Day 4 Afternoon, evening, end of day
- I used special metaphorical cards to project my impression of U3 so far.
For example this one:
Card was chosen blindly.
My question to myself: «what Ultima Stage 3 sub done for me so far (for 4 days)».
Answer: I see different layers of me, my energetic field which is unfolding, unpacking, revealing rose and red energy. This energy is exposed and now detectable by others at least during the time of U3 usage. Blue color is my old patterns of self identity which are changing by new suggestions, of experimental sub. I’m getting used to the fact that I’m now projecting new kind of energy patterns. This energy is sexual, primal nature. No threat. This is THAT kind of energy that usually overcomes Last Minute Resistance with girls, as they feel this powerful surge and let go. Thanks God, I haven’t LMR for a long time.
Almost all day I was at home. It was raining outside and besides I really enjoyed playing Starcraft 2. Damn! I’m really sorry not to play this game ten years ago!
My girl cooked an incredibly delicious food. We were eating and watching The Master and Margarita series by Mikhail Bulgakov. I really avoided this book before and now decided, at least, watch the series. It made me very emotional. Now, I understands why I avoided it - it digs up very deep issues. Now its time to look at them.
At the very end of day, we gone to shop and bought some food and I saw young girl, who was staring at me. De ja vu? Not exactly but with almost same scenario: powerful eye-contact, her involuntary preening and contact. Nothing special, we were hugging with my girl, she was kissing me and hugging tightly.
One more thing: today I made a special coaching process to girl. When I described her what we are going to do, she said: «wow, your energy is outpouring, very powerful, what if you talked that way to a group of hundreds of people? They ‘ll be blown away». Well, I guess U3 makes its magic in this way - if I have some intention that requires certain energy U3, seems, gives me it. Interesting thought.
And last one before closure: I untimely said that there are no mental fog. Not exactly, I get fog-like state in about 15-20 minutes after my second loop. But, maybe I’m adapting to it, but it didn’t distract me anymore. Anyway, it was not as pronounced as days before. Two loops today were okey.
Now, I’m going to watch my girl playing Detroit Becoming Human. This game irritates me with its realism but quite interesting to watch. Like playing/watching film. When we will go to bed.