\My current stack is
Emperor 2-6 loops
Azriel Q 2-3 loops
PCC 1 loop
Beyond Limitless Ultima 1 loop every other day
I never go above or below the loop parameters
I’ve come back from time away with family and the last week was incredible, no fighting, lots of love. I saw how much I had contributed or reacted in ways that made things worse and cut out 99% of those behaviors while still getting my needs me, my voice heard and following the beat of my own drum.
A lot of my recent conflict had been just asserting my independence for the sake of it, which is really just teenage behavior. There’s a difference between being assertive or even aggressive when NECESSARY and just being reactive and emotionally not in control. I realized, with my mom’s age, and life as it is these days, I didn’t have time to waste, not enjoying being with love one’s …when who knows how long any of us will be around.
Now I’m back home and
My productivity is insane
My diet is on point
I’m growing less and less attached and anxious about my one challenging client relationship/ income stream, and even starting to blow off some of the work/communication. While maybe not the greatest, it’s a huge sign of growth for me to comfortably do this. It’s more like an IDGAF anymore, I’ll deal with the consequences whatever they are.
I’m starting up my workout routine
that girl/ f-buddy, I split with a few weeks ago is hitting me up to hang out again (it’ll have to be more authentic this time or I won’t participate.)
My mind and being are increasingly more interested in making things happen for myself and less for others.
I’ve been a hair trigger away from ordering an Emperor Custom but coming on my 3rd month of Emperor Q, I see how there is a struggle between the myopic beast of focus to crush current commitments and workloads and the self aware, choice, and intelligence of what must be done now for a new rather than given future. Emperor started to open up this awareness more and more to equal and even exceed its pure focus/ will power and Beyond Limitless Ultima has enhanced this greatly
That said-these aspects opening up seem to be the hallmark of StarkQ. I’m really seeing how Stark may be more in alignment with my current goals. I have to create stuff from nothing, clarify my long term career/ and business direction, build a new future and direction, and build a 2 million dollar business in the next year.
I’ve really come to love my life now, I just recognize when it’s time for everything to change and start moving towards that
I also love Emperor, I have no desire to switch subs what so ever. However I need the highest edge I can get possible in starting my own business, entrepreneurship and from the research I’ve done and trusted people I’ve asked on this Forum, Stark seems to be the move. I won’t make any changes before August. If I can break through into clarity and start actionable steps towards a defined new direction, in the next 10 days, I will stay on my current trajectory sub wise. If not I will recreate the stack and next custom/(s) accordingly