For the first time it seems like my washout is working as a major boost in results!
My shame seems to be very much reduced. I think this is a side effect from the increased confidence. I really just dont care much about what others think of me.
With this ive also just been hella social lately and feeling really good. It feels like im livingg life more for myself rather than to impress others if that makes sense.
Overall im feeling mighty fine! I cant say that im having invictus type of results, but considering my starting point, its still hella impressive! Im getting over a lot fo big hurdles ive held with me my entire life, and i can definitely tell that this stack is tremendously bettering my day to day!
I do want to clear up why exactly i use daredevil for my “foundation”. It may seem a bit of an odd choice, but in my teens ive felt incredibly insecure about my social skills. This was back than a major selfperceived issue. While luckily i grew out of this with age, but theres still a remnant of that fear inside of me. This is exactly why i want to truly experience being “the life of every party” for a bit. Im well aware that this isnt a longterm plan and i dont desire to party all day every day for the rest of my life or anything like that. I do greatly feel like i need to get this out of my system for a while though. This uninhibited kind of energy is exactly what im looking for to set me free from these kind of insecurities rn.
In a lot of ways this has already worked, writing this was hard for me for the simple fact that it im having trouble bringing these feelings i had in the past back.
To a much lesser extend they do sometimes still appear though in situations when i perveive myself being rejected in some form.
Shit i guess that this is the real reason im so keen on using daredevil. Im hoping that the feeling that is at its root caused by my fear of rejection will dissappear completely.
Well i really let my adhd (and lack of sleep) fully out while writing this lmfaoo, so it is quite all over the place. That said i hope for someone reading this may help in some form. I know writing this certainly helped me.