Alexander The R.I.C.H. Trader

[Forexpreneur]

It’s obvious to me that I need to share this incredible journey I had yesterday on this forum here in my journal. I started a new topic in “Latest Questions and Comments”

Here is the link:
Pride Unbroken & The Worthiness Recalibration (redundant?)

Here is a response from SaintSoverign with a qOS breakdown of the two modules used together in a custom:

"No, they wouldn’t be redundant. They both rest on a sense of inherent worth, but each one deals with a different injury and points that worth in a different direction.

Pride Unbroken is about worth that was damaged by how other people treated you. That includes being left, ignored, passed over, or made to feel you never mattered. It may help you let go of the worthlessness, powerlessness and indignation those experiences leave behind. It may also help you reconnect with a healthy, positive pride that doesn’t depend on how anyone treated you. Its territory is relational: your worth in the face of other people.

The Worthiness Recalibration is about worth that has become tied to earning. That is the quiet belief that abundance has to be justified through struggle, achievement or validation. It may help you release those beliefs, so that receiving feels natural rather than something you have to qualify for. Its territory is your worth in relation to what you allow yourself to receive.

Put simply, one addresses “I wasn’t valued” and the other addresses “I have to earn it.” The two often feed each other. Someone who was made to feel insignificant frequently ends up believing they have to prove themselves before they’re allowed to have anything. Running both in one custom covers the same root from two sides and doesn’t repeat the same work.

One honest note on The Worthiness Recalibration. The self-worth it nurtures is real and general in nature, but the module is aimed at wealth and receiving. I’d treat any wider life benefit as a welcome extension, not as what it’s built for. Since you’re working on both areas, it earns its place. Pride Unbroken is the one carrying the broader, personal side of the worth work in your build."

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 20 26 (Rest)
• 9 21 26
  PEACE (2 Minutes)
  RICH Trader (2 Minutes)

I listened to these literally just a few minutes before bed. Man, I have to say PEACE is friking awesome. I go to sleep within minutes, night after night. My mind is empty and clean, not stuck on things from the day or the past.

Not sure why, but I don’t recall any dreams last night. I do know I was dreaming because something from outside woke me up, but then I fell right back to sleep. It did feel like very deep work in my sleep but I don’t recall a single thing.

I found a clip on Youtube yesterday that I saved. It’s from the movie “The Founder” which is about Ray Kroc and McDonald’s. There are a couple of things they took liberty of in the movie but overall it’s pretty accurate and a movie I love.

The scene is towards the end when he’s practicing a speech that he’s giving that evening. The scene is Ray talking about Persistence, which is my superpower. I won’t quote it, but he starts off

“Now I know what you’re thinking. How does a 52 year old, over the hill milkshake salesman build a fast food empire with over 1,600 …” Michael Keaton played an awesome role in that movie. Although I also loved him in the Batman 1989 movie too.

I like this clip so much I am very seriously thinking about watching it as part of my daily ritual before I analyze my charts, etc. But it’s also calling me to play it just before I go to bed. It’s literally just over 1 minute long so it’s not as though it takes much time. But it’s very poignant to me and very motivating.

I’m going to have to make it a point to watch that movie again in an upcoming weekend.

BTW, I have to add, I’m in an odd space today. I’m not down or depressed or anything like that, but I’m not bright and cheery and ready to take on the world today either. I think yesterday brought up quite a bit.

In fact, I know it did, but I’m not consciously stuck on anything. I’m not rehashing anything but I can tell there is some deep work going on. I’ll sit with it for a little bit, but then a little later I’ll play some songs that really motivate me. We’ll see what that does.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 21 26 Part Deux
  PEACE (2 Minutes)
  RICH Trader (2 Minutes)

OMG. I came across this by accident (no way it was actually an accident) and haven’t seen or thought about this in years. I’m going to share a poem I wrote quite a few years back (during the Great Recession when the markets were completely F’n crazy and then volatility dried up for about a year and a half).

Background of poem and me becoming a lyracist/songwriter

Anyway, I went into therapy for about a year and a half and focused on healing things (I mentioned, therapy rarely gets to the root of your problems). My therapist suggested that I should start writing to get my emotions out. BTW, within a short period of time I ended up becoming a lyricist/songwriter registered with BMG. Never had a big hit song, but I did have some success and it was quite the adventure. Seems like another life ago, but I digress.

BTW a subsidiary of Sony gave me a formal offer but I didn’t take it because I knew the markets would come back and my trading would work out again. Which it did. It ended up being a wise decision to refuse because Sony completely eliminated the entire songwriter/lyricist department about 6 months later. That songwriter/lyricist program had existed for over 70 years (obviously started before Sony). Times change.

Here is the poem:

I’ve Always Loved You

Sweet little child, born into this world so innocent and pure
I’m so sorry what is going to happen to you
There’s no way to prepare you for this incredible pain
Always remember, there’s no reason for your shame

The road will be long and filled with strife
But open your heart and be filled with life
You will find your love, a love so pure
Just take a deep breath while you endure

It will be cold and it will show on your face
But the love in your heart can never be replaced
Be sure to smile and to give a gentle embrace
I promise, in this world you will find your place

Learn to be happy, and to set yourself free
When things get too tough remember to lean on me
I’m always with you, I have always been
I will never leave you, even when it feels like the end

When life gets tough and you wish time would stand still
Just remember child
I have always loved you
And I promise I always will
© 2010
[end]

That poem still hits home today after reading it. I genuinely haven’t seen this in well over a decade. I was making a motivational video for myself and accidently put the video into a personal folder that has a ton of positive quotes I used to make. I then looked at other folders in there that I haven’t seen in a very long time.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 21 26 Part Three (Amigos)
  Peace (2 Minutes)
  RICH Trader (2 Minutes)

• Major revelation

I just came across this post from SaintSoverign that seems to break down what I was feeling earlier today ( from me earlier … “I’m in an odd space today. I’m not down or depressed … but I’m not bright and cheery and ready to take on the world either …”)

Link to the post I’m referencing from SaintSoverign

New Main Idea Thread - Revelation of Spirit Upgrade

So, it’s essentially the concept of Wu Wei synergized and filtered through Western style nervous system regulation. Wu Wei is the philosophical container it was built upon. I had qOS create a quick write up on it – the title is named PEACE: PEACE is concerned with the part of you that cannot stop pushing. Not your sadness, not your coldness, but your effort — the ceaseless inner labor of forcing, gripping, striving, and controlling that most of us mistake for simply being alive. We have been …

This is the part that hits the nail right on the head as to what I was feeling earlier: Equanimity

Here is the actual quote from SaintSoverign (well, actually qOS via SaintSoverign):

" … What sets PEACE apart is where it finally takes you: not toward a brighter feeling (like Summertime), but toward a still center — the unmoved point at the heart of all the turning. This is not the warmth of a good day or the lift of high spirits, both of which depend on conditions being right. It is equanimity: the steadiness that holds when the day goes wrong, when the demands crowd in, when the storm refuses to pass.

PEACE works at the deepest level of the body, helping a nervous system that has forgotten how to stop forcing remember its own stillness — so that calm is no longer a state you must achieve and defend, but the ground you simply stand on …" [end of quote]

To be clear, I wasn’t alarmed by what I was feeling earlier. It was actually new to me. It wasn’t the blissful feeling that so much of society programs us to think what “peace” should be. Nothing wrong with that, but no way that could be all the time. Hell even the Dali Lama gets hit with rage, he’s even admitted it himself when he thinks about the Chinese Communist Government taking over Tibet and kicking him out.

Anyway, equanimity. Stable. Not high. Not low. Even keeled.

Yesterday brought up some emotions and memories I hadn’t thought of in a long time. Abandonment, and perceived abandonment, all rolled up into a coherent, tight ball of negatively charged energy. Most of which is unhealed, and not by choice.

Instead of getting carried away with this negative energy, man can PTSD ever do that when it’s unchecked, I intrinsically let it pass like being Rooted Like the Mountain " … Storms move across a mountain without asking its permission, and the mountain doesn’t need to answer them to remain a mountain."

My f’n God! (sorry if the language offends you, I do tone it down). This is one of the major things I’m working on for trading. Life also. It’s detachment. REAL detachment.

Not forced. Not feigned. Real. Automatic. Not practiced. No trying. No remembering. Not even doing. JUST BEING and letting the other stuff be what it’s being and just let it pass on by. Like a storm moving past a mountain.

[Forexpreneur]

• addendum to the above post

I was so excited about this revelation, that I actually forgot to mention what I was actually most excited about.

I’ve very recently experience true detachment (the park incident just a few days ago). What I’m most excited about with this experience today is that yesterday brought up some very heavy memories of things that happened in my childhood.

One incident was so heavily charged I’ve only told one person and that was a therapist that I had an excellent rapport with and I had been seeing them for over a year and it still took three months to even talk about it. And truth is, he genuinely had to talk to a therapist (all therapists have access to therapist mentors that help them deal with their emotions if a therapy session brings it up).

So the emotions and memories from yesterday were heavy, deep, and charged. Honestly I would normally be caught up for a couple of days when heavy stuff like this came up (before I started using SubClub titles and getting excellent results).

I didn’t get lost or carried away by those emotions. And they passed. I can’t even begin to tell you how many I tried this in therapy and my Buddhist practice. Easier said than done, especially if your life had a ton of trauma and abuse.

My next two days happen to be my rest days from the subs. I’ve said it before, but man I love this new modified schedule of having two rest days back to back during the week.

This is now the second week of my new listening schedule which is M Th Sat.

[Forexpreneur]

It amazes me sometime how quickly l can dig into things. BTW one of my superpowers is researching. Part of that is speed reading and comprehension. I can break a few pages down in less than a minute, unless it’s very technical stuff that I have no clue about.

So I was curious if the order of the modules in a custom makes a difference? I found out it doesn’t (at least according to wisdom from a couple years ago).

While researching, I came across a pearl of wisdom from a gentleman I’ve not run across before @Simon . It just happened to have been on a thread of @subliminalguy .

Here is the link to the pearl of wisdom of how to used EOG1 (and really any sub. But frankly is handy for my custom sub)

Simon’s Instructions on using EOG’s First Stage

Overall, I’ve been doing this and intrinsically knew it. But I love how @Simon breaks it down and explains everything.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 22 26 (Rest day 1 of 2)

I’m taking today off. Not just from the subs but with the trading stuff today also. I was just getting ready to start my trading routine (the actual prep part before I even open charts and plot out a game plan for the day (I’m still demo trading just to get the routine solidified)) and I realized that I need to just chill today and let this equanimity experience continue to gel.

It’s been with me all day today also. My mind is getting more comfortable with it but it’s still treating it as an unknown. It’s funny to me because it, nor I know what to do with it. And that’s the rub. I intrinsically know there is NOTHING to do with it and if I try it will probably disappear and then who knows how long it might take for it to come back.

PEACE is incredibly interesting. Honestly it’s about being, not doing “it”. Not striving for “it”. It actually reminds me very much of the Tao. In the Tao Te Ching it talks about the Tao as being something you can’t chase because it’s always there. You can’t name it because it’s beyond names and labels, etc. PEACE genuinely feels like that.

So what does this have to do with trading? EVERYTHING. I already mentioned it, but with trading one of the things that a pro trader strives for is equanimity. Truth is, it’s very rarely referred to as that, but honestly, that is what you want to achieve.

That way you can read the charts without bias. See things happening before others. Instantly change and adapt with the markets. The ONLY way you can achieve this is with true equanimity.

If it’s still with me today, which it is, I don’t need to chase it. It’s almost like a butterfly just landed on me. You can’t move towards it to take a look. You can’t turn your head to see it better. Just sit with it. Let it be. Let it bless you.

So I’m sitting with it (equanimity) today. I’ll let it do its thing. Maybe it will stay. Maybe it won’t. I know what it feels like now. And I like it a lot. It’s just not familiar yet. So I’ll let it become familiar to me.

We’ll see if it’s still with me tomorrow. I’m very curious now.

[Forexpreneur]

I found a picture to describe what true equanimity feels like (right smack in the middle and yellow on this chart.)

It’s not a let down by any means, but is completely new to me. Any happiness brings you out of equanimity (not a bad thing, and most still consider that equanimity). Also any sadness or anger brings you out of equanimity.

With true equanimity you feel neither. What most people refer to as peace, is a form of bliss. That’s not what this is. It’s neither. It’s difficult for my brain to wrap around and comprehend. But it’s here.

[Forexpreneur]

It would seem as though true equanimity is my baseline now. I’m trying not to get too excited but it has stuck around for three days now.

Here’s the thing. I don’t know how to bring it back. So far I just automatically come back to it and incredibly quickly. That’s why I’m saying it seems to be my true baseline now.

Another thing that was interesting today, I woke up with zero clue what day it was. I do remember the dream before I woke up but it didn’t seem as though I was in that deep of a sleep. But I must have been.

Of course it takes just a second these days. Our phones have the day and date. I have a very cool digital wall clock that looks like a ticker board in a trading room and it shows the day of the week. But I usually know what day it is right away. Not today.

The dream was an odd one about remaining patient. What was so odd about it is that my Mom was in this dream. She’s incredibly impatient and always has been. I get impatient with her but not in this dream. I took deep breaths with deeper exhales and all was good.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 23 26 (Rest Day 2 of 2) not sure why I forgot to include this above

I officially received my Initiate title today.

Again I wanted to thank @MAkh for letting me know about the different titles and the discount levels.

I waited for a bit because of Fire’s personal devastation and poor SaintSoverign have to work even harder to keep SubClub running.

I’ve been working on formulating my trading alter ego further today. This comes from Alter Ego which is a book by Todd Herman who’s helped countless athletes, musicians, entrepreneurs, etc to move past blockages by creating alter egos. Kobe Bryant is one of the most well known with his Black Mamba alter ego.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 24 26 (Listening Day 18)
  PEACE w Synergy:Harmonic Conflux (1 min)
  RICH Trader w Synergy: The Golden One (1 min)

Equanimity is my baseline for sure. At this point I’m getting more used to it. I do want to make it clear I do feel emotions it’s just that I so far am not getting carried away by them. I return to center incredibly quickly.

I assure you, living with PTSD most of my life, and all of my adult life, true equanimity felt very odd. I was genuinely watching it very closely thinking it was a low level depression. That’s where all that therapy comes into play. I know what to look for and usually know how to ease it.

Depression is no joking matter, but I actually find it funny that I was thinking true equanimity could be low level depression. It just shows how we have to constantly deal with a sea of changing emotions when we have PTSD. Not getting carried away felt unnatural when in fact it should be like a pair of worn in jeans.

To be clear, DRReg and GLM truly helped to calm my nervous system in major ways. But it wasn’t true equanimity like I’m experience now. Again, this is PEACE working its magic. I’m just curious how PEACE is going to unfold in the next year? In two years like I have planned?

I will throw Summertime in the mix for a bit just to add some warmth and then I plan to run Summertime for a while later.

I’m still on demo trading and I will be for a couple more weeks until I solidify my trading routine. This is sort of like spring training in baseball. Live trading of course is where the real work begins, so I’ll start off slow and low.

I will be working on my Alter Ego work today also.

[Tobyone]

@Forexpreneur

Here’s the thing. I don’t know how to bring it back. So far I just automatically come back to it and incredibly quickly. That’s why I’m saying it seems to be my true baseline now.

@Forexpreneur

Equanimity is my baseline for sure. At this point I’m getting more used to it. I do want to make it clear I do feel emotions it’s just that I so far am not getting carried away by them. I return to center incredibly quickly.

That’s some powerful results, amazing

You’ll get to my point in my own experience where that fear of losing it goes away also, and that’s moving you even further toward equanimity. The emotional body is one of your greatest assets and probably the most powerful one in what decisions you make in life, so IMO emotional control is not dominating your emotions in any direction, but the conscious awareness to not unconsciously get carried away by them

The way I see emotions is like that Nero Knowledge guy on YT says sometimes, that emotion is the language of God/ Consciousness /Highest Energy / Absolute / The All / Pure Potential, or whatever one chooses to call it.

So with that in mind I see it as something like this “it’s the first step down from the infinite into a readable and manageable form of energy for us humans”. That actually came to me in a meditation, don’t ask me why but it sounds fancy

But anyway, I see it as you wouldn’t plug your phone charger directly into those massive powerlines coming directly from the powerplant, as that poor phone would go to phone heaven then. You would instead use the step down version of the electrical current in your living room’s power socket. Anyway enough yapping

[Forexpreneur]

@Tobyone

so IMO emotional control is not dominating your emotions in any direction, but the conscious awareness to not unconsciously get carried away by them

Very well said. And thank you for sharing your experience and uplifting message.

I just have to say this, I’ve alluded to this before but all of these SubClub subs I’ve tried are incredible in their own way. I’ve been working with subs and hypnosis stuff since the late 80’s with next to no results with most of them. But I knew how powerful the subconscious was so I’d try some other persons products.

I very reluctantly gave SubClub a try with Genesis: The Art of Happiness and Joy and was blown away after just a couple of loops. I mean, it was free so it wasn’t as though I’d be out much money. LOL. I knew this stuff was very real and these guys had their act together.

But honestly, to calm PTSD down? I genuinely wasn’t even thinking about that until DRReg. I fell in love with that title. Summertime is awesome also, but PEACE is on another level on what it’s bringing. I genuinely plan to use it for about two years. I’m very curious what my growth will be like.

Anyway, I’m actually getting sleepy (it’s 4 am here on the West Coast of the US). Hopefully I’m not being incoherent.

But it’s awesome to hear from you and thank you for your kind words and sharing some of your wisdom.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 25 26 (Resting Day) Nothing to journal really, or so I thought.
  9 26 26 (Listening Day 19)
  PEACE w Synergy:Harmonic Conflux (1 min)
  RICH Trader w Synergy: The Golden One (1 min)

It’s not really sailing if it’s always calm seas is it?

No clue why, but today I’m just in a pissy mood. The night before last I used my real charts but in demo mode. Up until this point I’ve been using a backtesting software which is fairly close but not the exact same.

So my mind started freaking out when price went against me, just like it had been doing with real trading. Although the cool thing is that with little guidance my emotions got into check. But there was this underlying feeling in my gut. You know the unsettling kind of feeling that just sits there in the core.

Okay. Cool. I can deal with this. Whatever it is. The trade went against me some more and the feelings reared their ugly head again. Stronger than I was expecting but they were checked fairly quickly. I paused the charts (would be nice in real trading sometime, LOL) and worked through those emotions. This is the power of demo charts. The ability to pause all the information. Work through the emotions and calm them down.

I was happy how quickly the emotions were checked and calmed down overall. I was a little surprised at how intense they were. Overall I’m still not worried about it because I’ll just take the time it needs to lower their intensity.

But here’s the rub. It’s the low level, in the gut feeling that just kind of stuck there. I’m not exactly sure what it is. I don’t recall my dreams from last night, although I do know I had dreams because I was woken up by noise again outside but fell asleep right away.

Whatever that low level feeling is in the pit of my stomach is what’s causing me to be pissy today. Difficult to explain how I know, but I know that’s what it is. I always get the feeling that it’s an unresolved core issue.

So I’ll be gentle with it until I discover what it is.

BTW, the trade I was talking about did end up going against and closed out with my stop loss, ultimately for a loss. It was an iffy trade anyway, but did follow my rules. It just wasn’t a high quality trade. Not a big deal. Sometimes we take those anyway if it’s a slow trading session.

I think my emotions took it more personal than it needed to be. It was just a standard loss with a low level standard trade. No mistakes were made on my part and that’s the important thing.

Oddly, just writing this out has lifted quite a bit of the pissy feeling. Plus my coffee just kicked in. LOL. But honestly, this pissy feeling is something core. I’ll let it reveal itself and then take it from there.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 27 26 (Rest Day)

Baseball. I’m a huge baseball fan (LA Dodgers fan practically from birth). Today is the last day of regular season.

.333 Batting Average is elite in MLB. With trading averages you’re doing very decently with these averages as long as your winning profits are 60% better than your losing losses per month, year, etc.

Now getting my brain back to this ideology has been a struggle since the SHTF ( hit the fan) in my life more than a couple years ago.

Part of me was thinking that I need to bring everything to the table as I’m now trading demo with my real trading software. That would make sense, and I’m very drawn to that and will be doing this in the next stage.

Here’s the thing. That’s the easy way out and my subconscious knows this and wants the pain gone. I don’t want the pain gone. I WANT IT HEALED. Big difference. Healing it is work. Hard work. Painful work. But it will get healed. Bypassing it will allow its ugly head to reveal itself again in the future.

So I will keep using my real charts in demo mode and work through this fear and pain. This is deeper than trading. Trading just reveals the inner problems and issues. The core stuff that still needs healing.

This is what my custom will be taking on. However, my current stack is working on some of this also, which is why this has come up. I’m convinced a part of me was thinking that I’ve listened to these subs enough over the last year (November 21 will be one year) and that I’m so smart and wise that it would be taken care of already.

That does seem to be this low level feeling in my gut. It’s a form of impatience. I’ve traded and made some great money in the past, but this feeling in my gut is missing the fact that I’ve self sabotaged also. It’s is deeper and more complicated than this and that’s what needs to be healed.

But not everything has to be perfect and healed before I make money again. That’s what I have to get my entire mind and energy system to get on board with. Patience is very much needed right now. As is gentleness. But also working with that pain, one step at a time.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 28 26 (Listening Day 20)
  PEACE w Synergy: Harmonic Conflux (1 min)
  RICH Trader w Synergy: The Golden One (1 min)

A very important change of plans on my 1st custom.
I’m holding off on the wealth portion of it, however I’ll be running my RICH Trader name embedded (the one I’m currently using) with the custom for my stack.

I’m still getting some of the wealth healing with RICH Trader, but it is so obvious to me I need a true healing stack and to focus on it for a couple years.

Yes I’m still moving forward on the trading but it may be a little slower. We’ll see. It may not actually be overall, just the first couple of months for sure. But the healing is imperative at this time.

What has prompted this? A couple of things. That low level energy in my stomach is indeed core. Abandonment was triggered by my real trading charts. Odd I know, but I tried trading through my pain after my partner passed away.

This was also during the stranglehold of COVID. So this has been five years now. Funny thing as you get older. A couple of years can feel like just a few months. A few years can feel like a couple years.

So the other reason why I decided to change my first custom to a healing focused is the fact that I came up with a brilliant solution for the healing, but the advice was to turn the custom into a healing custom and then make a custom for wealth and trading.

I will do that but I think I’m better off working just the healing custom and RICH Trader for about 6 months and then make a wealth and trading custom that will replace my current name embedded RICH Trader.

So I asked about adding a couple of other modules to my custom. I seem to actually have a knack for this. Here’s what I asked about (in the qOS part of this board) and the response I received. It actually included a couple of other modules I asked about previously and included information from my original question to Support.

My question: “How would adding Post-Traumatic Growth + It Always Rises + Joie de Vivre + Inner Voice work together in a custom?”

qOS Response: " @Forexpreneur — these four fit together well, and alongside Pride Unbroken and The Worthiness Recalibration they give the custom a complete story: those two help rebuild your worth; these four help rebuild the narrative you carry it in.

What each one does Post-Traumatic Growth works on the past. It helps you claim what surviving hardship actually gave you (resilience, clarity about what matters, depth) and hold the cost and the transformation side by side without letting either one define you.

It Always Rises works on the future. It helps you build a bone-deep certainty that you always come back: you can hit the floor, lose the streak, lose all momentum, and the return is still coming. Setbacks may stop feeling permanent and you may meet risk without the old dread, in work, health and goals alike.

Inner Voice works on the present. It helps turn the running commentary in your head into something positive, powerful and lifting rather than something that puts you down, and reshape the whole mental landscape into a place where good things happen.

Joie de Vivre sets the tone. It is a results enhancer rather than a healing module: enjoying life, loving your ambitions, having fun working toward your goals. Its page contrasts it with Carpe Diem, which motivates through sheer drive; Joie de Vivre motivates by making life feel worth living.

How they interact:
The two resilience modules are not redundant: Post-Traumatic Growth mines what already happened, It Always Rises settles what hasn’t happened yet. Inner Voice is the carrier for everything else in the build; Pride Unbroken and The Worthiness Recalibration work on what you believe about your worth, and Inner Voice is where that belief gets spoken to you all day. Joie de Vivre helps keep a healing-heavy custom from turning grim, and it is the one module here that points outward at your goals.

Over time this tends to arrive in a recognisable order: the tone of your self-talk shifts first, then old events start reading differently, then setbacks stop sticking, and the enjoyment comes in behind all of that.

One structural point
With these four plus Pride Unbroken and The Worthiness Recalibration you have five healin-gleaning modules. The listening instructions say that is fine for a custom whose purpose is healing and identity, which is how you’ve described this build. If the same custom is also meant to drive the wealth side, the guidance is to keep healing modules to one to three and let a dedicated healing title carry the rest, so it may be worth deciding which of those two jobs this custom is for.

Recommendation: keep all four. It is a coherent set for the two-year run you’re planning. Post-Traumatic Growth in particular can bring material forward, and your own journal is where you’ll see it first." [End of qOS response]

That’s why the change. I want and need to heal both parts of my life. The internal healing will of course make my life much better but it will also help me to not self-sabotage later. RICH Trader will still help with certain things in the meantime, and I will still have Worthiness Recalibration in this healing build since it forms a complete healing circle with the worthiness aspect.

Ultimately this healing custom isn’t a fully life and wealth healing custom but it is a complete inner-life healing custom. I’ll have a trading and wealth custom which will end up being stronger than what I had. But life healing comes first.

I’ve come up with my healing custom. It’s not that much different than before, however some other modules have been added to supplement the healing. I do have a total of 3 Healing modules, but reality is that there are about 4 others that are adding healing weight to the build so it will actually be a heavy custom. I’m alright with that. Heck, Dragon Reborn Red kicks peoples butts as do a couple of other majors. This one is very focused to my needs.

Here’s how the healing custom looks: (might be tweaked and possibly drop a module or two but I don’t think so).

1. PEACE core
2. Essence: A Perfect Unyielding (GLM condensed)
3. Main Character Energy
4. Pride Unbroken
5. Lion IV
6. Post-Traumatic Growth
7. Courage Reclaimed
8. It Always Rises
9. Joie de Vivre
10. Stress Displacement
11. Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
12. Inner Voice
13. Essence: Timeless Gravitas (Emperor Daddy condensed)
14. Living Truth
15. Invincible Presence
16. Virtue Series: Hope
17. Virtue Series: Patience
18. ARES
19. Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
20. The Worthiness Recalibration

Yes. It’s heavy. ARES is adding some serious punch to this, however it needs to be done, and to be honest there are a couple of modules that will help to calm things down (especially PEACE and Joie de Vivre) in the very beginning. Over time there are a few modules that will start to kick in and reframe everything and make the healing easier.

But I do expect it to kick my backside quite hard in the beginning. That’s where all the things I learned in therapy comes in.Thankfully I have good rain gear because I’ll need it. Winter into spring can be quite wet here in the Pacific Northwest.

I’ll be starting this literally New Year (actually December 31 earlier in the day because it’s a Thursday). It will be stacked with RICH Trader (name embedded that I’m currently using) and then I’ll create a custom that focuses on wealth and trading.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 29 26 (Resting day 1 of 2)

My upcoming custom needed a little tweaking.
I decided to pull out:
Lion IV and replaced it with Total Nonchalance. Lion IV will go into my trading/Investing custom later.

Invincible Presence was taken out. Again, it will go into my trading/investing custom. Instead I put in Roots of Scarcity.

Roots of Scarcity and The Worthiness Recalibration were the two main modules from EOG1 that I needed and it became very obvious. I was going to put them into the trading/investing module but I needed to work on this stuff ASAP and it will take some time. It looks as though they will fit into the build just fine.

RICH Trader sort of works with those areas, along with two modules from Synergy: The Golden One which is in my name embedded RICH Trader but having modules that are specific to those two areas is needed. Plus they can spill over to general quality of life, not just wealth.

I did have The Worthiness Recalibration because it helped to create a full healing arch with 3 other modules already in the build.

Overall, those changes make this custom feel better. I’m not going to say easy. I actually don’t want easy, but I’m not a masochist either. Although my subconscious will certainly have a few words with me in Reconville.

Essence: Timeless Gravitas was replaced with Essence: Endless Summer which is the condensed version of Summer. I needed even more calming in this build. I love the major title so it will just be in the build now and will help with the healing process adding more warmth to the build so it won’t be so grim. Again Timeless Gravitas will go into the trading/investing custom later.

For now this build is looking and feeling really good. Honestly, this is one hell of a healing custom that will help overall quality of life and wealth.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 29 26(Resting day 1 of 2) part deux

What a gift today has been. First off there was a free upgrade (Remastered) version of The Witcher 3 today. For those who haven’t figured it out, the icon I use on this board, the wolf with the glowing eyes, comes from The Witcher PC game (unofficially referred to as Witcher 1).

I’m a huge Witcher fan, although I’m not a complete nerd about it. So I don’t know the entire backstory, and even though I like Henry Cavill I wasn’t a huge fan of the Netflix series. Frankly I think they ruined the story. So the upgrade is insane. I casually played Witcher 3 for hundreds of hours. I loved exploring and just loved the overall ambiance of it.

I downloaded it, played it for a couple of hours and deleted it even though I absolutely loved it. Why? Because frankly I love the game too much and don’t want to get pulled away from what I’m currently working on. Plus that was a way that my partner and I used to unwind from the world and bond with each other.

Today was also the first day of MLB Baseball playoffs. Even though the Dodgers are resting for four more days, I do like to watch some of the games.

Today was also the first day of NHL Hockey regular season. I’m a HUGE hockey fan. Vegas Golden Knights (I used to live in Las Vegas) and the LA Kings. Baseball is just the Dodgers although I’ll still watch other games and have been to a few MLB parks to watch games.

Anyway, today was another resting day because of all this. Don’t get me wrong, I still am working on a couple of things, but not too heavily today. Today was more about unwinding.

[Forexpreneur]

• 9 30 26 (Resting Day 2 of 2) love these back to back resting days

I feel considerably better today. Didn’t hurt that the Vegas Golden Knights pounced on the Chicago Blackhawks in their first regular game of the Season. Not saying that did it, but yesterday helped me to unwind.

I’m not sure if anyone has been paying attention to questions and answers on the new qOS page?

Here is the link

qOS Question and Answer Thread

There have been a few very interesting and informative questions and answers recently. This particular one settles a lot of questions once and for all. The question is

@qOS

When we are building a custom, what is the maximum number of Cores, NSE’s, ESSENCE’s and Synergy modules that can be put into a custom to make it run optimally?

and the answer
qOS Answer to above question

I have tweaked my upcoming custom just so slightly. I’m still keeping all 20. I’m going to be running this for a couple of years so that makes sense.

I pulled out Essence: Endless Summer and replaced it with Essence: The Experience of Joy and Love which is the condensed version of Genesis: The Art of Happiness & Joy which was my doorway into SubClub subliminals. Sure I already have Joie de Vivre in the build, but this is bringing even more joy and happiness into the entire build, and of course my life. It fits better, although the Summertime condensed wasn’t a bad choice either. I like this one better.

Even though it was suggested in the qOS answer to have well below 20 in your custom, I’m still going to include 20. There are some general ones such as Synergy: Subconscious Mastery and Synergy:Wisdom of the Ages will really help the healing process and also just help my general life over time.

I also found two modules to put with ARES that make that whole process not only smoother (will still cause recon) and really heal those areas. It’s a self-sustaining energetic ecosystem similar to another group in the build. So if you have ARES + Achilles’ Heel + Ardent Light these all work and feed on each other, creating that self-sustaining energetic ecosystem according to SainSoverign.

I have one other group in the build that’s similar and that’s Post Traumatic Growth + It Always Rises + Joie de Vivre + Inner Voice + Pride Unbroken + The Worthiness Recalibration creates another self-sustaining ecosystem which SaintSoverign says creates a “complete story” specifically describing it as Pride Unbroken + The Worthiness Calibration help rebuild worth (self esteem) and the other four "Help rebuild the narrative I carry it in."

Frankly Post-Traumatic Growth stirs things up for everything, Essence: The Experience of Joy and Love + Joie de Vivre help bring positive energy and light into the whole build so it doesn’t become too grim.

I’ll list everything when the build is finalized and I order it.

This to me is about the best overall deep healing build that will work for me. No more self-sabotage; languishing in pain, anger, fear, etc; overcoming victim mentality and all of this will absolutely help my life by also help me to become a consistently profitable trader again but this time no self-sabotage.

[Forexpreneur]

@MAkh If it’s alright to ask you Brother, I was wondering what you would recommend on how I listen to my upcoming stack, specifically how to handle RICH Trader?

The stack will be the healing custom + my name embedded RICH Trader w Synergy:The Golden one which I’m currently running.

I will start the healing custom at only 10 seconds and hold it there for a while so I don’t overload myself. But with RICH Trader I wanted to increase listening time much quicker especially since I’ve already been running it, not just this time but one other cycle. So for me keeping RICH Trader at only 10 seconds for months seems like a disservice since I’ve already been working it.

I guess ultimately what I’m asking is how should I experiment with increasing RICH Trader?

I expect to keep the healing custom at 10 seconds maybe 15 seconds at most for an entire cycle. There is a lot of charged area it will be stirring up and I don’t want too much at once.