As far as broad generalizations go, some teachers point out that
Women do better in the beginning portions of the path. They enter into it more smoothly.
Men do better in the later parts of practice. Once they can overcome their significant barriers to entry (i.e., difficulties with releasing and allowing), they still have access to their will and insistence and this helps in some ways.
Plenty of exceptions exist though.
I love this forum and you so much 
literally because of posts like this. These stuffs were not in my mind,i get to know new things everyday
Thanks man 
Weāre all just learning things and sharing what weāve come across.
Yess so true.
Not Much to Note!
Besides the running today, personally thereās not much to note.
Responsibilities
For the past week or two, Iāve been entirely focused on myself and have been blocking out work from my mind and my life 
. I needed to give myself some space to evaluate what needed to be done. Also, I honestly wanted time alone.
I feel like I can finally get out of my shell 
now and head out into the working world again. Been avoiding all of my responsibilities, which is definitely not 
healthy. I justify this though, as a need to get away from something that has been making me demoralized.
Iām coming back with a determination to make things right. To make sure I can achieve my financial goals for this year. Knowing that I have the subliminals, my determination and my effort to work had, I can succeed no matter what. I will succeed. Fuck Fear. It will not hold me back any longer.
Running Day 10 (W2/D1)
Today I decided my legs arenāt that tired, so Iāll go for another run again. Maintained my warm-up, walking and running speed. Felt good but again I feel like I can push myself harder. Consistency matters though so itās good.
Before I went there though, I had some hesitation because I feel embarrassed/shy of going to the gym where people could see me. As a skinny guy I donāt like the idea of being seen as weak and not making progress in the gym. I basically just moved my body to do the motions to get out of my door and head out. I ignored those 
thoughts and went out to get better. Iām glad I did, it wasnāt a big deal at all.
Planning on running from once every other day to two days of running, followed by one day of rest. So this will increase the frequency of my runs from 3 - 4 times a week to 4 - 5 times a week.
Aās Journal
I will call my lover A or Alice in this journal from now on.
Gratitude
This morning, she 
messaged me about how grateful she is to have me and how happy it feels to hear my 
voice everyday before she goes to work. I was honestly surprised to hear this, itās really sweet. I really love her and I appreciate that she showed how grateful she is to have me.
Spreading Aura?
I feel like her running 
Chosen has lead to some changes in my behaviour for the better. Like reducing my fear, taking more action, having more determination. Or it could be 
Ascension finally hitting deep, as itās my third cycle. I feel like itās her though 
.
EDIT: Changed the picture to be more accurate of what I actually ran on this day.
Work Avoidance
So Iāve been having a case where I feel anxious to even check my work phone . Iāve been avoiding work for so long that I think itās causing me to fear if I missed anything important and ironically Iām likely missing important things by avoiding it. Even now I havenāt opened it up yet. I just need to just do it. I feel like Iām useless and wonāt be able to achieve my goals at all. Recon?
Running: Day 11 (Rest)
Rest day. Not much to note. I feel no soreness at all in my legs, which I find to be weird. Clearly Iām not pushing myself hard enough . Hopefully this new schedule would cause some faster development.
Aās Journal
Not much to note from my interactions other than she seems really happy and upbeat today, even more than usual.
Missed Another Day of Journaling
Not great but itās fine. I went through quite a lot on the 31st. (writing this on the 1st of Feb). A lot of things went on. Lots of things to think about. I will talk about it in my private-ish journal. In good news though, finished Alice In Borderland S2 (1/2/2023). This is the best show Iāve watched in my life. Have zero regrets watching it.
Running: Day 12 (Missed)
Was planning to go for a run on this day but I wanted to take the day off to relax. Iāll count this as a Missed run.
Private-ish Journal
Rest
As stated in the previous 
journal entry, it has mostly been a rest day finishing up the show I talked about. My 
sleep schedule now is absolutely terrible and I need to fix it up.
Running: Day 13 (W2/D2)
Felt good. I am very slowly but surely getting healthier everytime I go for a run. Met up with a friend of mine and he criticized me for just doing cardio. I understand where heās coming from but I have a plan and he doesnāt know my background, so Iāll just ignore his ribbing.
Reading?
Iām interested in starting a reading habit so I can wean myself off of Youtube, my biggest addiction at the moment. Plan to pair it with an episode of Netflix per night. Iām interested in Science Fiction as I have never read a single book on it before. Honestly, I hardly ever read fiction. I love reading non-fiction books so I need to have more variety in my life.
@Lion Which one of these would you recommend I start with? I have an inclination towards reading the Foundation series since thereās a lot of hype around it but if you have any other suggestions Iām open to them.
It you like to read about science fiction that spans over a couple of hundreds of years, Dune and Foundation series are the selections. Both have philosophical undertones and calculate what will happen to humanity if so and so is done.
Dune is a bit more emotional compared to Foundation but both have objective viewpoints.
Foundation has an interesting subject called something like Historical Math which helps calculate history based on math. Dune calculations are based on precognition due to ingesting a particular drug and the drug is the most coveted thing in the universe which makes for interesting politics.
Itās been a long time since I read both though but the Dune movie helped make me remember its book.
Neuromancer is more of a futuristic society along the lines of Bladerunner. Computer geeks will love this one and it has concepts of hacking, virtual reality and other information technological concepts in them.
The Hitchhiker series is for the everyman but also has a genius level intellect in its writing. And no contest it is one of the most hilarious books I ever read. You will laugh out loud despite the many matter of fact tragedies that happen. Itās very easy to read but also an intelligent book. Very quotable like I mentioned before.
Wealth Limit Breakthrough
So today, I was watching a Youtube video by Leila Hormozi when I suddenly had a 
realization. For the past couple of weeks I was trying to find a way to make 
10+ million USD within 5 - 8 years. Since Iām currently in a sales job, I basically limited myself to that and two other side businesses I was planning on doing. I calculated it and basically it seemed nearly impossible to reach those figures. I live in a 
3rd world country and I would need at least 4 to 5 TIMES the amount due to my countryās weak currency. So I would need to make 40 to 50 million of my countryās currency. My plans at the time would have at most made me 1 or 2 million USD within that time frame and thatās if I grinded until my 
bones run dry.
So this thing was bothering me and I kept trying to figure out if there was a way to break that ceiling within that time frame. Then a thought came to my mind which then developed into a solution, "Why am I limiting myself to my sales job and two side businesses? Take 2 years to build a large amount of savings and develop skills, then start a business that can be scaled to be worth 50 - 100 million of my countryās currency OR if Iām serving international customers, in USD. Yes, I have ZERO idea about what that company is going to be like or what itās even going to sell but thatās what FUTURE ME has to deal with and I have access to 
EOG ST2, so what is there to worry about?
So this relieved my tensions and I felt relaxed. I felt more certain that I could achieve my goals. Obviously, it seems a little crazy but if 
Alex Hormozi and 
Leila Hormozi could do it, why canāt I? I have subs, they donāt so I could even surpass them if need be. The me 2 years from now can absolutely handle those challenges, no doubt about it.
Change of Plans?
So Iām also considering radically changing my stack to 
Stark, 
Khan and Ascension. For some reason Iām really attracted to the idea of Khan. From what Iāve read of it, it will absolutely change my life. I can eventually make a Stark + 
True Sell custom to be the absolute best at my job and businesses. Keep that custom running. Run my original plan of 
Golden Lover and its future iterations, then replace it with Ecstasy of Gold.
This does mean I would stop running EOG ST1 and True Sell for now. EOG ST1 had served its purpose in just 3 months and Iām grateful for that. . There is no longer a need to run it for another 9 - 13 months, at least for now. I will instead run Khan for the next cycle. For True Sell, I never felt right running it for some reason. I feel a stronger pull towards Stark and it has both wealth and social aspects so thatās what Iām running next. Eventually Iāll make a custom with both anyways so that it not an issue.
Will update my plans after my washout, since I might make a better idea.
Lucky Draw
There was a lucky draw at the company I work at today. I managed to win something nice from it then traded it for something much higher value for me afterwards.
Running: Day 14 (W2/D3)
Went for a run at midnight. Felt good. I was determined to make progress on my running. Just another week to go!
Aās Journal
So my partner has been getting quite good results from Stark and Chosen. Her best friend called her up and basically wanted to see her for the weekend. She was also chosen to be a bridesmaid. At this rate, she might get a promotion or a new job opportunity.
Overcame Work Avoidance
This would seem quite silly to a lot of people but Iāve been avoiding my work related matters for over two weeks now. It was due to an incident over work where I felt pretty ashamed of myself. The excuse was to focus on myself (which to be fair, helped a bit). Today though I decided to get back into it and honestly it wasnāt even a big deal. That seems to be a common thing with what I fear, they all turn out to be not a big deal in the first place 
. I plan to ease myself back into it and start making some money 
.
Spiritual Journal
Running: Day 15 (Rest)
Took a break. My legs feel slightly sore. Nice!
Aās Journal
First Prize Baby!
So today was her annual company dinner 
. Someone called her 
elegant, she was described as charming by a few others and was introduced to the 
head of the company by her manager. From her description of the interaction, I could tell the big guy liked her!
Later on there was a lucky draw and she won first prize . It was a pretty decent cash prize too. She came back home happy and we had a lovely call. Sheās more convinced now that the subs are working as she won the prize and listened to R.I.C.H the day before. I also explained to her it was from the 
lucky effects of Stark and the wealth manifestation of R.I.C.H. Sheās really happy and thanked me for helping her out with the subs I chose 
.
When she told me about the lucky draw yesterday, I told her sheāll definitely win a prize. She didnāt believe me and said to not expect too much. Looks like I was right after all 
.
New Fan
Later that night as she was streaming she got a big āgiftā from her fan. It can basically be converted into money, so a lot of nice manifestations on this day!
Subliminal Fun
Decided to have some fun and listened to these two as āboostersā today instead of 
Ascension Chamber since I noticed it was 15 minutes. Iām happy with the results but honestly I no longer see an interest in short-term results if it means I get tired afterwards. 
In two days, my current cycle will be over and Iām considering a 20 day break.
Daredevil?
Thinking of running Daredevil instead of Stark. The obvious downside is that I wonāt have any wealth scripting, which is a concern. The upside is that I have far more focus on the social side, which is what I honestly need. If I can download that over the course of a year, I can then move on to Stark. Will consider it.
Running: Day 15 (W3/D1)
Okay, it seems my heart (or chest?) needs to catch up to my legs. Oh and I couldnāt access the gym until next Monday due to some payment issues, so Iāll take a two day break from now.
If I may ask, what are your fitness goals exactly? Is it to get more clear-headed for your money goals or do you actually want to make some gains?
I have been a personal trainer for 3 years while working in 3 different gyms, and let me say that itās quite the opposites when it comes to āSkinny guysā. In my experience, people that are skinny or overweight get more respect than people that are jacked. We know how it felt when we started and the insecurities that came with it. I started as a skinny guy (64KG) as well years ago and Iām 75KG now. I know how you feel, but trust me nobody is looking at you that you are weak, and if they do, they are hella insecure about themselves.
Iāve seen this hidden belief in countless people who start in the gym. Myself included. Youāre doing fine 
So this is an interesting question. Itās pretty much both. For all my life my physical fitness has not been great, to say the least. And recently I came to the realization that my physical fitness is so bad that it prevents from getting the energy I needed to start building good habits, having good productivity, developing my social skills, basically everything including money goals. For example, my posture is so bad it affects my breathing, which affects my ability to speak well, which affects my social skills which affects my ability to do sales.
I was so used to it being bad until I started running Ascension, which gave me the clarity of setting goals to start improving it properly. So now physical fitness is going to be the catalyst for other improvements in my life, which is why most of the habits Iāll be working early on are all fitness and health-related.
Youāre definitely right! Itās one of those things where logically I know these guys donāt care but I still feel like they care and are judging me. I feel like that just goes away eventually as I get used to the gym and develop my self-esteem. Iāve watched interviews of older people and they all say the one common thing theyāve learned as they get older is to not care what other people think. Hopefully I mature quickly 
.
Sweet! Thanks Jim, I needed that reassurance .
There is this quote in the Netherlands, I donāt know if it itās in English but it goes somewhere along the line of āIn youāre 20ās you are constantly thinking about what other people think about, in your 30s you start not to care about what other people think about you, and when your 50 you start to realize that nobody even paid attention to you in the first placeā Everybody is focused on themselves
And my pleasure dude, looking forward to your gainz! If you ever need help with schedules/food advice for hardgainers (Mostly those are the skinny guys), donāt be afraid to ask. I know a thing or 2 about it 
Lantern Day 
Today is the last day of Chinese New Year and I went to see my relatives today. I had an okay time but I feel my lack of ability to speak Chinese to my relatives to be a weak point. Itās part of the reason why my goals are to learn Chinese to an intermediate level this year. Hopefully I get around to doing that soon!
When I came back later that night, my internet connection was pretty bad so I went out for a walk. Turns out, itās Lantern Day and there were hundreds of people at the local park. I went there to basically look around and had a nice video call with my lady so that she could see the celebration. As I walked around, I noticed that women seemed to be mildly attracted to me. I did feel confident, carefree and curious; walking around alone in my surroundings. Maybe it had something to do with the āboostersā I ran yesterday or this is the baseline increase in attraction from Ascension. Iām honestly not sure, it could even be True Sell working.
Either way, as I saw people around me speaking in Chinese I had thoughts about wanting to learn it properly so I could communicate with my friends who are predominantly Chinese. I also felt a mild sense of loneliness as I realized I havenāt really gone out with friends for a couple of months. The language barrier has been stopping from me forming deeper relationships with these people, so I aim to fix that at some point. So many things to work on!
Financial Status
Looked at my bank account. It seems Iāll barely have any money leftover at the end of this month. What I do is I pull a fixed amount from my savings each month so I could limit myself from spending myself into oblivion. Bad news is I wonāt be able to make my Golden Heart custom this month and will postpone it to March. Good news is that Iāll (likely) be getting Khan and Daredevil for my next cycle.
Running: Day 16 (Rest)
Did not really notice my legs being sore. I honestly wanted to go for a run today. I think I really love running now. It has no doubt become an internalized habit when I feel something is off when Iām not running.
Working with Co-workers
Today I went out and had a meeting with my co-workers in the morning. I was pretty much silent throughout and the rest did the talking. Iām really good in having deep, insightful conversations 1-on-1 and itās because I generally skip the small talk stage and go straight into what someoneās passionate about. My weakness though, is the moment you start adding more and more people into the group, I begin to retreat to the background and stop talking much if at all especially if itās with a group of people Iām not yet comfortable with. Even with 1-on-1, I have to get into the right āvibeā to successfully do that.
So my lack of talking definitely made me remember thatās a major weakness of mine socially. The good news is that later in a smaller group, I had a great 1-on-1 conversation with someone thatās really passionate about 
coffee. Man, I should really get a coffee machine once I get the money .
Speaking of which, I remembered a day or two prior I wanted a guy around my age who I could speak another language with. This guy seemed to fit the bill, though heās lacking in a characteristic I wanted. Possible Ascension Chamber manifestation?
True Sell in action? For the 1-on-1 conversations I had today, I was more confident than usual and I felt like more respect was given to me. I was also a little wittier with people that I usually am not witty with.
Iām more convinced now that itās around 70% Ascension, actually.
Running: Day 17 (Rest)
2nd day of rest. Tomorrow morning Iām heading to the gym.
EDIT: Added a paragraph and a sentence.
Washout Begins!
Iāve been thinking about it and I might for a full 30 day washout. Been listening to the subliminals here for years but I never took a really long washout. Hopefully my results donāt disappear 
.
Running: Day 18 (W3/D2)
Enjoyed the run today. Iām being patient to not skip ahead of the program. I really want to feel that runnerās high again
Streaming
Today I hopped on to my partnerās stream to take over since she was having mic issues. I enjoyed my time entertaining like, one other person there . I seem to have a carefree, entertaining attitude that might be well-suited for streaming. Iāll look into that at some point, for the next few months Iām too busy for it.
Happy
Something Iāve noticed over the past month or so is that Iām really happy and grateful for my life now. Itās not like Iāve achieved anything big yet but the sense of progress Iām making and the romantic relationship I have is keeping me in really good spirits. Ascension seems really underrated for life-transformations, I can easily see myself achieving 10 - 20 major habits this year alone. Very powerful foundational title in my opinion.
Yo streaming is fun! What games does your girlfriend stream?
Spring Forest Qigong