Damn bro! Am happy to hear that!
I writing this because this feels like a personal triumph to me. I Conquered It!!!
My headphones have been malfunctioning. I have given them away to be replaced on warranty. So For a few days I wouldn’t be able to listen to subs.
Hope you get your headphones soon.
No backup ones though? Something around 300 rupees will do.
Here’s boAt BassHeads 100 in-Ear Wired Headphones with Mic which has great reviews.
I am on my first cycle of TS. I have been practicing writing a few words on any topic everyday(because reasons). It is becoming really easy to do so after each loop. While progress is slow (like what happens with every skill), what it has helped me with is the fact that I don’t get stuck or block while writing. I can write better than before without getting stuck.
I am near completion of my 2nd cycle of True Sell. The results have been nothing short of astounding. Earlier I used to have such an intense interview anxiety any time I was supposed to go for one that I really hated those. But this time the interview anxiety didn’t kick in at all. I was talking like i would normally do. I didn’t speak as eloquently as I would have liked to but that’s on me really not on the sub. I qualified my interview with flying colours time around .
We just had to play games as a teamwork exercise at our course. I can really feel the effects of True Sell now. The old me would have not participated in such things because of anxiety which was so bad it made me sweat buckets and a heart beat so loud that while normal people feel that like drums in their ears, I felt it on my pupils, as in my heartbeat made my pupils beat at its rhythm.
- Now while I am not a social butterfly (yet!) but I feel really comfortable in my skin.
- I feel perfectly fine even if I am the only guy around who is not chit-chatting with people around him and sitting/standing alone.
- I feel completely fine if I make mistakes in front of a crowd (I do give a few curses to myself but it is way milder in comparison to the old anxietic me).
- I feel completely fine if someone is staring at me for any reason, in fact now I just casually go to them and ask what the matter is.
- I also don’t feel any anxiety around girls (my conversational skills do need work though).
And all of these in 2 cycles of True Sell (not even as a standalone!!). Also maybe a little of Sanguine here and there. I also know deep down now that I won’t relapse to my old self with crippling social anxiety.
I seem to have underestimated Spartan. During my first cycle of it. I didn’t get any results at all, not even the trailer effect. But on my 2nd cycle now, I have not felt any resistence to working out like I usually did for a week now. My fitness goals which to me always seemed impossbile now feel within reach. I just wish Spartan also works on my eating habits though .
Spartan is good for fasting and dieting. Maybe that part of the script will kick in for you after a while. Give it some time.
Haha! Had asked Saint which title would work best for one meal a day. He said Spartan is very good for that.
That’s great! Now I’m really looking forward to what results I get.
I finally got myself DRR. First cycle starting today. Would be running it solo.
So far DRR 1 has been smooth sailing. It even makes me feel light and free ike that on LBfH. No recon at all. But there is this feeling on DRR 1 as if it wants me to have a good cry. I feel on ther verge of doing it every loop, but given my tendency of bottling up I haven’t yet done so.
My sex drive has gone out of control. To the point that now I am wondering whether I was just repressed sexually or it is DRR at play trying to convey something.
Had a realization just now. It is that while on the surface I am fed up with my situation and want positive change and to succeed, deep down I am so used to it and so comfortable with it that I don’t really want anything to change. I am scared of positive change and success as much as I am scared of negative change and failure. Deep down I just want to make do with whatever my current situation is like and hope it remains so forever all this while I daydream about what success would’ve been like for me.
I would Iike to change this subconscious pattern/structure that I have come across for a better one. The only thing is I don’t know how to.
Still feeling like I am on the verge to cry, I do get out a drop or two of tears but that’s it for now. But I think it is a good sign. Like a few cracks in my dam of emotions.
Felt a very intense frustration regarding everything in my life at this point and an urge to break free from everything. I guess this is the rebel scripting at work.
Yesterday night I realised I am not just repressed but also frustrated sexually. I felt such intense sexual frustration that for most of the night I couldn’t even sleep.
Since that time I have fapped for an unnatural amount of time but the feeling is still there. Now I am wondering, if my frustration is even bigger than my libido or something.
Today was my 10th listening day (one more to go). I have been feeling like I could vomit anytime for some reason and yet that hasn’t happened. Just like how I feel like crying but am not able to.