Budewr’s journal

thanks for the input my friend! hmmmm when im thinking about it rn, i definitely can sense some weird changes in terms of thought process and congtive stuff, but its not clear? i dont know how

it feels like something is changing but i dont know what it is? that might be an overlap of all subs in the stack, but something congtive

thanks for you input my friend

im taking more action!

okay now i can see something changing wow, i feel like i wanna work more? does that make sense? before i would run from working on music and running abelton, now i wanna stick and do more work :joy: :joy: :joy: :rofl: broo this is awesome its very unoticeable

its like if i wasnt trying to obeserve very good, i would totally miss it! i would think thats the old me!

this shows how smooht Qv2 is damn brooooooooooooo

also to be honest i havent been taking real action at all, so i gotta move my ass to see some results, like i just did now with Emperor maybe?

Action = boom you see results :+1: :+1:

damn im happy :smiley:

its feels like i wanna invest more time towards my goal!! and before i would feel that after 5pm at night its not the right time to work on music, let just leave till tmw and ill start over, and thats how ive been procrastination for the last 3 months,

but now i just opened abelton worked on my track then i felt this huge urge to work more! and see some youtube vids about making drums and stuff! so this is great!!!

now its 7pm and before i would feel like, " nahhhhhhhhh imma head and play some league of legends and leave work for tmw,"

but now im like " im thristy for knowledge and WORK!!!"

im gratefull :heart: :heart:

a reason why i dont take action, is probably the same reason that i choose emperor

so i just have to push push push push push so i can observe more results , doing no work will just make the process so much slower,

best advice i will go by it, is:

live your life just like you lived it before subs. so you can push push yourself and not wait for results from subs to manfiest and help you, you just push like your living your life without subs

and the subs will manfiest so much easilyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

feeling some recon, its very weird :face_with_monocle: i guess emperor is really fighting lots of belifes that i have that i need to get rid off, :smiley:

but nothing too crazy, its just like im not feeling like doing anything its very weird sensation but im sure its from emperor

but honestly my whole stack is reallty covering a huge spectrum of my shortcomings and my weakness, so thats lots of work either emperor or RM cuz of my self expression problems or QL1 or just limit destroyer

cant judge to be honest whats causing what im feeling but i think its leaning towards emperor more :+1:

bEAUITFUL UPDATE:

i just woke up, and i had over 2 sexual dreams or 3 sexual dreams overnight

and when i do usually face a sexual dream, its usually a wet dream and i wake up with the a mess

broooooooo 3 dreams or 2 dreams passed by and they were sexual! i woke up without anything happening!!! its like i controlled my ejuacutlation, thats a superpower

thats sex mastrey doing its work babe :sunglasses: :sunglasses: :sunglasses: this is so goooooooooooooood , this is a lovely result for me cause i hate wet dreams sooooooooooooo much, i cant stand them

controling your wet dreams is a super power :sunglasses:

i freaking hate this comfort zone its fucking disgusting, im doing my best in terms of action,

i dont want subs to not work just cuz im not taking action, im trying my best but its not my full potential i still can do better but im trying my best

i have so much limition and programming to stay in my comfort zone

theres a concious part of me who knows all the knoweldge and how can a comfort zone kill you and that i need to work rn, but my sub-concious is filled with terriable feelings against working, its so yikes man

i want to delete this submind programming that has all this feelings and limitions against working and fufilling one self, such a huge limition man

its like theres a huge gum stuck in my sub-concious a belife system that feels so uncomfortable against working and actually improving my life,

i really really want subs to help me elimnate this huge gum of limition, even though im not doing the optimal best that i can actually do, im taking action but to be honest i could do 100% but im doing 30%

i really hope for subs to help break the barrier and just enjoying thinking about working, im really hoping that it will push me to do action and put an urge on me even more,

cause consciously i have the urge to work and the drive, but subconsciously its the exact opposite

i keep going in the same circles, i knowt that mr me

but i will gain refoucus

i will work like the subliminals arent a part of mylife, and i will try my best

so i wont worry once again i just keep on moving like i would if i wasnt running any, thats the most optimal way to achieve results and maxmz it

The most common cause for this is because you dont have a clear plan of action. You dont really know what you can do to achieve your goals/what your goals even are. If you havent done so already it may help to make a clear list of what you want to achieve and what might be some small steps you can do right now that gets you closer to achieving that goal.

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thanks man! but thats not the case

i have an action plan and everything its all layed out i know what to do and how much time to invest and all that, its just the submind resistance and this feeling that feels like hell

im sure its a self sabatoge belife that i have or whatever programming that i still have to get rid off ASAP

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Hmm, you could try the executive for that? That should def get yo ass working.

Another thing that really helps me when im not being productive is tje pomodoro technique. Its basically where you split your productivity into small chunks followed by a small break to really get yourself started. Its hard to get yourself to work for 3 hours, but convincing yourself to work for 15 minutes is quite easy.

So for the pomodoro technique you usually start with like one session for 15/20 minutes, followed by a 5 minute break, than another session, etc etc. Usually ones you get a few sessions in you dont really wanna stop anymore lol.

hahahah man i have 4 subs already in my stack i think they should get my ass to work , they do a good job with that i just havent seen astonishing results yet but they should do the work :rofl:

thats a good technique! i actually dont have a problem working for 3 hours, once i start working i enter a state of flow and its all good, but my main problem is starting the task itself

that goes to number of stuff, its either my submind is filled with garbage beleifs on the comfort zone and trying to do nothing

or the other thing that im suspecting that its adhd inflecting this,

i just struggle with starting and just before starting but when i start it just flows easily

Same haha, the thing about the technique is, its easy to convince yourself to work just for a small 15 minutes. No matter what excuses you could be telling yourself “its just 15 minutes”. The benefit is that very often you enter that work state and than suddenly work for soo much longer than you were planning too.

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Hi @Budewr damn that is so frustrating, I wish I could be a robot sometimes haha…no procrastination, just do!

Life would be so awesome if it was like this :rofl:(one of my favourite TV characters he is sooo lucky and genius):

hahhahah same here

had a laugh watching this :rofl: have a good one friend

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more on that, i fee less fear which is a good sign :smiley:

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worst thing that could happen is that you wake up with your headset not being on your head,

after you played your playlist and stack

when that happens you just dont know if you played your stack or not :confused:

the hd25 are not good for listening to subs overnight, something overear would be so much better

this is maddd!!! hahhahahahha im so grateful that stuff is working out, man this tech is weird, how in hell you become so blind that you dont notice simple shifts like this?

sometimes you cant see whats under your nose

masters at work with the tech guys :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: @Fire @SaintSovereign

just woke up

i feel a small bonefire within me, wow i like it :sunglasses: :sunglasses: its that emperor fire and confidence it feels great!!!

this is beautiful

Small update:

i can see that im more into working more, and gettng things done

cleaned my cat’s bathroom yestrday at night which usually isnt something i would do in the middle of the night i would save for the next day

but im leaning more into getting stuff done

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