Aurum Deus (GLM + EOG)

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I’m going to have a rather busy week (but if all my plans come to fruition, it’s going to be very rewarding) so I’ll use it as an opportunity to stabilize myself and integrate the changes better. I’ll stay at 15s

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Also, I noticed that I started making some healthier choices. Again, utilizing baby steps

For example, I switched normal gum to xylitol gum (xylitol is healthy for teeth)

I started using sugar free energy drinks instead of normal ones (I’m addicted - but it’s progress!)

I accidentally did 16 hour fast instead of planned 12 hours. I was in a flow state with work and then I just fell asleep once I was finished, so hunger was not a problem

Slow and steady wins the race, that’s my motto for now. I wasn’t able to make fast changes, I’d implement them for a few weeks at best, then burnout and drop it for months. With slow changes it doesn’t happen because I’m doing such tiny steps, my nervous system doesn’t even notice it

I guess that’s what Saint meant when he said that too fast and “in your face” results might cause destabilization?

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Seems like the anti-recon module is tackling this issue as well. I externalized it, and now I’m having some internal conflict. Not in the bad sense. It’s a positive one, actually. My natural desires slowly changes from “I want to add third title” to “I don’t want to add third title, my stack already hits all my goals and I’d prefer deeper results faster”

Still kind of battling it because there’s simultaneously the feeling of “a missing third piece” and “my stack is complete, there’s no need to add anything yet”

this “more is better” stuff is affecting not only the subliminal journey but also my life overall because it makes me to chase multiple areas instead of diving deep into a select few

I have no idea how I can consciously work on it so I’m just going to keep listening, self reflecting and waiting for ideas to arise (or just the sub script to do its thing)

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What I need to do is to teach myself to always have some time buffer when I set deadlines…

Currently missing one work related because I didn’t estimate my abilities clearly enough, and despite me doing my best, I’m still unable to get it done in time.

Well, lesson learnt

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Rest day

Encountering lots of problems with work. Quite demotivating. Well, this too shall pass

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Seeing that I have a long way to go, I’m considering keeping EOG1 for quite some time and just add EOG2 on top, after 10 more listening days (it’s going to be about 2 months of EOG1 for me)

Even though RoW is quite tempting, EOG2 is quite literally perfect for my current situation. I want to get to a certain income and net worth before running RoW as I’ve read that it can distabilize someone pretty hard, make them unmotivated, etc. which is the last thing I want right now lol

I can see myself running EOG2 for the full duration of this journal tbh

As for EOG1, I’m only considering rotating it with RoW once in a while, once I feel ready for RoW. Not seeing myself stopping EOG1 any time soon either

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I’ll stay at 15s

I can already tell that reducing exposure and giving myself time to integrate was a good call. The inner turmoil has quietened down and I can see now the new beneficial patterns of behavior that are starting to integrate (and because I see them, I can take action on them).