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#109

Broke my 8 day washout with a full loop of EoG1 with Winner Overdrive and Limitless with Harmonic Conflux.

Originally was planning to either continue the washout until 5th Jan or ended the washout with only EoG1 (so that Dec would also officially be a pure EoG1 month). Yet an urge to listen to Limitless came out of nowhere. Still I was hesitant since I recalled how triggered/much in recon I was the last time I listened to it (July). So at first decided against it and listened to a full loop of EoG1 instead. However once the loop was ended the Limitless urge was so intense that I felt right to listen to it, and I did.

I think my mind must really crave it since for one I felt nothing but good, and secondly even my dreams validated the loop. I don’t really remember them but I know they had good vibes and at least one of them had got something to do with me being smart solving problems, and how I was amazed by my abilities.

I am seeing Limitless as a transitional sub. By that I mean it is a sub that theoretically has no downsides (unless it once again triggered recon) and no archetypes. It can be used to fill the gap/period without distraction while waiting for new subs to drop; the washout period will be short and the transition will be smooth since it is quite a neutral and a skill sub.

There’s a condition though - EoG1 must come before Limitless - that’s what feels right. I know Saint said the order/sequence didn’t really matter but in this case I feel and know surely it does. To me this way I send a clear signal and intention to my mind/subconsciousness that EoG1 is the priority or the lead, and Limitless is a tool to supplement EoG1. Just imagining flipping the order makes me resist listening to Limitless.

Gradually I realized that for me the best way to listening subs is one sub at a time, over a period of few months, then add another sub, and likely spend another few months on them. Just few weeks ago adding Limitless was a big no (didn’t feel right at all), and now my mind craved it to the point I couldn’t say no. Anyway it got me wondering how I listened to subs all wrong all these years. Looking back I can’t believe I was listening to two subs with full loop right away every other day, not to mention subs hopping.

Having said all that I will continue or should I say take another washout until 3rd Jan. If during this period I have little recon I will begin a new cycle with micro loop for both EoG1 and Limitless.

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#110

Come to think about it the urge to listening to Limitless with Harmonic Conflux was my way to test drive or maybe tried to satisfy an idea of mine of a new name embedded major title - Quantum Limitless with Inner Spa; I had been waiting for the new module pack as well as an update for QL with Anti Recon.

Want to go back to the point of listening to one sub for a long while before adding more subs. To expand that I need to add that before anything one needs to know for real what their priority is. Not priorities but priority. One has to know out of all the noises and distractions and cravings etc. which one of them is the most urgent, has the most life changing impact. I said this before, it is likely playing a game. Yes there are challenges and they are opponents, and yes we have to eventually overcome all of them. But before all this we have to first overcome the very first hurdle or challenge. That’s the priority. Once we found it we have clarity, and from clarity we have will; we will no longer be as easily swayed by external factors.

This goes for picking subs. Once I finally decided wealth was my goal and I was willing to take it slow and build the foundation from scratch, I picked EoG1. And once I listened to EoG1 I began to understand the kinds of subs I need instead of hopping around due to recon or fomo etc. I am now sure out of all the subs what I want and need is them being skills focus and preferably without archetypes.

I also wanna note once again washout is important. A long(er) washout from time to time is really beneficial. I already plan to have another 11 day (or more) washout in a month or two, depending on my mood. But the bottom line is I am doing that in a seemingly short period because it is beneficial and feel good to do so.

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#111

Full loop of EoG1 with Winner Overdrive and Limitless with Harmonic Conflux.

After catching up a few threads on the news of upcoming subs, I felt my decision of running Limitless was justified. It seems it will take awhile, e.g. a few more weeks, for the subs I want to be updated. Had I not made the decision/my intuition not nagging me to run Limitless I’d be waiting in limbo for a 2nd sub lol

I have in fact already run three full loop of Limitless by now. So far the recon is minimal compared to the past. I think partly it is because I have been running EoG1 for a long while so my brain/mind now can spare/relocate resource to Limitless unlike when I jumped straight to both of them at the same time when I first got them; there wasn’t enough resources to process two new subs. Another possible reason is I have made peace with myself when it comes to Limitless - instead of learning in general or without direction, I have a clear intention that from now on I only focus on what matters. By that I mean I only need Limitless to guide me when it comes to practical day to day matters. To me Limitless somehow always reminded me of booksmart, ployglot, scholarship etc. Like one who knows many things and is able to recall and share his profound knowledge easily or a person who can solve many kinds of problems. I used to go for that direction and take action accordingly. Yet I finally understand I am not that kind of person naturally. It took too much efforts and not enough results and I’d get frustrated with me.

This time it won’t be like that. This time I decided that simply having just enough smartness to handle day to day matters is all I need. I don’t need to be the cleverest person in the room or the winner to crash a debate. I just need to handle issues as well as opportunities immediate to me and my family’s life.

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#112

When I was listening the subs, I was reminded that even though I named them EoG1 and Limitless just like their standard store title counterparts, mine were more than that. There is Winner Overdrive and there is Harmonic Conflux; and they are useful and impactful themselves.

Winner Overdrive definitely keeps me going with EoG1 when there were times I felt lost and thought what’s the point. Harmonic Conflux relaxes and quiets my mind, it makes the listening session enjoyable (instead of boring) hence so far I can now listen to full loop like time flies.

There was an occasion where a relative was putting up decorations but she didn’t know how to make it work so I had to take over. There were some people around us paying attention to what I was doing. The old me would get anxious while my mind would be filled with noises, e.g. thoughts like they would think me stupid if I couldn’t figure it out, they would realize how poor we were since we didn’t know how the new gadget etc. to the point my mental resources were further scattered, and in the end I either gave up or not being able to solve the issue. Either way it was a self fulfilling prophecy. Anyway this time my mind was quiet even though I was aware people were looking at what I was doing. I took my time to look at the gear (I’ve never come across one before) and to work it, I didn’t hesitate and just step by step figuring it out on the fly. Each step I tried it never crossed my mind the “consequences” of not being able to solve it or the possibility of not solving it never crossed my mind.

At first I thanked Limitless for that. Yet I feel like I have to give a shout out to Winner Overdrive and Harmonic Conflux too.

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#113

Just caught up with the last 50 or so posts.
Nice journal, very nice development.

There were a few points I wanted to comment on.

I’ve run KB1 for the reason of PMO 2 years ago. And it helped a lot. Now I’m running it again. For the same reason.
I just begin to realize, that in my case (ADHD and everything) it’s not so much a porn addiction thing, but rather a dopamine addiction thing.
Shortly before I ended my first KB1 run, I got Assassin’s Creed Valhalla. And I played endless hours. And all desire to PMO was gone.
At the time I thought the porn addiction was gone. Now I believe, I just switched Dopamine Sources.
Right now, I’m also not running it for PMO reasons, but also for spiritual and energetic ones. I plan a full KB run.

One thing I should probably mention, is, that KB isn’t the best sub for my sleep. The cleansing of my energetic system takes its toll. Like you, I sleep poorly. Turning around a lot, waking up often, sweating a lot. I guess that rather normal if you solve these deep trauma and energetic blockages.

But this time, it’s much better. Two years ago, I felt like a bulldozer hit me, my feet were aching to the point that I feared falling down the stairs after getting up and I needed 2h to be halfway functional.

This time, I don’t feel well, but only a bit bulldozed. And I only need one hour to get awake.

The second point I wanted to comment on, is gaming the elite discount system.

Yes, I think there are people doing this. Someone even mentioned how you can simply spam some threads in the lounge with music or TV shows.

But the one person I noticed this behavior the most got kicked for another reason.

I never did this. My Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria was way to strong. Before I reached Arch Alchemist, I thought really hard before posting, if this counts as a valuable post.

But the thing is, the forum turned to one of my few social activities I had left, so I spent a lot of my time in here. I reached Arch Alchemist in under a year. And since reaching it, my post rate didn’t drop. Only the quality did :sweat_smile::joy:. I feel now more free to just post for banter reasons.

I saw that post.

Absolutely. There are a lot of users in here that joined years before me but didn’t reach Arch Alchemist yet. Still I love their posts (at least from most users). Only because they don’t have the time to post as often, doesn’t mean they aren’t valuable. Rather the opposite.
Look at Hoppa. He’s so successful that he’s to busy to post much. Look at yourself. Your writing inspiring posts in your journal, records of your inner development. And your 100 posts in this journal are more valuable than 1000 posts asking when their favorite title will finally drop.

Hope to read more from you soon.

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#114

Am currently on a three to four week washout (day seven).

Got the flu and it came and went for awhile. I only took meds when it was at its worst. Yet this time the sickness got me aware plainly of its silver lining - it helped burning away unhealthy tendencies. When one is deeply sick, there is no room for temptations, desires or noises. My mind was empty since all my energy was relocated to maintain basic functions.

I listened to C&C four times with microloop and it brought changes/manifestations. If anything the following is actually a sign of adaptive script working - I had nightmares as soon as introducing it into my stack. It was clear that it was working and my mind was reconciling. Many of them I forgot as soon as eyes were opened yet the haunting feeling lingered.

There was one I remembered. In it I was in a pharmacy and was given medicines and an amulet (a coin) by the pharmacist. I walked out and a woman related to the pharmacy (landlord or a co-owner?) was outside and we chatted. I showed her the amulet side by side, and suddenly noticed that each time I flipped the coin the image/pattern of the side changed. I kept flipping it as I was amazed by the changes and wondering the mechanics behind it. Yet the more I flipped the more glaring the changes the more sinister it was. The coin changed shapes and sizes and the images (faces?) were more alive. Then it came a point where the images did come out from the amulet as if it was a printer. They became photographs and posters. I knew instinctively whatever in the amulet was one step away from becoming/manifesting to its full form. That’s when I stopped flipping and back to the pharmacy. I told them (there were a few workers now) this amulet wasn’t right and we had to do something about it. They looked at me like I was insane and did nothing. When I woke up it was like whatever in the amulet was still haunting me, with me lol

C&C did initiate (the want to) positive change in my writing and thinking pattern. It is easier to do so in writing since I can take time to choose the word/sentence, and type and retype the whole thing. Basically I am restraining myself from using too many “feeling” type of words and instead focusing on pragmatic surmise. Keep the point concise and objective. Also thanks to it, I have more understanding on my weakness and the urgency to tackle it head on and not being pulled by the “want”.

I am gonna make a name embedded Hero ST1 Earth with The Inner Spa. The realization is I am not a grounding person. No amount of joyful or alpha scripts can take root without the physical aspect being dealt with. This way the physical body is also better prepared for Khan Black ST1 which I intend to get to eventually.

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#115

Day 13 of washout.

Ordered the name embedded Hero Earth with the Inner Spa on the weekend. Couldn’t even wait for Monday to do so.

I am really looking forward to it. The description of RICH shows the amount of prosperity is determined by the tolerance of one’s nervous system. From experience I’d say it goes way beyond wealth. A weak nervous system wrecks all kinds of opportunities and merits in life. At its worst, one couldn’t even accept kindness or respect.

In Hero The Light that Blinds, it is said that everything has a its cycle, there is no rush in seasons etc. And I began to see it. There are things once overlooked that now are attracting my attention. Just like things once pulled me towards them no longer hold the same force. Some we’ve outgrown, some we learn to appreciate.

Anyway it is Spring season and the perfect time to listen to ST1 Earth. On top of that since The Inner Spa is akin to ST2 Water, which is Summer, this custom will easily stay for 6 months in my stack.

I wasn’t sure if it was time to move on from EoG1 but after reading the New RICH description, I am willing to take a leap. My stack after washout is Hero Earth (with the Inner Spa) and RICH.

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#116

Ended a three-week washout with 3m12s HERO 1 Earth with The Inner Spa.

Decided that I will focus this cycle on Hero1Earth with the traditional listening schedule - 21 listening day (or fewer) followed by 5 rest day (or more).

Since (before) listening to C&C, I had a feeling that I wasn’t ready for more wealth subs. In fact the more advanced the wealth sub was the bigger the gap between it and me.

Have been thinking on and off for awhile on how to move forward with my life. Got insights and illuminations from different sources:

Essentially, it’s about accepting myself as not yet being where or who I wish to be in life. And recognizing that it’s okay to move at my own pace and follow my own seasons.

I’ve this feeling of being left behind. I also had the belief that every life event was binary: either/or, this or that. You either make it or you don’t; you either are or you aren’t.

If someone wastes ten years and falls behind, then in the eleventh year they have to make up for everything they missed over the past decade plus the current year. That’s how I internalized progress in life - a relentless push from behind, with me struggling to drag myself forward, while the clock is ticking.

None of it matters now. The sources above have shed light on my blind spots. I grant myself the space to pause, to breathe, and to let my body and mind relax.

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#117

Granted access to SubClub Black through the HERO1Earth with The Inner Spa. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but I had imagined that senior or legacy members or those who used to be very active but I haven’t seen around for a while would be there. A little disappointed to find that many of them seem to have left the forum.

On one hand, I got it. I myself don’t frequent or participate in the forum as much as I used to. On the other hand, I couldn’t help but feel a pang of nostalgia. On the brighter side, it makes me even more appreciative of the members who have remained active all this time.

Initially, I was a bit underwhelmed, but then a vivid thought struck me: instead of feeling this way, I could contribute to making the community more vibrant. Then I reminded myself SubClub Black is locked for a reason—contributions there should be held to a higher standard, ideally wiser and more insightful. It dawned on me that, like tending a garden, I can help shape the space by planting seeds, nurturing growth, and watering the community with meaningful contributions. And this insight applies beyond this forum, it applies everything in life.

I don’t like to admit my flaws (and weaknesses), but the truth is, I used to get upset when people I disliked doing well in life. I tried to suppress these feelings, consciously practicing happiness for their success, but deep down, I wished to see them make a fool out of themselves. The loathing only compounded when I turned inward, disappointed in myself for harboring such ugly thoughts.

Recently, I came across a post from an acquaintance showing off. The familiar pang of envy arose, and I found myself imagining his downfall. Then, a clear voice cut through my thoughts: Can you only succeed by seeing others fail? Just like that, the envy and grudges dissolved. A new perspective installed. I suddenly saw the merit in this acquaintance’s achievements and recognized that he had put in the effort one way or another. It was my own insecurities, biases and emotions clouding my judgment.

Now, I see him and others as sources of inspiration, even positive competition. Their achievements are not a threat but sources of motivation. I don’t lose to them; I gain the chance to appreciate their success and learn from it.

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#118

Such a lovely post!

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#119

1m30s Hero1Earth.

This cycle I am sticking to only (semi) microloops - 30s to 3mXs - one day on one day off with a 21 day (or shorter) schedule followed by 5 rest days (or longer).

Minor recon came in the form of heightened sensitivity to noise, reluctance to go to bed, and browsing, watching, scrolling etc. even though I was sleepy. Also from time to time slight shoulders soreness.

Began practicing loosening as well as kids exercises each morning - starting slow and simple lol

Intuitively started taking Taurine first thing in the morning with a large glass of water.

Found that meditation works better after the aforementioned exercises; clearer mind, and sharper focus.

Began taking small breaks throughout the day. Engaging on breathing and let my eyes and my mind rest for several minutes.

I’m not asking for much or putting any pressure on what Hero1 might bring me. In fact it is the opposite, my intention is simply to relax and release. I am practicing the above routines in a flexible not rigid way.

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#120

Would definitely help. Had been eyeing those folds and trifolds but man the prices are sky high.

Hopefully one day i will get me one of those. Not only for their utility in terms of being easier on the eye but being a smartphone geek haha.

Took the liberty of continuing the convo on your journal so as to not derail the Season 4 thread.

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#121

@Lion Yea good thinking to continue our conversation here👍

The price of the phones these days are out of control. At this rate I have to sell both kidneys to get one lol My approach is to get previous one generation flagship then use it for four to five years to maximum benefits lol

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#122

ROFL!

Haha so true.

Although I hate buying last generation phones even though I know they aren’t that different from whatever current generation we are talking about.

In fact am still rocking my Samsung Note 20 Ultra. It’s a great phone. Have to replace the battery though since it is showing signs of deterioration. But if I had the money, I would update every year. Am a fanatic in that department. Watching tech reviews and all. Explains why I did Computer Engineering lol.

Talking about phone brands, these chinese phones are looking good. Even though am very much a Samsung Knight.

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#123

I agree the hardwares of Chinese phones seem advanced but have reservation about those semi malwares/spywares. I used to be an android guy; flashing roms and kernels to get a slim down software body as well as customization. Shame on brands these days locking bootloaders. XDA is not what it used to be lol

Having said that I am thinking to go back to it. In fact I am eyeing Samsung as my next phone👀

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#124

That’s a good point.

For me, I very much dislike the ads and spam apps on these Chinese phones. Dad has a MI phone and the ads on those piss me off even during the very little time I have to help him with that phone.

Oh that’s really cool! I haven’t done much hacking on my android phones but used to try it on older Nokia phones with the Symbian OS.

Was pretty happy with android. Even liked Samsunv Touch Wiz even though most people dislike it.

One UI is what I really like about Samsung and what keeps me with this brand. I always find something lacking in other OS’ and skins.

If money was no issue right now, I would go for the Samsung Fold 7. Although to be frank I would wait for the 8 just in case it is better pr you wanted to purchase the Fold 7 with slashed prices by then.

The Samsung Ultra isn’t as exciting as before but still reliable. A safer bet compared to the fold in terms of maintaining it and not having to worry (too much) about breaking the screen and repair costs of foldables.

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#125

That was part of the reason to root a phone so that adaway could be installed in system level and had a clean rom where spamwares would be uninstalled or removed in the first place.

You can look into dns servers like NextDNS or ControlD (both have free tiers available and I am using it) to block server ads and trackers. But there is a chance certain functions might be blocked or widgets not working since those spam wares in Chinese phones are fully integrated with the os.

Yes Ultra is the one I am looking at. Honestly the costs of foldables are too out of the range and I would baby it to death to the point I wouldn’t dare using it outside of my bed lol

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#126

God willing I get my eyes back, I will do all this stuff. In my current situation doing such things is difficult.

Good choice!

The Pixel 10 Pro XL is great as well. Clean softwares and Gemini. But not a big fan of its chipset.

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#127

Have faith brother. I truly believe you are going to have them back good. There are ways from installing to wearing new tech gadgets. And there are the traditional medicines and exercises. You’ve got it :+1:

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#128

Thank you brother.