I’ve gone back to Q on a couple of tracks - for some reason it hits differently after running Qv2 for awhile.
No Starky?
Congrats man - you’re really close to goal:)
I experimented with Sage - turned out to be really good for problem solving. Not at all what I expected.
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nah, I’m starting running only one sub and HOM is too good a fit for the private equity field especially once commission is an option on the table. Nothing compares to pure Emperor for pulling everything together, but HOM has the biggest chance of windfalls that I’ve experienced and balances work collaboration and independence well. Stark would have me off pursuing my own thing purely and that’s not the best move right now.
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Q gives an internal strength and stability that I love. Q might be better at pure results but I’ve been craving and missing that internal strength. ZP will likely have it as well or even better from what it sounds like.
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thanks man-but I’m not close currently
I’m back to netting 3-4K after taxes and with bills, debt, and self investments (school, therapy etc), barely pulling in month to month.
Now it’s much better than the month to month I was experiencing at the start of 2020. I need to be doing 6k to be comfortable so looking to make that happen in the next month.
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It really does - Emperor Q added something seemed to be missing for me which you so beautifully articulated. The internal strength really…ignited something.
But I’ll update on my journal instead of hijacking yours:)
Also, really enjoyed reading about your experiences with Stark. You’re able to articulate nuance in a way that eludes me and it’s wonderfully refreshing.
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I have no doubt you’ll get there.
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thank you brother
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@Azriel is the rumor true about BobWhite in NYC? Best chicken burgers to munch on if you want to get some late-night food? 
I have not, will this week
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Will keep this short because I am in productive mode
Life has been wonderfully grounded and not nearly as interesting off subs- I’ve taken close to a 3-month washout my experience on subs changed my character but the effects faded over time. I am a different person in many ways for the better except 1 way, which I am ambiguous about, there is a level of vigilance and constant challenge, perhaps from running Emperor for so long that has stuck with me, that I have not been able to break through or get a reprieve from. I can see the finish line and have not reached escape velocity.
I will write in more detail when I close this journal soon on what the long-term changes were, and where I saw a lack of what I would have like to see improved more permanently.
I have actually had a bit of an existential crisis about how much better my life is on subs as it is disturbingly wonderful how fast things turn around in my experience and results after running some loops. I need to keep remembering it’s just bringing out the best of me.
So my journey begins again- I will run Chosen. I am not defined on with what else yet
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Ran 1 loop of Chosen today.
How to describe
- Instant energy surge
- Profound sense of positivity and possibility
- Profound sense of confidence, courage, and fearlessness
- No overthinking anything-acting on what I saw to do
- Sense of best self- nonstop productivity for 8 hours
- Working with colleagues- leading them and getting them to fulfill mission-critical items
- Being treating me like royalty-going out of their way to offer to help me with things when out- 2 people actually
- Sense of wanting to care for and lead a part of myself that has been hurt/victimized
- Sense of wanting to support and empower others while also doing what is relevant for myself
- Sense of high value and worth
- Overwhelming drive to fulfill my word on what I would said to people
- Sense of personal honor and dignity that has been missing for me.
- Sene of space around some of the crazy anxieties and internal struggles I have had
- It’s like the executive function switch in my brain has been turned on (similar to Emperor)
- Shift from a victim mentality to sense of agency
Man this ZP was powerful and worked fast. The only caveat I will say is so far the sexual edge is definitely lacking, (I know that’s not the function/ intention of the sub) but more running needs to be done to explore this.
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Sounds like good results after one loop man. I’m going to run chosen next, currently testing wanted. I hope it continues to work well for you.
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Fantastic summary and can definitely relate to everything you said. Looking forward to reading more about your experience with Chosen. Great to have you back!
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I wonder if the sexual edge would kick in once someone hits the objective of attracting a romantic partner on the same positive wavelength, like on the sales page.
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I believe it might, after further socializing around a new woman I live with temporarily, it seemed that a certain kind of attraction was strongly present on her part and that if I were very attracted back something could spark. I think with the right wave length, sparks could definitely fly on this. It’s just not as ‘dirty’ 
sexual like primal, PS, khan etc…
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Back to the ol’ Journal for now.
Running Emperor ZP 2 x a week for the last couple weeks.
I’ve posted a lot of my results and sense of comparison between ZP and Q in the Emperor ZP thread.
Just posting lately - really processing out some strong sense of hopelessness, confusion, and difficulty with my financial situation and work situation. Having glimpses into a totally different more enterprising way of being. Right now I am present to both gratitude for the flexibility and consistency I have with work, and upset, hopelessness, at going anywhere different.
I doubled my pay in November and I’m set to double it again in March- but it still feels hopeless, because I am too reliant on this one avenue pathway and I am not confident in my ability to create new pathways either with earnings from freelance work, employmeent, or my own business.
I also see how I am looking to feel good rather than produce results. This is tricky because being involved in something that feels good is more sustainable, but overcoming inertia usually never feels good initially.
None of these feelings are necessarily new but they are new in how I am relating to them. More ease, less collapse and more looking and real thinking to do something upset it.
So as this relates to Emperor ZP, not sure if recon, is part of the growth process. I prefer to feel fully empowered around what I am up to but this may be having me deal with what’s needed in a way that is needed.
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What I would say so far is Emperor ZP started off with some powerful effects/ results
and it has turned into something that seems to be causing real internal growth with minimal overt self effects or results otherwise currently.
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