When I ran the custom with mosiac it did make things a bit smoother and more blended, but I wouldn’t say it’s necessary. It’s likely in the mandatory custom core-as stackability is a hallmark of subclub.
Are you gonna go full stark or mix it with ascended mogul to maintain some alpha dominance?
Really not sure, I find Ascension and Ascended Mogul both modify stark in a way I don’t like as much, but at the same time-there are some insecurity recon that come up on Stark that Ascension and AM would deal with nicely. The problem is on Emperor, I honestly don’t experience insecurity, like almost at all-with DR I can experience them resurfacing but in a very distant, logically manageable way.
That’s one of the reasons I love Emperor, it’s just pure power.
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It seems that I was not ready for Emperor.
The subliminal stimulus was not a problem, but the appropriate action was. I’ve introduced a small amount of Ascension and Mogul, just 1 loop a day, and i’m already noticing a difference, particularly in work motivation and vision. Starting to think i might need this scaffolding to support my growth to the point where Emperor (and probably Ecstasy of Gold itself) becomes more appropriate.
(I’m wondering if my ongoing meditation practice may have confounded—i.e., decreased in this case— my reconciliation effects. But that’s just a theory.)
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What about just using Ascended Mogul? How did you decide to do them separately?
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It’s mainly following my intuition.
It mostly comes down to my attempt to manage the ‘load’ of the subliminals. I want to make sure I don’t add too much into my stack so that it becomes too weighed down or unmanageable. But it still feels fairly recent that I’ve started to subjectively perceive more ease of movement and ease of results happening.
At first, I wasn’t sure if I’d add Ascension at all, but I knew that I wanted to introduce Mogul. Mogul is very aligned with my current programs. Ascension a little less so.
I added in Mogul for about a week (?) or so, and everything continued to feel smooth. Then I decided to add Ascension.
I guess that keeping them separate allows me to fine-tune the loop frequencies a bit more. I’ll give it time so that I can get adjusted and I figure I’ll eventually change to Ascended Mogul. And that’ll hopefully take me to Emperor.
That was a long answer. All of this is kind of non-verbally managed in my head. Have to translate it into words.
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Got it! Makes sense! Thanks for clarifying.
You did so fluently. Thank you.
Well, as great as its been, it’s taken another turn.
The roller coaster of evolution goes on.
Dealing with some really tough recon.
I feel I’ve been a bit hopeless lately, DR must be digging deep. But more than that-this may be the addition of EOG stage 1 in my wealth custom or even just Emperor, as Emperor and I don’t get along as well as we use too lol. It’s also my final day before rest for the week, as I’ve switched to Tuesday and Wednesdays off.
I see all my habits have gone out the window, morning pages, meditation, self curriculum.
I was so excited and happy about life and subs-and mid August I started to deal with some really difficult health issues. I learned things in life and how to be and handle myself in ways I never would have had I not had those trials (I don’t believe they were sub manifestations at all, I think it was just life and subs helped me navigate it). I had to get a brain tumor ruled out due to symptoms I had, and faced the very real, at least at the time, possibility of what that could mean.
From August to January, I was really grappling with that whole world and I see in retrospect I went from pure performance mode to passive growth mode. DR, along with other actions and practices I’ve taken on it, these last three months has done wonders to pull me into a better state of health, mentally, spiritually, and physically. But I’m not really in performance mode anymore still and the ‘baby’ of wonder, excited and possibility seemed to get thrown out with the veritable bath water.
It feels in this moment that I’ll never get back there, where I was just acting freely and consistently on what mattered and towards what mattered.
On my Stark tests I got glimpses of this but it came with it’s own re-emergence of insecurities.
It seems one day I’m on top of the world, and the next I’m barely managing, this is likely DR as it really does bring up everything. This may be due to the strength of my customs/stack. I look back in July and I was running 10 loops a day on average.
Looking back down, there has been a ton of internal growth, I don’t think or operate the same way remotely but what DR definitely seems to be contributing to some apathy. It started doing this in stage 1 and it has started in stage 2, it might be time to move to stage 3 early. Perhaps this is a mechanism to know when to move on.
In any case, I’m taking everything I say with a grain of salt, but wanted to get some journaling out for the alchemical process
My big take away(s) are
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I need an end in mind-an end for this phase-like for real -and I need an end goal for that phase
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It’s not ok to keep questioning my stack and being inconsistent, it’s not working- I don’t get the results I am really looking for when I keep testing excessively. I still get progress-but I don’t get the experience I am looking for
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I need a new long term end goal, a vision, something I am fighting for and putting my energy in. The irony of this is that I’m clearer than I’ve ever been, but I need to write out, create, and presence myself to something that excites me with where I am going with all this.
I will post an answer to number 1-end goal of this phase- DR phase 2-3 months from now in a post soon.
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10 seconds after I posted this I feel my world has shifted and gotten 10 X lighter.
Journaling really is such a catalyst
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You are the catalyst man!
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On my new wealth custom
I get this insane sense of success and motivation, relational capacity, and totally new view of myself
and then an hour later I feel insane anxiety, almost like I’m dying, and sometimes physically ill and/or exhausted for the next 6 or so hours.
The next day I notice the subs influence and things are back to normal.
I have never experienced recon like this. The custom is HOM/EOG stage 1/ and R.I.C.H in a Q custom
I’ve run all three separately and experienced a similar ‘flavor’ on recon on R.I.C.H. Ultima but not as bad as this.
Since I started running this sub I’ve been asked to move from admin/operations to being head of investor relations and outreach, as the company restructures, if I prove good at it, it will become my new role with much larger pay, so something is working
Why is the recon so physical and strong on this? Is this from the R.I.C.H Ultima in Q format, just the content of these subs for me or any ideas?
It’s not a problem but any thoughts would be appreciated.
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Some updates
Emperor-Primal-PCC-Inner Circle custom
Really have come to love this one, it’s more comprehensive than Emperor, in that it allows for flow and chill. Its just a really solid base to be running from and I feel the power of Emperor, with the political savy and external charisma of PCC, and the wild, care free, grounded, sacral power, and fuck-it ness of Primal
HOM/EOG stage 1 /RICH
when recon doesn’t hit on this one, it is respect, status, and influence with like-ability through and through-I’m like the pied piper, I feel like a Jedi on this one. I didn’t really expect this effect but its pretty dope. It still has that Emperor Flavor, but I’m swimming with social freedom and expression on it, and creating new and working existing relationships feels like weaving threads- do a little of this, little of that, and everything falls into place perfectly.
My relationship with my brother is becoming very very good again since I started this, which I really value. With my mom as well although there has been more turbulence before. I feel available for my family in a great way. I do love this about HOM.
I’ve been more and more conscious of where I am allocating money again while also feeling more carefree about what I spend. I paid down a good chunk on some debt, set up a Vanguard account and am starting investing in some index funds.
I actually didn’t want to do this, and had no interest in exploring investing at this time, I like HOM for deals, family, and social Emperor, but I got drawn into doing so.
I also feel pulled to pay over year old debts to others I realize I have, I could get away with not paying them with no consequence other than a guilty conscious and a loss of my own integrity, but they are coming forefront to my mind and will start allocating funds for those.
My debts are occurring to me like others trust and investment in my future self, and I’m honored to have them lol- As I wrote this I forgot I put in debt annihilator and just double checked-I have that module so that explains that.
I can’t say I’ve seen anything concrete from RICH yet, although I do feel a sense of ‘success in my veins’ that I felt when running the RICH Ultima.
I really hope this builds long term to have a similar effect as the Ultima.
My attitude has become- I want it, I get it-now I just need the $ to back that up-haha-but the spending and sense of abundance occurs like a paradigm shift again.
I’m noticing my sense and paradigm of money shifting also, not just in terms of ‘abundance and spending’ and more in terms of value and work given and received. This seems like EOG.
Like my paradigm has been making more money in a small system, and I have been afraid of switching the system up. I feel a stronger and stronger sense of being able to switch the system up and more and more ridiculous with the current amounts I am working for.
DR/Emperor Fitness/ Mind’s Eye
Continued progress on this front, simply put -life feels simpler and better, I feel stronger in relation to everything I deal with, I definitely get DR funk at times but the negativity displacer in this custom supports with that greatly. Emperor Fitness and physical healing continues to come through. Getting stronger and stronger literally every workout, I’ve had some physical nicks and strains, but I always seem to recover. My drive and love for the gym is stronger than ever, and my focus on technical precision and form is improving. When I started working out this year 4 or so months ago, I was unable to squat 135 lbs without pain, now I’m doing 5x5 200 lbs + pain free 3 x a week. I did 240 on bench for 5x5 last week and it not that heavy, and 225 lb for 12 the week before.
I’m looking at how to incorporate Renaissance Man. I did a loop today and had a couple amazing hours before a crash. It’s a weird sub to me, so unique from anything- but does have a kind of non-sexual Emperor crossed with Stark vibe to it. I think I’d need to acclimate to it.
I got a massive hit of productivity, creativity with discipline, and path/purpose to follow and master-which I loved but the recon got hard, I was like fuck work it’s boring, I’m better than that-this could be mixed with having to work on a Sunday among other things-so I’ll reserve judgement for another test run.
I will likely get a custom with Emperor/RM/and Primal Seduction or PCC to run until the end of DR
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I’m experiencing a kind of recon that is really annoying
I feel like a vegetable, can’t get myself to rest or work. Feel ridiculously emotionally vulnerable and overwhelmed and uncomfortable existing. I wonder if this recon is from RM or not. I’ve had similar but not this intense and not to the point I couldn’t pull myself out of it to get stuff done.
Today is 2nd day off from subs.
I may be doing some deep integrating
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Hang in there brother, I’ve been through this very recently, and it’s still fresh in my mind. I know you got this.
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kicked me in the 
Rich colorful vegetable, or not? 
Hey guys,
So I’ve spend the last couple days off the grid on a farm converted to a loft with my brother and my old best friend. It’s was in celebration for my 33rd birthday coming tomorrow.
This is my 5th day off subliminal-which is the longest I’ve done in a year.
The recon I’ve experienced has been extremely difficult, and while I had a great time away on this trip, it’s also been a bit of an existential crisis. I believe I’m experiencing DR still processing at it’s toughest without the acute support form feel good, or alpha subliminal in my customs.
There is more I want to share on and process so more journaling to come soon.
It think this is my first time looking at this forum in 4 or 5 days, which is also the longest its been in about a year lol.
It makes me appreciate the whole part of my life that exists here, as well as this group as a community. 
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R.I.C.H color vegetable
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I’m happy for you man! Happy birthday!
I’m glad you are back!
on and on!
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Happy Birthday Emperor!
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