Alex Being His True Self Again

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#41

THANK YOU!

But also the subs haha :smiley:

I think you are now where have been for the past 6 years.

Because I tried to make my online business happen for SO LONG, saw all the other guys exploding and moving along, and I just couldn’t get it off the ground.

Until I learned a big lesson:
Consistency & Purpose & Collaboration.
CPC :smiley:

Purpose is obvious NOW. Now that I am streaming and I am having SO MUCH fun doing it, I cannot even fathom creating info products. When it was the only thing I did before.

For you this might either mean streaming is not yours (I doubt it) or you need to find the right game.

Which brings me to two:
Consistency.

My success is mostly because I ONLY stream one game, at the same time (mostly), same schedule.
Told you the Youtube algorithm favors the same content. I only post long form snap gameplay.
Even if I post shorter videos, they dont do shit lol
So even the FORMAT needs to be the same haha

Third:
Collab.
I subbed to a lot of other streamers (small streamers, the big ones don’t interact with you (yet)) and interact in their chat. Talk to them on Discord, etc.
So they just give the energy back!
Also don’t be afraid to promote yourself.

Plus, a barrage of other business lessons I gathered that help me there.

But I think the biggest thing is mindset, but the subs do that.

Chosen has been insane for this.

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#42

Good energy, man.

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#43

Hell yeah, thanks bro :raised_hands:

I’ve switched game too often so lacking consistency (working on fixing that now). Collaboration is also something I’ve been neglecting (working on that now). :raised_hands::pray:

Interesting about the format length! Going to keep that in mind :+1:

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#44

So, my current streaming empire custom is doing quite well. It is actually an old masculinity custom, but funnily enough with the conscious guidance it works well.

Still, I wanna narrow it down on the streaming and I want it QTKS. So here’s the current running version of it:
Simply called FULLTIME STREAMER

  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Inner Circle Core
  4. SPS: Endocrine System
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Fusion Optimized
  7. Courage Reclaimed
  8. Natural Winner
  9. Financial Success Reality Shifter
  10. Song of Joy
  11. Moment Immortalized
  12. Mimisbrunnr
  13. Approachability Aura
  14. The Spotlight
  15. Lion IV
  16. Ethereal Presence
  17. Entranced
  18. Victory’s Call
  19. Tyrant
  20. Jupiter

SPS Endocrine as well as Inner Gasoline, FUsion Optimized etc are for energy. This worked well in the old custom to be able to keep the energy up for 6hours+ of streaming.
Then A LOT of - I call them - Radiance modules. Entranced etc to keep people glued to my stream.

I dipped out of a lot of wealth modules here, except FSRS because Emperor already covers wealth a lot and the main focus isn’t so much about fully focusing on how to get the most buck out of my viewers, but how to get more viewers and have them enjoy the stream, THUS money is a nice byproduct of it.

This is also why I didn’t go with EOG. And I have a year of that under my belt.

Then again, I might not even make this custom because “Why fix something that works” because the results on the current custom:

  • 11k views on YouTube in 30 days
  • 10k views on ONE clip on Tiktok, thousands on others
  • AVERAGING 30-70 viewers per stream which is pretty much unheard of. Not exaggerating, unless you already have a big following on other platforms, you usually stream to 3 ppl for months and years.
  • 8 subs 5 days into affiliate lol
  • Already have 2 of 3 necessary milestones to become a Twitch Partner (which is INSANELY fast)
  • My wife is all in love and hot for bonin, plus she is putting in a lot of effort into lingerie etc (Emperor Chosen I guess)

So yeah, if I go for the custom above I only do it for QTKS and narrow down. Especially Moment Immortalized, The Spotlight, and Inner Circle Core is what I wanna have.

I also dipped out of Apollon because I might just run Wanted or LotS on the side to look good.

The old custom for reference
  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Emperor Fitness Height Inducer
  4. Apollon
  5. SPS: Endocrine System
  6. Inner Gasoline
  7. Call of Honor
  8. Courage Reclaimed
  9. Natural Winner
  10. Leader of Men
  11. The Boundary
  12. Lion IV
  13. Ethereal Presence
  14. Entranced
  15. Fusion Optimized
  16. Approachability Aura
  17. Chosen of Venus
  18. Emotions Unfettered
  19. Untouchable
  20. Tyrant
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Main Disc. Thread - CHOSEN [Now Available!]
#45

Alright so Chosen is a secret weapon when it comes to streaming.

I have my stream raided almost every single stream, as well as on YOutube I moved from 50 views a month ago to 500avg on each video, peaking at 2k per video.
Insane growth for just one month with no following beforehand.

Im definitely gonna go for the new custom though, I want to have it more streamlined on the actual business and cut out the fluff.

This is the final list:

  1. Emperor Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Inner Circle Core
  4. SPS: Endocrine System
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Mimisbrunnr
  7. Courage Reclaimed
  8. Natural Winner
  9. Financial Success Reality Shifter
  10. Song of Joy
  11. Moment Immortalized
  12. Gloryseeker
  13. Approachability Aura
  14. The Spotlight
  15. Lion IV
  16. Ethereal Presence
  17. Entranced
  18. Victory’s Call
  19. Tyrant
  20. Jupiter
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#46

Been a while :smiley:

SEX AS A WEAPON LOL

But I was on vacation on Crete, Greece.
Was lovely. It also served as a washout for the current stack and boy did it open my eyes on many things.

Specifically around my relationship. The Wanted Black phase was a phase of resentment and negativity (not the subs fault). While it did show me more of who I truly am, it just doesn’t fit in my current situation.
I was scared to run Chosen again, hence why I did the Emperor Chosen, but I realized, back when Chosen made me too nice, I just wasn’t ready for it.

Generally it opened my eyes on many things regarding maturity and masculinity. I have been a child playing with fire.
The main thing Emperor opened up to me (or Chosen of Love) is that I was using sex with my wife to feel better about my shitty life situation (first world problem tbh)

I noticed this, because on that one week vacation, where I just forgot about the bills, the shitty 9-5, the commute, the shitty friends, and was just vibing with my wife and son alone, enjoying life, we were all in a really good mood.
Expected on vacation, but the kicker is this:
As soon as I was home, resentment and the desire for porn came back.
THIS IS where I realized it. The porn thing is just for the dopamine rush to feel better about my life.
The same I was applying with my girl.
I didn’t care about her, her needs, love, or anything. I just wanted my “fix.”

She was a tool I used.

Hence, since I journalled deeply about this realization and changed my mindset, our sex and love improved A TON.
Yesterday we had one of the most magnificent sexual encounters in a while. Because I was actually horny for her as a person, and not just to feel better.
She mirrors my vibe 100% ALL THE TIME. Its amazing how receptive she is to my energy. So when I was loving, horny, and going with the flow, so was she.
WHen I was resentful, annoying, and disappointed, tense, so was she.

Clear as day, now.

I ran WB with the idea of “either she fucks, or fucks off” but as always, the problem was within myself, and not others.

This has been the theme as well, my manifestations are SUPERfast (Ascension Chamber in the QTKS is a superweapon), so when I visualize something I want in a positive energy, it happens almost instantly. Even, sex stuff and generally including other people.

CHOSEN OP

  • On vacation we got a free upgrade to a better room
  • I get a lot of random gifts (subs for example) or other help
  • People around me are helpful and giving
  • My wife is giving me gifts of all sorts

Any many small things I forget.

SUBS GET BETTER THE MORE YOU GROW

So I ran Stark in the past and was just playing games without doing shit. Just fucking around.
On Wanted I was focused on pleasure only.
RoM just made me a conspiracy theorist and hate everything.
First Chosen runs made me a nice guy.

Now it’s all different.
After a year of healing, and many runs of Emperor, Ascension, etc, (and especially QTKS) I developed the maturity to see all these subs in a new light.

I might’ve also been the collective running HERO right now, because I always get results when a new sub is released, but generally I noticed a lot more virtue, maturity, and letting go in my daily being.
This newfound level of mindset and understanding sheds a new light on Chosen, RoM, Wanted, etc.
This is why I decided to switch my new QTKS custom that is coming from above to replace Emperor with Stark:

  1. Stark Core
  2. Chosen Core
  3. Inner Circle Core
  4. SPS: Endocrine System
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Mimisbrunnr
  7. Courage Reclaimed
  8. Natural Winner
  9. Financial Success Reality Shifter
  10. Song of Joy
  11. Moment Immortalized
  12. Gloryseeker
  13. Approachability Aura
  14. The Spotlight
  15. Lion IV
  16. Ethereal Presence
  17. Entranced
  18. Victory’s Call
  19. Tyrant
  20. Jupiter

The fame component of Stark, together with Masculinity and self belief scripting in it is a much better direction for me right now than the Monk Mode Emperor.
I know I finally have the right mind to run this sub properly.

So if you’re not getting from a sub what you need, you might not yet be ready for it.
This was a big lesson I learned.

So the new stack will be:

  • WealthyGamer QTKS Custom (Eog4, AsC and wealth modules)
  • Fulltime Streamer QTKS Custom (see above)
  • HERO Origins (with the conscious guidance towards gaming mastery)

I was thinking of adding the Nectar sub into it (or Divine Diamond) because my sexual skills still arent where I want them to be (especially length of act, because I consider any ejaculation before I truly want it to be “premature”) but I am debating myself on this since its not a main concern right now.
Money and escaping the shitty life situation (9-5) is the main goal and I should focus the stack on that.

THE SPOTLIGHT BRU

I ran my WealthyGamer QTKS Custom ONCE after coming back from the washout (I always do 15min loops) and it has the Spotlight Module in it. You know, social media fame.
I said before that QTKS works more subtle, where regular ZP shows you DIRECTLY what to do.

Guess what, I saw someone do a giveaway for Marvel Snap on Twitter, so I thought, “oh yeah, new season is starting, let’s try this myself”
It’s a $17 investment.
THis is what happened:
grafik

When I started I was at 89 followers.

Now I am at 351 and climbing.

10,000 (!) impressions on this tweet.

Now, of course, a giveaway is kind of “cheating” because you indirectly pay for engagement. Still, I see it as a huge success for the Spotlight module and it will help me a lot going forward on Twitter.

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#47

omg, 26 days.

I keep forgetting to journal on here.

I have a specific question for @Malkuth tho, our home astrologer.

I found out that Neptune currently transits my natal second house.
This started about 2 years ago. If I look back, it is EXACTLY at that time when material possesions and money generally started to flee out of my life.
Expenses rose, I had to sell my car, PC, old stuff, whatnot to make means end.

At this point, we’re usually only JUST even on a monthly basis with the house and my son to survive.
Well, lets say, in a middle class environment.

Now, from what I understood, Neptune in the 2nd house does exactly that, dissolve material possessions, so you understand you are one with the world and you stop clinging to material things. A spiritual journey to elevate yourself.

However, the question is this, this is a LONG transit, and honestly, its been painful so far, not being able to provide properly for my family, not buying the things they love, etc.
I personally dont need any of these things, I mostly buy them for my loved ones. The lesson is a bit confusing to me.

So @Malkuth what would you say is the lesson of this transit?
And, most importantly, do you think I can alleviate planetary transit effects with the subs? This might even be a question for @SaintSovereign

Or shall I just surrender to life and see what it brings.

On other websites I also saw, that youll always have enough to buy what you need while this transit lasts, so one should focus on the detachment of money.

It’s a tough situation. I dont wanna live from paycheck to paycheck until 2033, when this transit ends.
Or does it mean, once I learned the lesson, things will get better?

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#48

hmmm…

Neptune is the planet of Dreaming, Fantasy, The Subconscious, Intuition, The Beyond.

Wherever it goes and whatever it touches will be imbued with this atmosphere.

This does not mean that you have to lose money. But it does mean that simple, goal-oriented pragmatism will be less effective. Because simple, goal-oriented pragmatism is not the style of Neptune.

Dreaming is. Imagination is. Using intuition to connect to your own subconscious and the collective subconscious is.

Where is Neptune in your natal chart? Which house and sign?

That will tell you something about your agency, power, and natural orientations when it comes to Neptune. And you will probably be able to use that.

The astrology placements are not good or bad. They are like waves of wind and water moving in particular directions. A skilled surfer or sailor can harness any wind to move him where he wants to go. Just that some are more challenging than others.

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#49

Neptune is on Capricorn in the 12th house on my natal chart.

#50

Interesting viewpoint. Thank you! I’ll have to meditate on that :sweat_smile:

Any input on the natal placement? The 12th house is always confusing to me :sweat_smile:

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#51

You’re not alone. The 12th House is particularly mysterious.

One reason for this actually applies to all of astrology (not just the 12th House). Astrology is a really old disicipline for making sense of human lives and other natural, cyclical phenomena. Because it’s so old, that means that it has survived through various social and cultural eras. To get to the point, people who were applying the principles of astrology 1000 years ago or 2000 years ago, usually had very different values, concerns, and concepts than we might have today.

Think about this: even the notion that every human life has value and every human being is important, was not a widely-held or instituionally-formalized view until fairly recently. This idea, known as Humanism, only started emerging (at least in Western societies) around 500 years ago.

Crazy. But other than being a history lesson, what’s the point?

Well, the lists of traditional interpretations that you see with your astrology tables and charts, were often made to help you survive in societies that no longer exist. This means while we need to understand the underlying accurate patterns described in traditional astrology, we also need to adapt them and update them to fit modern contexts.

Something that may have been seen as a ‘Disaster’ by a 12th century English person, might not at all be a problem today. Being underwater for 3 hours, for example. Certain death in the 12th century. But now in the 21st, that might be an exciting scuba excursion on a dream vacation.

That’s one more reason that we should never feel trapped by any astrological interpretations or predictions.

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#52

Anyway, back to the 12th House.

It represents Endings and New Beginnings, “Losses” and “Failures”, but also Transcendences, Transformations, and Rebirths. Moving past oneself to embrace what is beyond oneself. It is the energy of empathy, merging, crossing boundaries, genuine unselfish interest. It is the space of retreat and contemplation. Death and Dying. Isolation. Metamorphosis.

Imagine 5th grade in a school. There are two ways to “lose” 5th grade. You can fail every class so badly that you are placed into the 4th grade. Or you may learn all of the lessons of 5th grade, so that you are promoted to the 6th grade. In both cases, you have “lost” 5th grade. (Because you are no longer able to stay there.) Both would be represented by the 12th House.

To use the 12th House well, seek out positive transcendences. Many of your posts indicate that you are doing this: moving beyond a narrowly self-focused perspective. Genuinely observing and supporting the journeys of people beyond yourself. (‘Losing yourself’) It’s also by embracing your own growth as a human being (‘losing the me of yesterday in order to become the me of today’).

Capricorn, in turn, represents the integration of 1) what is truest, deepest, and realest in me, with 2) what is recognized, respected, and valued in the world. This integration is represented symbolically in the image of Capricorn by combining the tail of a fish (the deepest, realest, most genuine–fish swim to the depths of oceans) and the head and forelegs of a goat (the highest, the most public, the most exalted–goats climb to the top of mountains.) This integration is achieved, experientially, through inspired hard work.

This combination of yours, Neptune in Capricorn in the 12th House, indicates that:

Your dreams, your imagination, your subconscious currents and power (i.e., Neptune) are best expressed in the form of personally-authentic publicly-recognized vigorous work (i.e., Capricorn) that transcends narrow, self-focused views and that supports and promotes transformation and rebirth (i.e., 12th House).

The more that your actions and efforts align with that principle is the more that Neptune will be working for you and not against you.

Based on what I’ve read from you in the past, I think you’ve got pretty good alignment with that path. Combined with the tools that you’re using, I expect it to just get better over time.

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#53

Interesting because this is EXACTLY what I started doing ever since running QTKS.

The focus of my stream is not on me or me making money, its on giving entertainment and gameplay to my viewers. Same with youtube.
I even started a YT series where I interview OTHER creators about THEIR thoughts.

Never mine.

Does QTKS align oneself lovely with the astrological path?
I mean it’s a personal path for each, so I guess, in my case it does.

So with that transit in effect, I should focus less on just setting goals to make X amount of money, but maybe more on the lines of “how can I help people the most?” and this will help me achieve more?
How does dreaming come into this? Visualization of a dream life?

Regardless, THANK YOU, Friend.

It’s a wholly different picture I got from many of these websites. When I was reading the transit explanation, many just said “face bankruptcy” and shit.
Reading astrological explanations online is often like googling your symptoms. It’s always cancer :smiley:

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#54

Another thing I’m pondering in case of that.

Should O get a new job as long as the streaming empire isn’t fully firing?

It’s a traditional method and I only do it for the money but it would make life a lot easier and would make the second child possible my wife wants.

But it doesn’t really align with Neptune there?

Then again it’s just a means to an end to make following the path easier. Not the main goal.

Just thinking out loud here.

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#55

Using subliminals is already a very Neptune-friendly strategy.

There is nothing wrong with this idea. But the question is probably more, ‘Which new job?’

See what opportunities you’re led to, and which opportunites or openings are manifesting for you.

Trust your intuitive responses to the different opportunities that you find.

Make a solid plan. That’s always a good idea. But before you finalize it, allow yourself to daydream (or night dream) about it.

If you like to run, then go for a run and see what creative thoughts and ideas or strategies float up in your awareness. Let your subconscious assist with creating the plans. It already wants to.

‘Dreaming’ is just a shorthand. Neptune involves any and all expressions of and communications with the Subconscious. Whatever your preferred way of doing that is, it will be fine.

I remember that years ago, you were inspired by the value of the module The Merger of Worlds. You included it in a custom and had great results. That was already a strong Neptune strategy.

Neptune already wants to help with this process of aligning with Value. Like including an Artist or a Mystic on your Board of Directors. Let it inspire you and share ideas at the board meeting, but then clean up the ideas afterwards to make sure they’re practical and actionable. Neptune is better at inspiration than at organization.

That’s not a problem. You have 12 other planets in your chart that can help with the other stuff.

One other thing, Ascension Chamber and your QTKS custom that has Ascension Chamber in it, is also very appropriate to Neptune.

Maybe you can experiment with manifesting working opportunities or partnerships that fit well with your current desires and situation.

Just remember to introduce a bit of Trusting In The Process. Doesn’t mean you have to stop working on anything, or become passive or anything. It’s just an internal orientation. Of Trusting.

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#56

So much quality info in that post thank you!

Currently I run QTKS with NRICH, Stark, Chosen which already aligns well with that I believe. But throwing my EoG 4 Ascension Chamber in QTKS seems like a lovely idea.

I’ll have to think, meditate and execute on the rest of your post.

I’ll come back :sunglasses::sunglasses:

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#57

One more “Neptunian” point.

Make sure to schedule periods of retreat and reflection. Doesn’t have to be anything extreme or dramatic. Hiking. Running. Meditating. Playing video-games (the relaxing kind). Swimming. Taking showers. Or all of them. Or something else. Whatever works for you. But give yourself those times to let your subconscious be a little free to communicate with you.

Neptune in the 2nd House does not just mean that your dreaming will disrupt your business life; it also means that your dreaming will help to send important lessons, ideas, and connections about Value and your material life. So be sure to give it opportunities and leave openings for it to do so. You may find that the inspirations come pretty powerfully and easily.

And remember that if you’re in a stage in which the inspiration and intuition are strong, but the meticulous follow-through is less, you can partner with someone who is currently in more of an on-the-ground procedure-focused kind of place. You don’t have to do everything by yourself.

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#58

Alright, so I am getting a lot of “hints” from the subconscious.

My current day job literally pissing me off so much and I just cant even get myself to even do the slightest of work for them.
I lied to myself saying that “I have it easy there” and could even stream while “working” because nobody cared, but its an energy question.
It ruins my mood and energy, and even if it postpones my dream of the stream (because in a new job I can stream WAY less probably) it is a better decision, just for energy, surrounding, and self-esteem.

So I am applying to jobs now, listening to the Neptune guidance, specifically that one opportunity that came out of nowhere (new neighbors moved in and he talked about a fitting job RIGHT in the next town (currently I am commuting an hour)) so this seems like a hint.

Now, do I add much value to that company? I dont know. I dont really care much about the job I am doing currently (programming) but maybe a new environment can enliven this again and thus improve all other areas.

I am also getting a lot of hints relationship wise, seeing many women that are exactly my type and I am comparing them with my wife which does none of it.
Granted, my wife CAN do some of these things, but I feel like it just doesnt come naturally to her (anymore).
Maybe she changed. I definitely came back to my true self.
My TRUEST FORM :smiley:

Either way, this might be more OG Wanted (which I ran for the streaming, not for sex) having these implications, rather than Neptune per se.
I do feel like running Heartsong tho, to see what this RS is truly about and what I want, now that I matured so much with the subs…

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#59

I realized today that I am Loki.

To an extent.

I am currently watching the TV show with Loki and there is some deep introspection happening with the character.
Specifically, he mentions once that he is lonely, even though lots of people are constantly around him.

And I honestly feel the same.

I have a wife, a family, friends. But none of them truly know who I am.
ANd I cant even relate to most of them.

Like, I noticed this the other day when we were out with the ever same couple for dinner, and my wife and them were all joking over some TikTok content creator who reacts to dumb videos.
I never watch any of that content.
I felt a bit isolated. It didn’t feel bad, but I noticed what’s happening.
I also realized, this is of course of my own doing, because I ABSOLUTELY HATE to confirm to the standards of society.
Which this creator definitely fits in.
Or watching TikTok for hours.

I am just NOT that guy.

Same thing with my entire family sitting together each Sunday, JUST SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING, eating shitty cake and that’s it.
To me, this is an absolute waste of my time and boring af, but I do it because its important to my wife.

This is includes MANY other things were I cant relate to friends, wife, etc.

So while lots of people are around me, I am lonely.
I am not depressed, funnily enough. I do quite fine in that situation, but I noticed it very strongly.
Also, there is, of course, an urge to find people I can relate to.

Basically, gamers, streamers, nerding over Marvel and Star Wars content, whatever it is. This kinda stuff.

Over 10 years ago, I listened to my friend when he said “bro, you gotta stop just having girls and making it work with one” or smth along those lines.
I decided to listen to it.
Basically, I confirmed to the regular path for humans currently.
Because if I didn’t, I would’ve probably not married my wife or have kids with her.

Now, I don’t mourn the past, or even regret it. Its a decision I made, I have to live with it. And a truly funny and great son came out of it.
But this explains so many points where my wife and I clash.
Because we have different outlooks on what is a good life.

For 10 years I have just caved because I thought its the right way to go.
Completely neglecting what I truly want and need.

So, action from this recon is this:
Truly following my path. Regardless of the outcome.
I might lose this marriage, I don’t mind it.
I do love her, I know that. But I love myself more. And I have to.

It might even work out for all I know.
But I am not trying to change her into a specific person anymore. Either she is, or not. Either it works out, or it doesn’t.
Generally, I am deeply accepting my self and what I want, so life will morph around that.

Very liberating to write those lines.

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#60

Been a while again, eh :smiley:

I noticed how different the NSE makes the subs.

I kept running my custom, but threw the Nectar sub in for some fun. The fun didn’t happen (yet), but the fame and wealth component from my custom was lensed through the Nectar NSE. Meaning, I was all of a sudden focused again on what I did in the past:
Masculinity and relationship dynamics, fighting for the nuclear family etc.

Which is not what I want to do right now, hence I am dropping Nectar and will add AIMBOT back in so my focus will stick to the gaming.
Ill probably also add Khan Black, going slowly through the stages because literally anyone has come forth how good the sub is and amplifies all other things.

Ive also grown massively from my old Wanted runs. While I always loved Wanted, and THOUGHT its my true self, now I am getting the vibe of it being absolutely not where or who I want to be.
It had very cool effects, specifically around sex and bringing beauty into my life (WB man in summer. Literally all the girls were super hot and sexy)

But, ultimately, I noticed how this doesnt really add anything.

Which is why I am so focused on Khan Black, to finally work through this sex drive of mine. Which has always been insane, but Id like to use this energy in better ways. The Nectar sub even helped with this a little bit. I dropped all the porn and am really focused on dopaminergic revival in general now.

I wanna make use of this energy in better ways.

So likely the stack gon be:
QTKS: Stark NRICH Chosen
AIMBOT
KB1

It’s a lot, I am aware, but it feels right.

Ultimately, no matter how long I run a sub, I always end up at the same place: meditation, higher consciousness.
So maybe Khan is the right direction here.

As always, all these thoughts were manifested throught YT videos, where I watch things and suddenly someone explains dopamine on a level that was new to me, so I change my life. YT seems to be my mediator :smiley:

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