Back to my roots - an Invictus journal

Guess what the custom is about and I’ll reveal it to you :eyes:

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Khan + Wanted?

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That’s not guessing what it’s mainly about though :rofl:

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Invictus creating a new world in 7 days…

On the first day he said…

“Let there be gains…”

On the second day he said…

“Let there be woman…” :joy:

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Hahahaha wow
Now that was interesting :rofl:

It’s more like rebirth though :wink:

Genesis ZP

The name:

The custom was initially going to be called Hanma, which is a word of Japanese origins, meaning “The one favored by the gods”, however, before my first ever listen to the custom, I had a dream with the name Genesis, as if that’s what I should call it, and upon thinking further about the name, it started making more and more sense as to why it’s more fitting for the custom.

The meaning:

Genesis: “the origin or coming into being of something.

In the Abrahamic religions, it’s been explained how God created man (the first man being Adam) in his image, and as a follower of one of those 3 religions, this is one of the things that has always interested me, because if we are created in the image of the divine and “perfect” being, who’s responsible for the creation of everything in existence, then why can’t I bring that “image” out?

And that my friends, is the goal of this custom, as the name of this custom is meant to represent my re-creation into the most perfect divine image, by bringing out what’s already within :wink: and with the tech being Zero Point, we can all see the connection there with Genesis :wink:.

Modules
  • Khan st4 core

  • WANTED core

  • Apollon

  • Heracles

  • Serum X

  • Entranced

  • Earthshaker sexuality

  • Earthshaker authority

  • One scent

  • Focused arousal

  • Gloryseeker

  • Moment immortalized

  • Fenrir

  • Victory’s call

  • Achilles

  • Carpe diem ascended

  • The flow

  • Deep sleep

  • Void of creation

  • Epigenetics & DNA modulator

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Very well customed custom, I wonder how will new modules turn out.
I assume you have not run previous stages of Khan and you just jumped into st4.

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  • Achilles and Victory’s Call: made me take an action regarding the national army service thing we have in my country, where every guy who’s capable, has to take up military training after turning 18, and I kept postponing it, until today; I got contacted in the morning and they asked me if I will do it this year or postpone again?
    I ended up accepting it.

  • Heracles: helped set a new record in an exercise by 14kg, at the end of my hour long workout, after 9 shoulder exercises were already done at 3 sets each.

  • Void of Creation: manifested an opportunity for me to present our events of next year for the brother of the Emir (ruler of the country), on Wednesday.

So far so good haha

I ran Khan st1….
1 loop was enough :eyes::rofl:

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Very impressive, like it. Hope the army service will expire very quickly.
Cheater, only one loop of st1 :slight_smile:

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How long do you have to be in the army service? And what about your current job, will they wait for you or how is it working?
In my country, we had mandatory military service for a long time till 2005. From there we have only a professional army.

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As I’m a governmental sector employee, I’m only required to do 4 months.

There’s a special type of a leave called “The national service leave”, which is 4 months, and fully paid :stuck_out_tongue:

@Moon and @GoldenTiger can tell you how much that 1 loop of st1 affected me :wink:

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So day 3 since the custom has been in my grasp, and today I have been reflecting quite a bit on what is that holds me back from my true limitless potential, here’s what I concluded:

I’ve been noticing a pattern over the past few months, and where any time I run a heavy alpha male, or something that has to do with assertive dominance, I end up feeling like I’m not expressing myself properly, and I came to a sudden realization from Khan today, as to why that happens:

When I try to express myself in a serious and more “alphamale” way, I don’t feel fine inside, mainly because it just does not feel like it’s me, while as if I let loose and be the social butterfly I am, it feels like that’s “domination” in itself, and it’s assertive as well, but it’s done with charisma.

People don’t listen to me because I’m so intimidating, powerful, domineering, tyrant-ish, but they do because my charm lies in my extroversion.
Like I can try to consciously act all high and mighty, powerful, be a full on “sigma male”, but deep down I won’t feel good, why? Because that’s not me at all, and I express myself better when I let my charm flow with my charisma.

Moral of the story: I realized that my expression of power consists of Charisma and Charm, and if I try to become an “alpha male” or “sigma male”, I don’t feel true to who I am.

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So you are dropping Khan and going back to Stark?

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On Khan, I had a similar issue — not necessarily because I can not be that overtly dominant, leading Khan archetype but deep within it did not resonate and I was absolutely not congruent with it.

It gave me lots of conflicting reconciliation, almost torture like.

In the end — I believe, through Alchemy we can choose our personality, who we are, but it’s best to decide on a paradigm and associated programs that are already resonant with our inner qualities and being.

For me, I’m just like you… my power lies in my social abilities, charm, wittyness, humour, kindness, and scripts related to these qualities I execute immediately, instantly, and without much reconciliation.

It makes me wonder whether Primal is really for me…

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Nah, it was just a self reflective post.

Khan + WANTED is beautiful, and it has opened up a new pathway for WANTED, as I’m not feeling like WANTED is just in a “maintenance mode” anymore.

Here’s the thing, that’s not how Khan is expressing itself as, the only reason for the post is because khan is actually making my realize what I really am, to focus my growth there.

You might see Khan as overtly dominant, but that’s how I felt on Emperor, while as Khan is much smoother, and in my custom, this custom just feels like a superior version of Sauvage ZPT (my favorite Stark + WANTED custom).

So all is good, was just reflecting and sharing.

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You are very much lucky to be born in a rich AND sensible family AND AND know subclub.

Rich family?

90% of the stuff you read on here comes as results of the subs, or with my own money.

Most people who know me from here, know that before I started work, I was only taking a small pocket money from my dad per week, which compared to my current monthly pay, is less than 1% of what I earn per month.
So before assuming that I have a rich family, understand that whether they are rich or not, it doesn’t actually matter, because I have been fully independent for the last 5-6 months, and even took the responsibility of my siblings’ monthly allowances, as well as handling 30% of the house bills (I offered).

So yeah, it’s not the family, it’s just the life that I breathed into existence.

P.S. I do understand your envy at times, but trust me man, it’s pointless, because if you haven’t read before, I mentioned in one of my journals about the healing with love bomb and my dad.
I never had that good of a relationship with him up until the end of last year, and even then, it only really started slowly getting better only around February (he didn’t even attend my graduation because he just wasn’t bothered).

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Well
I think I misjudged your relationship with your father, and I think we both can have good things. It’s more of “GHEBTAH” feeling than “HASAD”. You know what I mean as a Muslim.
About love bomb, anyways let’s leave it there.
If I was to edit my last post, I would replace family with society. MY father is VERY VERY toxic and ENVIOUS person and he does not know english in his 60’s.

then stop trying to use subs for “Power”, and focus on your relationship.

instead of complaining to life, own it, cause no one is gonna help you until you learn to help yourself, and while you might have this belief that using such high status/power related subs will help you, they won’t, because all you’re doing is making it worse for yourself by chasing power out of envy.

Go heal yourself.

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Blah blah blah :expressionless:
I don’t see the need.