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#531

Further effects,
Yesterday, between night and day ended up being a blend of Khan Stage 1 1 x Azriel Q 1x HOM 2 loops Emperor Q 4 loops. I felt extremely satisfied with my state, performance, results, and way of being and had zero desire to run anything other than Emperor mainly.

That night I ran PCC and HOM

So today is blend of PCC/HOM/ Emperor X Terminus and Emperor Q

The moment I ran terminus I started thinking about my stack and switching etc so definitely reconciliation in that form-then it leveled out.

That said when I go out after a run of Emperor Terminus X the attraction results are crazy. More than Libertine for me even. I will look back and woman I made eye contact are looking back over their shoulder and we make eye contact again. It’s like movie moments.

I get into the easiest conversations with woman and it feels like were in bed talking. I also simultaneously have no interest in pursuing anything further and a new desire to escalate things, as my lack of desire may just be a masked concern for social consequence, not personal rejection.

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#532

I said this on another thread but want to say it here cause I find it interesting

"I have primal seduction in one of my customs and when I added survival instinct, before the experimental period, I became more comfortable interacting with woman who were around or in groups of men. Before then I avoided that because men with woman are quick to be threatened by my presence. Even when I have no intention of anything…except looking maybe lol. "

So interesting the things discovered with synergy

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#533

I was going through my subliminal folder.
I have never renamed anything except for my customs
I saw a folder called Masterworks Ultrasonic- from Subliminal Club
Does anyone know what this is?

I purchase everything straight from the store or Q store and download right away.
I have no orders, custom or store at the time it was downloaded, I definitely never downloaded it.
This is my first time noticing it too.

#534

Congratulations! That’s fast!

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#535

@Azriel. The short of it: it breaks down mental barriers to energy cultivation and generation. Also points you in the right direction to achieve your energy working goals.

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#536

There’s this thread.

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#537

thank you for the link

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#538

sounds amazing

#539

:slight_smile: thank you
One life goal off the bucket list
It may seem trivial but building victories is powerful.
I couldn’t have done it without Medici lol

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#540

We will be the new rulers of the world with Medici lol

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#541

I’ve been thinking…

I wonder if the more ability one has to be fluid with their imagination and visualization,
even subconsciously, the faster and more pronounced the sublminal results

or is everyone’s subconscious incredible at imagining and visualizing things-even if they consciously don’t know it?

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#542

Experiment Day 3 part 2

last we left off
PCC/HOM/ Emperor X Terminus/ and Emperor Q one loop

I’ve since run
Survival Instinct/Azriel Q/ PCC

The emperor terminus and Q mixed seemed to knock my focus off for the day and I’ve been in a fairly, lazy, socially delightful decline ever since. I think this is more reconciliation than subs combined effects. Although the social/sexual effects of today’s mix are off the charts.

I chilled out the whole evening. I have not chilled out, non intentionally in quite some time.

I hung out with two different woman in the neighborhood, were acquaintances/friends but I’m open to it becoming more.

PCC may be making me far too socially inclined.

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#543

final effects

  1. Unfocused, chill, socially inclined-my focus started to slip after my work technically finished today.
  2. Actively feeling like seeking out social and/or sexual encounters-I have not been proactive towards either of those things for some time
  3. some kind of healing is taking place around
  4. I find it VERY hard to think after/ while running PCC, I don’t understand why. It’s almost like a different more gut level part of me gets activated.
  5. When I run Azriel Q I get energetic downloading in my left ear, when I run PCC I get it in my right.

Currently
Feeling a strength and solidity but also incredible visceral pain in my solar plexus, thinking about woman who it ended with, or I’ve been seeing in the last few months who were doing cat and mouse with each other. I though I saw this girl I was sleeping with holding hands with some dude from outside my window lol.

Honestly I didn’t have my glasses on so it could be her or not. It be pretty unlikely to see her there. But that’s where my mind is going, all the ways I’ve been jilted, left out, too paranoid, or not wary enough around woman. Maybe this is from running a sub with primal seduction before PCC. In either case while not pleasant, I’m also enjoying the absurdity of it and appreciating seeing and feeling things that were under the surface.

Seeing how it hurts that I feel I have to play these games or lose out-this is also likely reconciliation from PCC-hardest sub for me to run-by far, although I very much like its effects. Maybe more healing in this area is required and that’s why it’s so rough.

Seeing how powerless and awful a part of me feels, and how another part gets paranoid, and doesn’t trust anyone I’m dating really. This makes sense why I have trouble with commitment. That and who doesn’t like sexual variety of course.

this may be reconciliation but PCC seems to put me in a visceral, embodied, gut level, headspace where it is hard for me to think, and I just want to socialize. Not a bad thing but not what I need.

While I may run PCC to the end of the month with my stack for it’s healing effects, unless something shifts with the head space it puts me focus wise in I’ll drop it for any longer stack runs.

experimenting is proving useful,
also what a feeling, to be free from the confines of a stack and not worrying about it losing out on results.

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#544

What are some of the effects of pcc that you have noticed…im still struggling to understand the sales page of PCC

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#545

Have fun with PCC! How’s regeneration going?

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#546

Azriel, do you think that if for examples you stopped tomorrow to use the subs forever,
thos changed within you will stick or fade over time?
Do you believe that they are ingrained in you even without using subs again?

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#547

note from higher self:
(copying this from you know who you are :wink: )

what if there were no answers from a certain level of thinking-it’s that thinking that has me seeking in the first place.

what if actively THINKING DIFFERENTLY was the answer

(I’ve use proper grammar to keep this distinct from a Mac commercial )

#548

I think aspects of them would stick with me forever at this point
confidence, a certain degree of productivity and focus, and clarity, what I’ve healed,
dominance with woman, work, and life, a degree of flow, because these are all in my experience and have shifted me from the inside out, and certain would lessen over time,
like the insane drive and push of Emperor , or perhaps some of the aura and manifestation.
But I couldn’t say for sure. That said I know have the visceral experience of these effects and can tap into them forever to some degree. The subs don’t add anything new, the bring out the best in us from my understanding. No influence or experience lasts forever in our identity and being if it is not acted on, nurtured, or cultivated

I believe long term permanent growth has occurred , and there is further to go

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#549

I’ve added it in the past for quite some time.
It’s very hard to explain but

  1. Increasing sense of people’s actual intentions
  2. Visceral sense if people have your best interest in mind or not
  3. highlighting where people manipulate, not even always intentionally, but unconsciously to get their needs met as survival mechanism
  4. Social charisma, charm, status, attention, and savvy
  5. A sense of doing things that benefit you-I forgot who said this but someone said you get WIFI-what’s in it for me. Not in a greedy way, but in a healthy win-win way
  6. healing from past and current toxic influences that have made or are making me feel powerless
  7. And of course a viscerally understanding awareness of, and ability to act on the 48 laws of power. Since Merger of worlds I can literally just know the laws, I’ll do something and then the law will flash in my awareness. I have not read the book yet, although I have in the past look at the table of contents.
  8. It occurs like your playing a social/ relational game on a whole other level-like you see in multiple dimensions and of what’s happening, where every one is at, and who want and will do what.
  9. Less social concern and anxiety
  10. Increase admiration, and attraction from others-but not necessarily sexually, but respect, admiration. It could lead sexually but as I mentioned different mechanism than the sexuality of primal or the dominance of Emperor, or even magnetism of Stark.
  11. Less interest in everything that doesn’t benefit you directly, on Emperor I strive for excellence and integrity in work, when I add PCC, I look to do the best job with the least effort and attention.

if I think of more I’ll post it.

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#550

thank you!
but this is all an experiment, I don’t know what will stick yet
I’m not running regeneration currently :slight_smile: