Billions -& His GF's WholeHearted Healing Stack (Regen + Elixir + Heartsong + Sex MasteryQ)

Journals - Major Programs
#18

Day 8.

Heartsong too strong

I feel like it has some scripting involving not accepting anything less than your “dream” partner. That’s great for manifestating a partner, but it’s frustrating when you’re already in a relationship with a woman that you care about.

We’re fighting, maybe it’s recon, but we’re fighting because we’re being way more particular about when each of us does something the other doesn’t like.

Also, I’m getting more in touch with my emotions and I’m opening up to my partner about them more.

I usually don’t tell her about my vulnerabilities and things I don’t like about our relationship, so now that I’m opening up a bit more… Maybe she feels like I’m attacking her when I tell her the things I don’t like/wish to improve about our relationship, and then she takes it personally.

That’s why our fights have been fucking BRUTAL, but, also weirdly productive.

In other news, had great sex and felt like I had more stamina with SMX. I always had good stamina when having sex with my partner, but now even when we’re in positions that normally make me blow my load right away, I’m able to hold out for way longer. (her on her stomach, in case you need the vivid details).

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#19

Sunday, September 19th (because counting days is tedious.)

I did something I never thought I would do and made the firm internal commitment to become a realtor, getting my license alongside having my normal business. I have more work cut out for me than before but I’m feeling confident in my ability to handle it.

This is definitely a sign of some emotional healing, as before, visualising my future as a realtor was something that made me feel panic and fear of failure, but now it makes me feel excited (alongside some panic and fear of failure). SubClub and this stack have helped me do something I’ve been afraid of doing for a long time… so afraid of it, that this is my first time even admitting it’s something I ever wanted to do.

New Goals

  • Wake up at 530am every weekday to study real estate for 1-2 hours before starting my workday.
  • Work 7 days a week, at least 4 hours on weekends.

Relationship

No longer fighting. Took an extra day off just to let recon cool down. Going to DRASTICALLY reduce my stack just back down to RgQ/ExU. I want to feel the full effects of this.

A thought for stacking after healing

I realize now that Ascended Mogul got me results relatively quickly. I’m a 1000000% different person than I was before starting AM. It took a while for the changes to kick into my real life, but my situation is SO different than it was a few months ago. While money is still tight, the business is booming, and my money problems are entirely because of debt that I took on before starting this business (digital marketing agency coaching programs and a business coaching program, total debt: 23K CAD.)

Once I’m done healing, I think that running House Of Medici makes more sense than running Ascended Mogul.

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#20

Considering running a custom ultima designed to heal adhd and take advantage of the new module pack.

Organization perfected, single point, true sell, way of roi… getting all of those FOR SURE.

And then maybe eye of the storm, stronger, and rebirth. I’ll think over the last ones I want, or if I just want a 4 module ultima.

#21

I’m not doing well on my goal of waking up in the morning and working.

Like most subs I’ve tried, I got the full effect of Regen right away and then the honeymoon effect faded and reconciliation started setting in.

I helped with counting ballots for the election yesterday so I went to sleep at almost midnight. I also ate a bunch of chinese food there… so my sleep was terrible and I woke up feeling tored and my stomach hurt.

So i just went back to bed.

But that bothers me because my goal is to wake up right when my alarm goes off.

I set my alarms for reasonable times, it’s just I need to “kill the little inside of me.” To quote Sabri Subi.

#22

ADHD Healing/Focus At Work Custom Ultima

For SURE

  • Organization Perfected
  • The Single Point
  • Way Of Roi
  • True Sell (NOT ADHD Related but definitely getting it)

ADHD Related Modules I could also add (can only add 2 more)

  • Rebirth (To make the changes faster and integrate them easier)
  • Eye Of The Storm (Negative habits into positive habits)
  • Carpe Diem Ascended (Wake up every day with drive… helps my goal of starting the day immediately)
  • Ego Adsum (live in the present moment)

Any thoughts? I’m stuck on which modules to put in there last. Feeling most drawn to carpe diem and eye of the storm, but could go other ways too.

There were a few other modules that would’ve been a good fit, like Khronos Key, but I decided not to include them.

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#23

For reference, with ADHD healing, you wanna just focus on the focus part? Or are there more ADHD related symptoms youre struggling with?

ADHD - Discussion
#24

ADHD Healing/Focus At Work Custom Ultima

For SURE

  • Organization Perfected
  • The Single Point
  • Way Of Roi
  • True Sell (NOT ADHD Related but definitely getting it)

ADHD Related Modules I could also add (2 maximum, because ultima custom)

  • Rebirth (To make the changes faster and feel like I have no issues with this)
  • Eye Of The Storm (Negative habits into positive habits)
  • Carpe Diem Ascended (Wake up every day with drive… helps my goal of starting the day immediately)
  • Ego Adsum (Present, being in the moment).

Not sure which ones to pick. I’m feeling like Carpe Diem and Eye Of The Storm would be best, but, rebirth seems appealing AF as a unifying factor in the stack to me rn.

ADHD - Discussion
#25

I just want to focus on the focus for now.

There’s other symptoms that I think are related to ADHD like a bit of social incongruence, but, I will focus on that another time. I’m all-in on my business right now so I don’t care about that.

#26

I think I’ve been stonewalling a bit.

I stopped feeling the euphoria that I was usually feeling.

it’s either stonewalling, or, the honeymoon effect has passed. Maybe I experienced what Regen + Elixir COULD BE LIKE if I stick with it for 3 months… and then that effect went away. @SaintSovereign has described this effect in the past. Something about your first few weeks being so powerful because you feel the full effects right away, then lose them, and have to earn them back again slowly over time.

If so, Regen + ElixirU’s effect is worth earning.

I am dropping Heartsong and Sex Mastery Q for a few reasons.

  • Heartsong makes me fight with the GF like crazy. The scripting makes you put up with nothing less than the perfect partner.
  • Regen + ElixirU are the long-term goals I’m going for, not Heartsong & SMX.
    • I look forward to running SMX in the future one day, but for now, I’ll do nothing, and when I run a sex sub, it’ll be Diamond.
  • The @Lion Regen+Elixir stack is clear… ONE q program and ONE ultima program.
    • When I added in other programs, it became less effective and I stonewalled.
  • The Exception: I bought an ADHD healing Ultima Custom
    • I will probably listen to it more than ElixirU. Right now I’m stonewalling so I’m doubting the powers of ElixirU, but I don’t doubt the powers of Regen.

@RVconsultant how do you deal with stonewalling? So far, I’m reducing my stack and returning to a consistent listening schedule.

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#27

Would you please summarize in 100 words or less how you concluded you might be stonewalling?

However before doing so please re-read:

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#28

OK I’m not experiencing stonewalling. I didn’t understand the definition.

But I’ve stopped being able to “feel” the results. I’m sure they’re still coming though, I don’t have pessimism about the changes that are happening on a deeper level.

However, the surface level benefits of Regen+Elixir have stopped coming. The benefits I stated early in the journal seem muted.

Writing this out more I’m thinking maybe they reduced but also NATURALIZED… so I’m better than I was before, and now it just feels natural.

That’s actually pretty amazing to think about and I believe it to be true.

I got a MASSIVE surge of benefits, lost 80% of those benefits, and the other 20% feel like I’ve always had them.

Stream of consciousness writing took me from “Helppppp” to “wow this is amazing” real fast…

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#29

I think you may have just answered your own questions. Is there anything else you might want clarification on, or further ideas?

What is your listening schedule for the next 9 days?

#30

Regen+ElixirU M/W/F

Limitless Executive as a booster, never more than 2 days on 2 days off.

Then when my ADHD Healing Ultima comes in it’ll be

Regen M/W/F
ADHD Ultima - 5 days on 2 days off

After I get used to the ultima as a booster I’m going to listen to it like a major program, twice a day, three times a week.

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#31

This looks good.

Monitor yourself for fatigue. I find too much Ultima leads to :tired_face:

That’s supposed to be a tired face, but it looks like it’s cringing in pain.

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#32

If I have to work while tired, pain is exactly what I feel, and that’s the exact face I’ll make… so it’s accurate!

Will do.

I was encouraged to listen to less overall loops after experiencing how effective a washout was. Processing really is everything.

#33

:person_in_lotus_position:You have studied long and hard, and now wisdom is well within your sphere.

#34

Man the notes page that I made when I first joined SubClub was insane… read easily 200-300 posts on this forum, some of them 800 messages long, and wrote down every single point that I learned. I stopped taking notes after I had 30 pages of notes because it was just too much.

Subs literally are like a university class subject. This isn’t no elementary school science a+b=c. No no no no. This is like a+b>c&d#e + f-if-not-g < Q %prg = co-sine/tan x 6 + # of loops. = results

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#35

You are learning the calculus of the universe.

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#36

I love what you’re making dude. I feel like having a core in there would really round things out. Rebirth is awesome and you can’t go wrong with that one. If you’re looking for focus at work could utilize the Executive or Limitless Executive Ultima.

I personally like a build like this:

  • Rebirth OR Executive OR Limitless Executive Ultima CORE
  • Organization Perfected
  • The Single Point
  • Way of ROI
  • True Sell
  • Eye of the Storm

This would be a powerhouse to get you focused and driven at work.

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#37

I’m not sure if you ordered it already but I feel like this suggestion is a win. A core really will bring it all together. I have Limitless Executive Ultima Core in my custom ultima and it gives me laser-like focus if I have a list of tasks I want to get done. Rebirth will likely help reframe negative beliefs about ADHD, but if you are looking for productivity and focus now, I highly recommend Limitless Executive Ultima core.

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