Yep. Exactly. No change, no challenge means I can stay where I know what to expect.
I could write pages of my thought process, but what it all points back to is:
I never have to grow up. That’s been my unspoken goal since I was a kid. I still feel and see myself like a young boy.
What are you listening to this week that you think will help you change that in the direction you want to go?
If you woke up tomorrow and had the changes you wanted, how would you know?
Subliminals?
I’m staying with my LB Sanguine custom as one, and I’m tempted to jump to DRLD, having been on Emperor a cycle.
Let me think about that. I keep dodging it in my mind, so I’ll write in the morning.
Part of me is afraid of the changes.
What if you did one microloop of 30 seconds a week for 3 weeks to notice what happens?
@RVconsultant Only 30s once a week? Really? @SaintSovereign mentioned running a 30s loop once a week. I’m having a really hard time wrapping my head around such a short amount of time
So for example run 30s on a Sunday morning then nothing until the following Sunday seven days later?
So you’re impatient but find it hard to accept shorter amounts of time? See what I did there, lol.
Honestly though, it’s the advanced technology that they use. The subliminals are super potent, they’re not like other competitors subliminals. If the potency of the script is higher, then you require a smaller dosage for long lasting effects. See, the trick is to let go of this “time” and “subliminal” thing, and think of it in different terms. It becomes easier to wrap your head around it that way.
That has to be it. I keep thinking there are only so many ways to say , speed up ,alter or whatever else affirmations or whatever the wording is …
It’s just mind boggling. I think a question I had in another thread probably last week still has me curious. I asked about people that are able to run the entire loop with no recon. I think I worded it wrong because what I was asking is that if a person can run an entire fifteen minute loop with no recon is that person on a higher subconscious level than someone who can’t run a minute twice a week without recon?
I think of the weirdest stuff I know
I get it. Not necessarily easy to do but it is something to continually work on
I have been reading support articles tonight
Why do you recommend such a low exposure and frequency?
I ask since I’m anxious. I’ve jumped subs before, feeling regret later, and that same desperation is pushing me.
I’ve been imagining dropping Emperor. My reason?In the last 48 hours, I’ve been looking through a child’s eyes.
My desire is to grow up. The problem is what you last asked me: how would I know it’s happening?
First thoughts: Tears. Regular challenges to my normal reality. Confirmation from both inside and out. New desires.
But the biggest indicator: emotional healing. Letting go of lifelong holdups. Letting GO of old ways would indicate real change to me.
Yeah. That’s why I’ve been with SC so long. I’ve gotten in my way, and am presently in my way, but they offer real solutions.
I desire real change.
Been thinking about my aim. Me jumping is a recon move.
I’m at work, blowing off some inner steam. It’s recon
I’m still impressed by how they dig in to our major roadblocks so easily
Me too. Makes me think that maybe that’s why results take longer. If a person has some fairly deep issues that are impacting noticeable results I understand now why things take so long.
Sort of reminds me in a way of therapy. Especially when @RVconsultant mentioned running one loop a week. Obviously not the exact same thing but an easy analogy.
I also think that’s why the sales pages for different titles mentions " your current level of growth ". It’s not meant to be a one time thing. It’s something that can be repeated for further growth over a lifetime
I couldn’t imagine running the entirety of the Dragon Reborn multi stage and not wanting to revist it at some point in the future. Now I understand why @ksub recommended this book to me
https://www.amazon.com/Gap-Gain-Achievers-Happiness-Confidence/dp/1401964362
I’m all mushy, and it’s creeping up on me. I know it’s LB, but the Synergy connection module is kicking in. I’m not feeling like I want to push people away.
Actually I’m thinking caring thoughts about people.
I just read a post by @Parsifal, and I started crying.
It feels right to let it out.
Christian Mystics often speak about the Donum Lacrimorum, The Gift of the Tears.
Meaning to be able to shed tears about a certain topic. Because shedding tears is considered to be purifying, purging.
So let it flow.
I was walking in a store for lunch, and I remembered early days of doing subliminals. I was a mush back then, and I’ll gladly accept that now.
I began seeing and feeling what I’d not before.
Changes happening slowly. Today is having me cry numerous times throughout the day.
I needed a ride home after work, and no kidding, I had 2 guys vying for it, plus one (wrangling) them, speaking up for me. He’s normally like that, like he’s got my back.
Then, moments later, my female boss comes out calling my name repeatedly. I felt calm already around the guys, so I thought it might be unwelcome news, but I didn’t go there. Instead, I paid attention to why she was calling me.
She said another site was requesting me next week, and right there, where she stood, she stopped her initial push. She quickly said she’d get another person to cover that, because in her words “we need you here”. I thanked her twice, as I saw her standing up for me to those requesting me.
And surprising to me, that last interaction makes me weep. 30 minutes ago I was finishing up dinner with my housemate (he’d cooked for all of us), and as I almost shared that incident, tears came, and my throat closed.
I’m going to throw this out there: I’ve not believed I was lovable or admired by women, but this shook me up. I’m crying on and off while writing.
LB is doing something. I’m not sure what, but it’s definitely something.