[Chosen/Stark] The Morning Star

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#341

Day #10

Today I did 1x Tantric Lover only, no Alchemist. Last time I did Alchemist it send me to an endless introspective state of reflection, opening loop after loop, now I need time to integrate those reflections and rest.
Last night while I was in bed in the dark, my girlfriend was sleeping and I connected with a deep feeling of sadness and loneliness… I just let myself be carried by those emotions, allowing them to grow and fill me up.
I ended up remembering being a small kid and feeling not cared for, somewhat invisible… Then a huge wave of love filled me up when I realized Im not alone, never been, never will be and that Im loved and supported.

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#342

Today I feel how I negatively react towards anything I percieve as a flaw, unable to accept that things and people are different from how I think they should be… Unable to accept that my life is different from what its supposed to be.
There are no flaws… Im just different from what at some point in my life I became convinced I should be.

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#343

A little project of mine…
In a couple more cycles Im thinking of building this custom based only on Masculinity and all the traits that for me are included in that category, special attention was given to the ones I need to develop more and the ones that simple are scary to me.

  1. Godlike Masculinity Core
  2. Achilles
  3. Victory’s Call
  4. Call of Honor
  5. Codename: Umbra
  6. Fearsome
  7. Manipulus
  8. Iron Frame
  9. Rogue
  10. Total Nonchalance
  11. Lion IV
  12. Power Unleashed
  13. Dominion
  14. Negative Energy Transmutation
  15. Direct Influencing
  16. Aura of Craving
  17. Immortal´s Blade
  18. Productivity Unleashed
  19. Wisdom Personified
  20. Mystery
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#344

A switch got flipped ON inside… Ive been feeling real good for the last couple of hours.

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#345

I have this idea that only 1 sub per listening day is my sweet spot… Something like this is what Im gonna test:

Monday: Alchemist St1
Wednesday: Tantric Lover
Friday: Phoibos.

It just came to me.

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#346

Emotions rules Perceptions.

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#347

I love how introspective and attentive your mind is. You seem to solve these issues quickly and well! Godspeed!

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#348

Yeah I love it… theres other areas in which I seem to operate snailspeed though :rofl::rofl:

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#349

Feeling real good since yesterday!! Im feeling really optimistic about the idea of listening just 1 title per listening day and alternate between the 3.

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#350

As per planned, today I did 1× Phoibos.

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#351

And its hitting me hard…

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#352

Its very hard to feel good when you carry so much guilt… Fortunately I became aware of it and I was able to release it by surfing into the emotion.

Now Im blissing out!!

I feel listening to 1 loop of only 1 title per listening day works awesome so far. It gives me the chance to navigate my inner worlds and be aware of whatever the sub provokes without having to guess which sub(s) are actively moving, changing and expanding my cosmology.
Its much more focused.

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#355

Thanks! Im gonna look for it. Did you watch The Oxycontin Express?

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#356

Only dopesick.

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#357

Its a scary documentary… Lots of sick, twisted individuals in this world.

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#358

My world was darker after watching it. It was depressing seeing those lives little by little shattered and knowing that this was true story :cry:

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#359

Day#14

1× Alchemist St1
I had a good night sleep after a Heart meditation and some emotional transmutation work using Brent Baums techniques.

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#360

This time after my loop of Alchemist yesterday Ive been feeling very angry, but in a different way… I dont know if Im able to explain how.
The best way I can do is I feel like Im constantly having to fight for things to happen, I dont mean I actually have to fight for anything, but that it feels this way. Everything I wanna do feels like a struggle and that makes me angry.

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