Perhaps if you rated something at one week on a scale of 0 to 100 as a … whatever it is… Then the next week, then the next week… each week…
You could see if the numbers were going up or down. Perhaps that would be beneficial because then you could have something concrete like a number to rate the intensity rather than just a sense of a feeling, perception, or experience.
Sure, it could be useful.
Continuing to only listen to my playlist of one hour subliminal, two hours white noise at home between about 6 pm and 7:30 am.
I have discontinued listening while at work.
My mom has been running Aegis Initiative since the beginning of July '20. She likes it.
Today in about an hour she has an appointment for her first inoculation with the Moderna vaccine.
Today the problem had resolved itself and the mechanic said the car seemed fine. They think the issue was from having sat outside all day, part of the day in sub zero temperatures.
I am still worried and am hoping it will not be some recurring mystery problem with the vehicle.
Super restless at work. Un-motivated. Feeling anxiety about my vehicle.
Just kind of feeling awful in a general sort of way, today.
Dream:
I won’t be get into specifics about the politics, but a political figure who is seen, all of a sudden, as not being loyal and who attempts to escape and is pursued through public space (large hotel or convention center) by people who’d like to kill him, of course without creating any sort of incident. In the end he manages to escape, but is still a target.
Still just running Dragon Reborn. Need to decide when to switch to ST2 from ST1. Friday will be 30 on ST1.
A response that could have should have been in this journal.
I find my anxiety taking on different intensities and qualities, but my response to it seems too much the same. My response has not yet led to a higher quality of life. I am not sure what to say about reconciliation, if I have experienced it or what to do about it. Probably should have tried to answer these in my own journal.
I am noticing that I am more easy going, and get a better reaction from people, when I am in a situation where I lead people.
Back at home. Playlist running.
I always welcome comments in my journal.
Listening to Alex Chilton on Spotify.
How significant would you say this is a change for you?
I’d need to watch it more to see if it stabilizes as a trait, but if so probably a 4 or 5.
Really have lost the energy and will to play an Ultima the last few nights.
Tomorrow is day 30 of Dragon Reborn ST1.
Day 30 of Dragon Reborn. I am at work, where I have indefinitely silenced the playlist in order to listen less than I had been.
I had noticed this process occuring, too during the nearly six months I focused on two customs.
