day 7 - GLM + EOG1 + E:E (15s)
Read the sales page of GLM yesterday, still don’t know the cause of that resistance
Added E:E to help with productivity issues.
If I encounter any issues, I’ll lower the exposure even more
Other than that, rather reactive today. It’s weird because I seem to be calm on the inside and react on the outside - those anger bursts don’t drain the energy. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not lol
Also, very horny today lol
seems like once the surface level recon is cleared, some really deep work begins
I’m noticing some deep identity level changes, some of which are so subtle /deep that I can’t articulate them properly.
I know they are happening because some standard actions feel “unusual”. Like, I just went to buy groceries, and act of paying for them felt somehow different
Same is happening with my general behavior and confidence - something feels very different, some changes are subtle, but it’s like the core driver behind them is changing and modifying
Also, my hunger has decreased drastically without me even noticing. I’d usually have like 3 meals + occasional snacks and for the last few days I just had one meal in the morning and one in the evening
And I’m absolutely not hungry during the day
E:E is acting already and I see my mind is trying to reconcile some impulses and find the solutions to my issues with work/productivity, but right now it’s failing lol. But at least there’s an urge to “lock in”
E:E needs more time. On my side, I’m consciously doing everything that I know works for me in regards to productivity
After adding it to my stack, I thought some more about it and I’m considering having it there until I have enough passive income to live off.
Tbh seeing how much work and improvement I have ahead of me, I might as well run GLM+EOG1+EE for a year straight lol
Rest Day
Saw dreams during the night, saw dreams during the nap too. One was weird, with demons in it and I was turned into one but was fighting against them lol
The other dream was just about work, nothing unusual. I think it was Executive tackling the work aversion issue I mentioned in this post:
I do feel strong recon though, I’ll decrease the duration of EE only to 7 sec and will go from there.
Somehow I went from a person running full loops to becoming extremely sensitive to subs lol. I guess that’s a good thing though
Been seeing a lot of repeating numbers lately. Like 5:55, 3:33, etc.
I don’t know if I believe that it’s of any importance or not, but it’s interesting
Also, decided to not do Ascension Chamber for now. I’ll consider adding it back to my stack when it’s updated OR when I get to 5+ min loops at least for my stack. Don’t want to add any more burden to my processing queue
Listening day 8 - GLM + EOG1 + E:E (15s + 5s)
(The first number represents GLM and EOG, the second number - E:E)
Let’s test 5s of EE.
Today would also be the final day of the old ZP schedule. I don’t feel that I need washout tbh but I’m going to do an early one after 1-2 more weeks. I’m going on a trip so I think it’s a good idea to rest a bit from the subs
Much more productive today. Now my focus is to just slowly get EE to the same level as other subs
Yeah, 5 sec is def. much better for Executive. Though I’m still feeling some lingering recon from 15s
E:E long-term, no doubt lol
Relationships with money definitely feels different but I can’t really say how and in what way. It’s like there’s more familiarity?
Listening day 9 - GLM + EOG1 + EE (16s + 7s)
Yesterday was amazing. Woke up, did morning meditation (I started meditating on GLM), and just worked until the end of the day. Meditated again, went to sleep. Took 2 breaks for food (breakfast and dinner) and just had small breaks to make myself tea. Other than that, just work. Productivity, enthusiasm, etc. - all there
Didn’t want to journal yesterday (or didn’t care much). Today decided to add 1s to main subs and 2 sec to EE. The idea is that eventually EE will catch up this way and I’ll get to the same duration, and in the meantime I’ll expose myself to new scripting in main stack
I think that’s actually a very good call. I had some recon immediately after listening but it cleared in about an hour and I was able to just start working
I wonder if I should just do increases like this every couple of days
Found a new taxi app in my country which offers cheaper services. This way I’ll cut down the costs of transportation on taxi a bit.
Also made a small income/expense tracker sheet for myself
Feeling weird and not really in the mood for productivity today. It’s because I underslept though, not recon related. Still got some work done
Listening day 10 - GLM + EOG1 + EE (17s + 9s)
Mistake, should’ve kept 16+7s
I’ll try the other approach. On a listening day (if I have no recon on rest day), I’ll increase either GLM+EOG by 1 sec, or EE by 2 sec. Not all three subs at once
I just realized that I actually might be very close to this goal and hit it in the next few months consistently, if I go at the rate I’m going
Apparently, it’s recon from EOG. The topic of recon is money.
The recon on this sub for me mostly is that I start to think that me earning money is meaningless and I don’t care for anything that it can buy, nor do I have any great goals to use money to achieve…
This recon appeared often before I found my sweet spot and I still have not figured it out.