There’s a lot going on results wise but what’s most pertinent to me right now is the amount of disruption I’m experiencing in personal relationships.
I’m getting a lot of gut feelings to absolutely proceed with whatever the fuck I’m doing at any cost.
For example I was studying and my sister called and wanted me to go out of my way to deliver her packages to her from our parents house. My gut feeling was “No.” She just got back from the hospital after having her first kid, so I felt that I should go ahead and ignore myself and do what she asked. Cue a World War 3 type argument after getting to her house.
All of this could have been avoided with a simple No. With friends and strangers its very clear cut where my values lie. With family it can be a lot harder, but all I’m taking to heart is that I have to follow my gut at all costs. No matter who’s in front of me or what my mind believes is right.
What’s really interesting is that on the other side of things I’ve made more friends that I have a much better relationship with. The foundations of the relationship aren’t as transactional as the previous ones and my interest in these relationships and the quality of them have accelerated rapidly since starting PS.
Which brings me to what I believe Primal Seduction is trying to do: its shifting things to place me around the kind of women I want to be around.
I’ve been thinking recently about the kind of women I actually want in my life.
What I need to do to get them into my life.
Who I need to be.
There was a cast of crushes and women who I was in proximity to that I’d think about fucking but now there’s no one. I see them on social media or in my life and I just don’t feel they meet any of the qualifications I want for the women in my life.
I’m curious where this will take me but in the long run I’m very happy with where things are going.
There are concrete things happening as well but I’ll withhold any information until I meet up with these women. I’m currently talking to a few and I’ll be putting myself into proximity with even more in the coming days.
The woman from my previous post ended up replying back.
Albeit two days later.
As far as online dating goes this is a positive response.
Of even the ugliest women I know they’re getting dozens of matches on Tinder. She legitimately could have been busy as she said in her response. Maybe she’s lying. She could have just changed her mind, or anything could have happened, I don’t know or care.
The way I feel right now isn’t conducive to me replying so I’ll let it go.