Today I run two loops of Emperor custom. Running DR stage 2 now. It seems to go a lot deeper than my custom DR, which has two other cores and 17 modules, and causes less recon.
I notice results and effects became noticeably stronger on the second loop of Emperor today.
It’s been a while since I’ve seen this so acutely.
I think I’m returning to a period when I can bump the loops up. Whether naturalizing tech, stack size, or custom density I’ve been noticing a slow and steady trickle when it comes to growth with the odd leap hear and there but not like I’m in a different world, which I’ve felt earlier on, and with certain subs- Stark/Khan tests, and Emperor Q solo.
After two loops of the same sub about 4 hours apart I felt in total Emperor mode. Primal doesn’t do enough to tip the Emperor scale into desire for social engagement, but it adds a nice ease and freedom socially and sexually on top of Emperor, it’s very flowing and grounded to the hyper-masculine Emperor push/drive. I can see the defensiveness of PCC- not as in being defensive-but it’s always calculating/vigilant while being totally relaxed.
PCC and even Primal together have given me a kind of ‘niceness’ that smoothed over certain things, but I’m a bit over maintaining social niceties again, I’ve been dealing with fear of conflict the last month, and I’m now comfortable to stand where I stand without aggression or conflict and be ok with whatever outcome.
I have all seeing and eagle eye in my wealth custom and running that alongside PCC, it’s like people are an open book, it’s hilarious. I can see the behavior they are attempting to represent and the incongruous intention behind it.
My initial assessment is that most woman appear much more authentic than men in my day to day.
Guy’s are all posturing, playing power games, either trying to win people over, how they care less, or have something to prove. This could be something I’m bringing on with Emperor/Primal combo.
Running DR stage 2 I feels like I am returning to my best sense of self health and mental wise. It’s really cool. It’s like this cynical, hopeless husk I’ve developed for bullshit certainty and safety is falling off and being replaced with a natural more healthy and unknowing certainty in myself and life.
Today marks 1 year since the start of my journal and 1 year on Emperor either in V4, Q, or custom core!!!
I said I’d do it, and I did it. And I’ll go two more months with it as a core alongside RM.