Alex Being His True Self Again

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#26

Tomrrow is Khan time.

For now, WB is showing my with WIDE open eyes what’s going on.

I realize I have been living in a toxic relationship for quite a while.
Im not going into details but it’s OBVIOUS AF all of a sudden.
Has been happening for a while, but because she is acting EXACTLY like my mom in some ways (which was very toxic and negative) I didn’t realize it because I was USED to it from the past…

Too close to myself, old behavior and all that.

Now I see it with CLEAN eyes.
It’s so obvious it hurts.
Also how I lived other people’s idea of my life for years now.

The funny thing is. It’s not some kind of sad realization where I am pissed and all that.
I just have full clarity and it feels GOOD to finally know and see.
I took measures already towards my freedom, which of couse, pissed off my wife, but it feels GOOD to fight for the freedom there.

Overall, WB is freeing my soul on levels I wasn’t even aware of.

Will this marriage survive? I don’t know.
Depends on her.
I am fine, either way.

Also, the fame DEFINITELY works on social media.

Gained over 1k views on my videos on a NEW yt channel, 4 subscribers, and posted it NOWHERE.
Just algorithm.
That IS a powerful result.

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#27

Curious about this part. Only if/when you’re able/willing to elaborate. Totally fine if not of course.

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#28

This is an awesome result!

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#29

Oof man that’s rough. Yeah it’s a real trip when you look around and see the familiarity you’ve surrounded yourself with is a direct reflection from the past.

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#30

Even more. Was raided on a recent stream. This rarely happens, if ever, if you just started out. And it happened to me 3 times already were bigger streamer host me (send their viewers over to mine).

Simple. I told her imma be spending this Sunday working on my business, instead of yet again sitting with the family, being bored af.
I phrased it differently, just stating my point and what I do.

Now she’s not talking to me and gaslighting me how it’s bad for our son etc.

My mom did the same thing in the past. Whenever I wouldn’t do exactly as she wanted it to, she would not talk to me, or if she did, it was a “I guess you love that other person more than me.”

Talk about a toxic childhood lol

This was eye opening on another level.
It all makes so much sense now.
That’s why I am not mad. It’s actually liberating.

EVERYTHING that happened so far makes sense now…

Well, people say men marry the resemblance of their mother. Women their father.
I just thought you leave the bad things out :smiley:

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#31

Things are working WELL:

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#32

It’s been 26 days… wtf

I didn’t have access to a PC in between, and I couldnt be bothered to type on the phone lol

Many things happened, but mostly I am dropping WB.

The post above about all the fame imo came from my Emperor Chosen Custom that I ran right before WB. So it was a lingering effect.
I know this because I now ran this custom again and had 750 viewers on Twitch yesterday.
Which is A LOT for a new streamer.
Like, hitting the lottery kind of a lot.
99% of streamers never make it to that.

I might bring WB back because it definitely made people around me sexier, and manifested A LOT of hot women around me.
But it’s not my main goal right now. I liked the effects of it, but I wanna fully focus on becoming financially independent and self-reliant first.

Emperor Chosen also works on getting me laid by my wife, so while it isn’t exactly what I want, it does enough for now to keep me focused on other things.

I just need to make sure I balance Chosen with a stronger sub. So I might run OG Wanted, or OG Emperor solo every now and then to keep that focus.

The remarkable thing is this.
Saint said recently that the subs just make you who you are, right?

After 3 weeks of WB solo, some positivity did surface again. Spirituality to some degree, etc.
So I guess THIS might be the natural me, with all the sexual and carefree benefits of WB.

After all, it’s truly tough to know who you ACTUALLY are.

Still, I liked WB. Brought up a lot of shit from my past, my wife, etc. A necessary deep talk and huge fight, that did end in a big catharsis for both of us.
Idk if the marriage survives, for now it looks good though. We both let go of wrong beliefs about the other.

Considering I am still not sure which sub to stick with, please @RVconsultant can you just remove the Subs from the Thread title in here? Thanks

For now I run GMX and the Emperor Chosen Custom, because it’s been insane in manifesting online success.

Also, our friend @Invictus is back which is a big relief!

Outside of that, everyone is concerned about Mercury Retrograde. I was born in a retrograde, and it seems that whenever they happen, my life just ALIGNS.
Maybe those are the times for me to make moves, when it isn’t for everyone else.

Has anyone done research on this @Malkuth ?

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#33

That is freaking awesome.

I was concerned about the previous retrograde. But that’s because the one before that one (December 2022-January 2023) kicked me in the ass with a steel-tipped boot. I was not prepared for that one. I think I’m cool now. Just took a little getting used to. I think that the more one travels and develops along the path, the more intensely some of these things will manifest at times.

Anyway, back to your point.

Mercury retrograde in the natal chart…and the experience you might have during a Mercury retrograde season.

Yes, that season of Mercury in Retrograde would show up as a kind of internal and external affirmation of who you are. A sense of your natural way of being validated and supported by the conditions around you. That’s awesome.

But I wouldn’t personally interpret it to say that all plans and decisions will proceed smoothly. Although they definitely could.

I’d see it more like this:

There’s a city where 4 or 5 languages are spoken. Usually the people of each language hang out in their own districts. In those districts, they have their own languages, their own cultural and social norms and so on. But 3 or 4 times a year, due to the pattern of cleaning and neighborhood maintenance, people all find themselves travelling in the central districts. At those times, everyone is sharing the same spaces, and so lots of misunderstandings and potential accidents happen at those times. People are not so skilled at communicating across the barriers.

So the general advice at those times of year is: 1) slow down, 2) be careful in how you communicate, 3) Don’t jump to conclusions or be quick to make assumptions.

But in your case, you were born at the boundaries where all 5 districts meet. You’ve been speaking all 5 languages for your whole life. At first, this made you seem slower to people of each district. Why, they’d ask, is he taking so long to respond. They didn’t understand that you were doing a whole lot more processing than they were. At first, this was tough on your self-esteem, but being resilient; you survived the whole thing, and can now take it with a good sense of humor.

But…

At those 2 or 3 times of year, when everyone is together and when most people are feeling very confused, you are able to navigate just as well as you always do. And better than everyone else. The condition that makes them confused is exactly what you were built for, and what you’ve been practicing your whole life. So, while they might need to be extra-slow and careful, you can communicate naturally and in the way that you usually do. It’s fine for you.

That’s a metaphor I might use to express the situation, during a current retrograde, of a person with a retrograde planet in their natal chart.

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#34

That is, as always, a fantastic metaphor.

Makes a lot of sense.

Thanks.

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#35

Are you still following the Ecstasy of Gold + Wanted Black + Gaming Mastery X path, Alex? Your first post I this thread is very inspiring.

It’s always good to see people embracing their true self.

#36

Same thought occurs for me but with my dad. He is a typical tyrant narcissist, I know that from young and try my best to work and live away from my hometown.

Recently, I had to take of him while listening to WB, I could not stand his attitude and went again him sometimes. I even think about letting him dying alone without seeing him, that’s how much I hate his tyrant narcissist character. This is just my thought now, not sure I’ll do it in the future :rofl:

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#37

First, the retrograde only affects you midly if you have that same planet retrograde in your birthchart.

Second, if it retrograde in the same house & same house as it was in your birthchart. You can feel more of the retrograde effects.

Third, retrograde or not retrograde is not important, since we here all use subliminals, we can make good use of subs, take action and overcome retrograde. Those retrograde is called mundane for a reason, it’s mundane when you not focus and have time to think about it. Otherwise, its effects are not as strong as when you use sub and focus

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#38

Nope. This was literally why I asked RVC to change the title :smiley:

Read post above.

Honestly, this might just be recon. WB is VERY OFF for most men out there from what it tries to do. In my case, while it also made me feel good about myself, and had positive effects as well on my marriage, it also was a form of hidden recon that made want to divorce her ass because she’s not doing what I want.

Instead of getting my own shit together.
After WB got reconciled this occurred to me OPENLY lol

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#39

Could be recon.

I’m curious to know from @SaintSovereign is this one of the reasons you advice people in relationship not use WB. Or it’s just recon?

#40

Awesome bro, your success on Twitch and YouTube is insane. I’ve been going at it for years and it shows how impressive you are.

I’m super impressed but also filled with recon or something that makes me compare myself to you and I feel like I have something inherently flawed in my mind to not be able to do what you do.

This is a good wake up call :phone:

Looking forward to more success by you brother, inspiring.

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#41

THANK YOU!

But also the subs haha :smiley:

I think you are now where have been for the past 6 years.

Because I tried to make my online business happen for SO LONG, saw all the other guys exploding and moving along, and I just couldn’t get it off the ground.

Until I learned a big lesson:
Consistency & Purpose & Collaboration.
CPC :smiley:

Purpose is obvious NOW. Now that I am streaming and I am having SO MUCH fun doing it, I cannot even fathom creating info products. When it was the only thing I did before.

For you this might either mean streaming is not yours (I doubt it) or you need to find the right game.

Which brings me to two:
Consistency.

My success is mostly because I ONLY stream one game, at the same time (mostly), same schedule.
Told you the Youtube algorithm favors the same content. I only post long form snap gameplay.
Even if I post shorter videos, they dont do shit lol
So even the FORMAT needs to be the same haha

Third:
Collab.
I subbed to a lot of other streamers (small streamers, the big ones don’t interact with you (yet)) and interact in their chat. Talk to them on Discord, etc.
So they just give the energy back!
Also don’t be afraid to promote yourself.

Plus, a barrage of other business lessons I gathered that help me there.

But I think the biggest thing is mindset, but the subs do that.

Chosen has been insane for this.

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#42

Good energy, man.

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#43

Hell yeah, thanks bro :raised_hands:

I’ve switched game too often so lacking consistency (working on fixing that now). Collaboration is also something I’ve been neglecting (working on that now). :raised_hands::pray:

Interesting about the format length! Going to keep that in mind :+1:

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#44

So, my current streaming empire custom is doing quite well. It is actually an old masculinity custom, but funnily enough with the conscious guidance it works well.

Still, I wanna narrow it down on the streaming and I want it QTKS. So here’s the current running version of it:
Simply called FULLTIME STREAMER

  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Inner Circle Core
  4. SPS: Endocrine System
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Fusion Optimized
  7. Courage Reclaimed
  8. Natural Winner
  9. Financial Success Reality Shifter
  10. Song of Joy
  11. Moment Immortalized
  12. Mimisbrunnr
  13. Approachability Aura
  14. The Spotlight
  15. Lion IV
  16. Ethereal Presence
  17. Entranced
  18. Victory’s Call
  19. Tyrant
  20. Jupiter

SPS Endocrine as well as Inner Gasoline, FUsion Optimized etc are for energy. This worked well in the old custom to be able to keep the energy up for 6hours+ of streaming.
Then A LOT of - I call them - Radiance modules. Entranced etc to keep people glued to my stream.

I dipped out of a lot of wealth modules here, except FSRS because Emperor already covers wealth a lot and the main focus isn’t so much about fully focusing on how to get the most buck out of my viewers, but how to get more viewers and have them enjoy the stream, THUS money is a nice byproduct of it.

This is also why I didn’t go with EOG. And I have a year of that under my belt.

Then again, I might not even make this custom because “Why fix something that works” because the results on the current custom:

  • 11k views on YouTube in 30 days
  • 10k views on ONE clip on Tiktok, thousands on others
  • AVERAGING 30-70 viewers per stream which is pretty much unheard of. Not exaggerating, unless you already have a big following on other platforms, you usually stream to 3 ppl for months and years.
  • 8 subs 5 days into affiliate lol
  • Already have 2 of 3 necessary milestones to become a Twitch Partner (which is INSANELY fast)
  • My wife is all in love and hot for bonin, plus she is putting in a lot of effort into lingerie etc (Emperor Chosen I guess)

So yeah, if I go for the custom above I only do it for QTKS and narrow down. Especially Moment Immortalized, The Spotlight, and Inner Circle Core is what I wanna have.

I also dipped out of Apollon because I might just run Wanted or LotS on the side to look good.

The old custom for reference
  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Emperor Fitness Height Inducer
  4. Apollon
  5. SPS: Endocrine System
  6. Inner Gasoline
  7. Call of Honor
  8. Courage Reclaimed
  9. Natural Winner
  10. Leader of Men
  11. The Boundary
  12. Lion IV
  13. Ethereal Presence
  14. Entranced
  15. Fusion Optimized
  16. Approachability Aura
  17. Chosen of Venus
  18. Emotions Unfettered
  19. Untouchable
  20. Tyrant
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Main Disc. Thread - CHOSEN [Now Available!]
#45

Alright so Chosen is a secret weapon when it comes to streaming.

I have my stream raided almost every single stream, as well as on YOutube I moved from 50 views a month ago to 500avg on each video, peaking at 2k per video.
Insane growth for just one month with no following beforehand.

Im definitely gonna go for the new custom though, I want to have it more streamlined on the actual business and cut out the fluff.

This is the final list:

  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Inner Circle Core
  4. SPS: Endocrine System
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Mimisbrunnr
  7. Courage Reclaimed
  8. Natural Winner
  9. Financial Success Reality Shifter
  10. Song of Joy
  11. Moment Immortalized
  12. Gloryseeker
  13. Approachability Aura
  14. The Spotlight
  15. Lion IV
  16. Ethereal Presence
  17. Entranced
  18. Victory’s Call
  19. Tyrant
  20. Jupiter
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