go to a restaurant in the town I live in and the teenage waitress came in one day, wearing shorts and showing off a new tattoo of a Braves Tomahawk that ran pretty much the length of her calf.
It was grotesque. I felt bad for her.
That was a story from day to day life, not a dream.
-13 farenheit over night. -10 right now. Brutal, depressing weather. The lowest temperatures of the winter.
I am glad I do not have a job that would require me to be outside in this weather.
I have thought this to be the case with me.
I am hoping so, too. I am not sure I have noticed any huge difference moving down from set it and forget it to my playlist with two hours of white noise to one hour of subliminal.
I will see what ceasing to listen at all at work does. That will cut out about 10 hours from the listening day.
If I listen to ST1 for 30 days I will finish it on Thursday and start ST2 on Friday. If I go 45 it would end on Feb. 26 and ST2 would start on Saturday the 27th of Feb.
I feel like I am kind of over the âcustomâ concept. I have ceased to even be curious about new modules. Will probably just stick to major programs in future. For now, and for quite a while, Dragon Reborn.
I really feel unsure about how many times to play a subliminal track in a day going from âset it and forget itâ to 7 or 8 a day and now since I have stopped all listening at work, maybe 4 a day at most. It feel counterintuitive and a part of me is really dragging its feet into the big reduction of plays per day, but I would like to see what happens and I would like to see DR be more effective for me. I have seen some shifts in behavior and perception, but I am really hoping to find a way into more. I notice positive developments as I interact with people, and some aspects of behavior and feeling seem a little stuck.
Today I am feeling a fair bit of anxiety heading into a situation that usually brings those feelings forward.
Going home and back to my subliminal playlist.
Bad development. Got to my car and it had some crazy check engine light warning. I was able to drive to the dealer at low speed, but have no idea what is wrong with the car.
Got a rental. Hopefully the car will turn out ok.
Going to bed early.
Will see if I have energy to listen to Elixir before bed.
Generally, a solid check engine light doesnât mean thereâs a huge problem, it just means have someone look at it when you can. When your u have to worry about driving it is when it starts blinking.
Yeah, the big problem was that it wouldnât let me drive at full speed, though the message said it was ok to drive. It was a solid light rather than blinking and the woman at the dealership said it was ok to drive.
Luckily I was within about 1.5 miles of the dealership.
Had a dream about magickal oils that were capable of securing or creating very specific romantic or business relationships. Was browsing an apothecary that contained a dizzying variety of such products.
So it is interesting. I have had recurring issues with anxiety throughout my life. Modalities like hypnosis and subliminals have shifted the quality and intensity of the anxiety over the years.
I am not sure by what processes anxiety is reduced, but I feel that while anxiety might be less, I still have a view of the world that is marked by anxiety.
I can really dread getting out of bed in the morning, even after substantial, decent sleep, especially when I am looking towards something I feel will be unpleasant on that day.
If I stick to 30 days I will move to ST2 on Friday. If not, obviously ST1 continues.
What I have noticed positively thus far on ST1:
I am somewhat kinder and more patient in interacting with the people I deal with regularly.
Far greater quantity of dreams, and they seem to want me to remember them.
What if every week you rated how strong these views or feelings were?
I donât know. I used to go to a psychotherapist and they often wanted a rating of a feeling. Was it beneficial? I am not sure.
But at that point I was pretty much rating such things every week.