Howdy new customer here. I’ve been looking at this site for a while trying to develop enough trust to try one of your programs. I finally pulled the trigger and bought Alchemist Supreme on May 1st along with Rebirth. My plan was to use it religiously as I study Hermetics and go through my magic/psychic training. That’s still ultimately the plan, but after running it for a day i realized that what i need more than anything right now is some “masculine behavioral therapy.” I think Rebirth is partially responsible for this because during my first night of listening i kept having uncomfortable visions where i was reliving past disappointing experiences. Anyways I decided to buy Ascension yesterday and run it first while also continuing my magic/psychic training. I’m declaring here and now that my decision was final, and i will not be changing programs again until I’ve run Ascension for at least 90 days.
About Me: I’m a 22 year old above average looking black male. My life kinda sucks right now. To this day I’ve never had a girlfriend but I have gotten laid a handful of times. I dropped out of college my freshman year and joined the Marines. 2 years later I was separated from the Marines because of my mental health. All I have to show for those 2 years of my life is a pretty nice disability check which I am thankful for. I have been back in the civilian world for a little over 2 years now.
Over the course of the past 2 years I’ve developed a pretty bad drug, alcohol and porn addiction which i now have under control. I’ve worked a few dead end jobs; delivering pizzas and driving for Uber and Lyft. I tried to make a career out of insurance sales but it didn’t work out. In 2019 i watched a lot of my friends who i graduated high school with graduate college and it made me feel kinda shitty for not finishing myself. I developed some pretty powerful affirmations and read them faithfully everyday over the summer, and while I did get some results, they weren’t nearly as good as I was hoping for. In August '19 i discovered a competing subliminal producer and used their Alpha Male product. I got pretty good results from it. Im at least superficially confident and i feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin, but I’m still not where i wanna be. I think part of the reason it didnt work as well as it couldve is because i just couldnt give up PMO and a lot of my other self sabotaging activities at the time.
My parents didnt allow me to play football when i was young because i was their only child and they were both 40+ when i was born. They said they didnt want me to get hurt. When my dad was alive i used to be EXTREMELY self confident. He died when i was 11, and my self confidence/ self esteem slowly deteriorated over the years that followed, so that by the time i was like 16 i had some serious complexes. Also at 16, my 24 year old cousin came to visit one day and beat the crap out of me out of nowhere. He beat me so bad that i almost lost my left eye, and for years following i couldnt feel the left side of my mouth at all and my eye would twitch periodically. I had to learn to talk “from my teeth” in order to compensate for the nerve damage. This experience made me doubt my ability to defend myself and is ultimately the reason why i joined the Marines in the first place.