Alchemical Odysseys: A Journal of Inner Transmutation

Journals - Major Programs
#200

The entire goal of my life is the expansion of consciousness. To become more conscious and to hold more consciousness. This all that human beings seek for.

Revelation of Spirit is one program that I feel very drawn towards. But even all the current programs don’t feel like they are hitting me the way I like. What am I truly searching for is the question? I don’t feel like these programs are providing me with anything worthwhile right now. I don’t see the results much.

The only time I start to see profound results is when I tap into the program descriptions. Otherwise, when just running the subliminal programs it almost feels like I am just ignoring the scripts. It is not just a waste of time then but it also puts an unnecessary strain on my system.

#201

Few results since a few days or a week or so, not sure as to the timeline of all of this haven’t kept track properly as I did not want to overwhelm my mind with even more thinking.

Feels like I was going through some deep processing. Since earlier today my feeling has completely shifted. Can’t describe exactly how I feel but it feels quite unusual while at the same comes with a very subtle nostalgic feeling. Some deep growth is sprouting. I feel very different then I do usually. A completely different world almost.

Had some painful recon today as well, my recon always seems to come about the same exact thing the believe that the subliminals are not doing anything and keeping me stuck which is obviously a false belief that needs to be overcome.

I want to transcend all my limitations. I want to transcend all the chains that hold me back from my full potential. I want complete inner freedom. I want to transcend the little mental box I am living in and expand into a boundless existence with limitless possibilities an existence where literally anything is possible.

Most of the time for the past few days I did not feel like doing anything. Even though I went and bathed in rivers, explored nature, rode around on a chopper bike which a friend has lend me and had a somewhat adventurous time; inside of myself I was going through a very difficult time. Outside everything was perfect but I was not fully enjoying it. Some deep inner process was ongoing trying to take me somewhere. It only now feels like I noticing an opening. This opening creates a direct link with my “self” the part of me I felt completely disconnected from since the past few weeks if not longer. It is all that I have been seeking for. Connection with myself and life within and around me. Connection with the cosmos. Connection to the earth. Connection to my Soul. Connection to everything and anything. Union with everything and anything.

I want to expand into a greater existence and not feel constricted by any limitations. I want to expand my psyche and consciousness. Last few years have been a bit of a walking through a maze. Very clouded. The moments where I have some very interesting experiences is what has made the journey more fun and takes away the difficulties. It is almost as if you are trying to hold onto an invisible cord that you have not idea if it will take you to life or death. The spiritual path is like that. You have to grab onto a rope you don’t even know where it will take you. You can’t know for sure. It requires absolute trust beyond any proportion.

This is the journey that leads to all forms of satisfaction and happiness, joy, peace, love and bliss, but the road is not easy and needs a lot of acceptance and surrender. Life takes you for an incredible ride. Just be with it. You can’t control the current. The more you surrender the easier it becomes!

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#202

Feeling generally unimpressed by the programs, the effects are very mild and barely noticeable while the exposure on the mind is too overwhelming. Results come very inconsistently with the results being short lived.

Most, if not all of the time I feel a strange sense of unhappiness or background depression even during moments of joy. Something feels blocked inside of me. I feel disconnected from myself because of the programs. I feel like there is a whole bunch of unprocessed information loaded into my mind and that it is fully blocked and not getting released. I feel disconnected from life and my life energies.

If I allow all of this to frustrate me I don’t see the point of using these programs. I feel everything is left to choice with these programs. If I want I will have zero results, I really focus on it consciously a lot of results can come but that I can do even without the programs if I required my constant participation then what is the point, I want things to be done for me in the background and for real shifts in my perception and subconscious to start happening but since beginning this journal I feel like I am in the same place with just small moderate changes here and there that I don’t know if they are even helpful considering the side effects that come with it.

Every loop of the programs reminds me of how unimpressed I am with the results while feeling just loaded at some level that causes a certain drag. Instead of feeling blown away and overwhelmed by positive results which I expect from programs that are in the works for so many years. The very opposite is true. Almost a constant sense of thinking and trying to figure things out while nothing real is happening. This is my reconciliation almost most of the time!

I feel I am wasting my time and if anything just setting myself back. And the frustration is that I know these programs have so much potential but I don’t see them affecting me in that way right now. Every new update I hope it get resolved but nothing really changes. I feel at the core something does not click for me that no upgrade or update can resolve for me.

The power is not there behind the programs. Its just very subtle and most of the time I seem to be ignoring the whole thing and get very few and subtle results while the charges on my inner life are very great. There is an almost constant mental disturbance and imbalance that comes from never ending mental processes that I don’t feel like fulfill me in anyway. If it was not for the programs they would probably not even ever be there or get any attention.

After so many months of these programs why should I still have to feel and type anything like this? I should be a few levels up by now but instead it feels like the reconciliation process is a constant while results do not move forward to a higher degree at all. Just the same old same old!

When I run a program I can feel the program and clearly see the amount of information that my mind is put through, only a very little fraction of that information is being used, applied and acted on. Most of it is simply being ignored and mental processes are started to reconcile all of it. I literally feel like if I take a washout and read the program descriptions without running the programs I get more results than actually running the programs.

Whenever I actually run the programs I get brain and mental tensions and start resisting the information and get very few results. My entire beings gets blocked. I know there is some frustration but I don’t even feel it. I don’t feel anything most of the time. I don’t know what it is. It does not feel like numbness but it is a certain sense of dissonance or dissociation from my subconscious mind and my actual feelings. My feelings don’t get felt and embodied.

Also not sure what to do with all of this to be honest.

Then also the descriptions of the programs sound very promising but then in reality the results are simply not there. I don’t notice none of it. Just bits and pieces of very moderate, inconsistent and subtle results of parts of the program but never the whole and never the same thing every day. I literally feeling not even my time is getting wasted but that I am building blockages inside my system and unnecessarily overwhelming my mental process. I feel tensions in my brain every day constantly from the programs even at 30s loops. And I don’t feel like it is progressing at all. I feel like I am literally wasting my time and ignoring my true feelings just because I feel at some point I will achieve whatever is written on the sales page lol!

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#203

The overload these subliminals bring is the biggest weakness,i dont mind listening everyday or 30 minutes or 1 hour like the previous technologies as long as i can get results and avoid overload,some of these programs can cause overload at just 1 minute,even the creators only listen to 30s lol at that pont why not make it less overwhelming on the mind and get consistent results

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#204

I totally agree with you its not conducive at all…

It is creating constant blocks in my mind as well.

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#205

If you getting overload at one minute, why are you listening to one minute? Why not 30s? If we went back to 1 hour loops, you would simply listen to 2 hours and then still complain. The total length of the file is irrelevant, if you are actually using microloops as suggested.

Zero Point has been 15 minutes for a few years now, and we never had issues with overload. Now, all of a sudden, people want to keep overexposing and complaining about it, while simultaneously asking for stronger titles.

Well, everyone – with this issue, you see why we have nerfed Zero Point before and may have to do so again.

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#206

Wanted and GLM are two of yours and Fires best titles yet

The changes are rapid and I’m surprised how much I got out of just using GLM for two cycles

I hope you reconsider this. There are literally hundreds if not thousands of comments praising the direction you’re both going with this company

And this I feel, would be quite a step backward

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#207

Or you can just ban people that do this - the majority of people here seem to be doing the right thing and shouldn’t be punished for the actions of the minority that aren’t.

Edit: Perhaps you should reconsider implementing a 2-tier system of access, with more potent subs available to those that demonstrate responsible use over a period of time. You and Fire have mentioned it a few times but the idea has always been abandoned.

#208

It’s not abandoned. We’re just trying to figure out the best way to implement it in a way that doesn’t add business load.

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#209

Don’t be so insensible. Instead why not try to contribute some useful incentives or try to engage with some people to help them in the right direction? Where is your contribution? Why do you think you are the most perfect fit to this community and the golden member? Everyone is just doing there best here.

There is no such thing as a majority and minority, if you wanna have a community everyone should belong. If someone is struggling with something you should consider them.

Actually I am not to happy with this situation but banning people over this is totally inconsiderate. All I did was voice a recurring struggle that has been repeating in my life, which is not doing me good and I am trying to resolve. I am on the path of growth like everyone, to the best of my ability. Have some humanity because most people coming here and spending regular time to participate in this online community are doing so because they are looking for some change, some help or some improvement.

So if you have acquired so much wisdom and are living the most perfect life then all the more reason for you to contribute a helping hand instead of trying to get someone banned without thinking twice. It comes across as if you don’t care much about others as long as you get what you want.

I don’t need anything for myself actually, as long as people around me are feeling comfortable and happy, especially in a community like this, that is what I live by. For that entire reason I won’t say much more about what is bothering me right now and what issues I am facing, which is what I was trying to expressing and journal about so I can understand and resolve it.

Don’t lose your humanity over a small thing like getting an extra upgrade or new power level. You are dealing with real people here some of which have had a hard life filled with struggle and pain now you want to get them banned because someone went from 30s to 1m according to instructions and found themselves incapable of dealing with the reconciliation… while you get what you want, they will only remember that they got left out or rejected (maybe again) when looking for some help in their life.

Don’t forget that some people are trying to deal with real pain and trauma here. I just want to make you aware to have some humanity when dealing with others because you don’t know where anyone is coming from.

Just try to be a bit more sensitive hum? @bujin

#210

@Adi my comment to Saint wasn’t about you personally, but if he’s that bothered by people’s inability to follow instructions then I believe he should remove them from the forum, rather than dumb down the subs to cater to the lowest common denominator. I stand by that.

And I’ll save my sympathy and my “helping hand” for the truly needy - people unable to run subliminals are hardly that.

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#211

I am trying my very best to make the listening instructions work for me and to live by them.

I don’t usually tell people how to act and behave within a community unless it is my responsibility, I’ll leave that up to moderators but since I thought you were targeting me personally I felt it appropriate to give you my response.

I sparsely listen. I am dealing with a different kind of issue that is making exposure a bit hectic for me hence my elaborate concerns about this that I have been expressing over the year. I am trying to do less exposure now, less frequent to manage things better.

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#212

I believe you.

And I regret that my comment to Saint came across that way, it was written out of frustration because we seem to get to this point every few months.

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#213

Yes I fully understand that I am also trying to meet everyone with the same understanding and compassion that I would wish for in my own life. I am just currently also dealing with a lot.

I hope everyone will get what they are looking for. I believe that if a certain few in a community can behave with a certain sense of wisdom, care and understanding that everyone else will just follow along and that creative solutions to certain problems can be easily found that will make everyone happy.

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#214

My life has changed so much from New Godlike Masculinity, I notice a certain calmness that is constantly available. Life circumstances just break upon this calmness like the wild ocean upon the side of a rock. It has been become natural and easy to face circumstances with this grounded calm and be at ease. I am noticing a willingness to face my fears, go beyond my comfort zone, and have trust and feel confident in doing so. A kind of desire to grow beyond my limitations and mental barriers that keep me feeling comfy.

#215

Im having huge revelations in my life right now. Suddenly I am absolutely clear on everything and know exactly what I have to do.

This is exactly what I need!

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#216

I am currently trying to deal with some deeper traumas and fears in my subconscious that are still preventing me from blossoming in my full potential.

I am feeling drawn towards Revelation of Spirit lately and noticing effects as if I already running it. Same thing I usually have where I seem to “tap into” a program through consciousness alone.

I feel like I am close to figuring out some things that have been preventing my growth, not that I was not growing, I was always growing in certain ways but resolving various deeper blockages that have prevented bigger and greater breakthroughs from unfolding in my life, mostly my inner life but by extension also the outer life and world as both are direct reflections of each other.

There is no outer problem that cannot be resolved from within.

#217

Godlike Masculinity is quite the program, it leaves with a sense of grounded masculine silence. At different moments an invigorating joy arises from inside of me that sort of takes the edge off which I like because otherwise my presence may scare people.

Still a long road to fully understand what this program is and does to me but I can clearly ascertain the effects when running it. More than anything the anti-recon stuff in there has broken through layers of subconscious reconciliation that was previously holding me back in so many ways.

In combination with Alchemist I am transforming myself into a stoic philosopher. Not sure if Godlike masculinity has elements of morality in it but I find myself behaving with a greater sense of maturity and moral standard, that comes as if it was always natural to me which I really love about it. I believe this can have an effect not only on others but also on my own inner experience and creates a protection against immoral forces.

After running it I notice my energies settle more around the abdominal area, providing me with increased vigour, stability, and centring / grounding me in my power. The need to speak goes down a lot.

Interesting fact is that before running my digestion was all over the place and even weak I would say; ever since running this my food digests rapidly and well. Somehow this has impacted my digestive system for the better, most likely due to an accumulation in the solar plexus, providing the digestive organs with greater harmony and energy to function.

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#218

I have been pondering and decided on a few programs that I very much resonate with and will be including as permanent parts of my subliminal stack.

These being in no particular order

• Alchemist
• Khan Black
• Revelation of Spirit
• Æon

There will be side programs I may potentially be interesting in like Godlike Masculinity, Rich Trader maybe Wanted. But the main focus will be the series mentioned above. They are all puzzle pieces of various aspects of my transformation. The side programs are more like support programs that I will use here and there to achieve something and created more specific changes in my life that are not the main theme. They are also important but they will only be there temporary. The rest I have already decided upon will to be permanent because my very life and destiny is focused on those objectives. Starting a spiritual journey is not something of the day and tomorrow and the next day you decide to live a regular life. Once the forces of evolution are activated within oneself there is a constant momentum behind it that can no longer be stopped.

For me it is also want I feel inclined towards in general.

The rest is just a side show to help my life in various ways.

#219

I think you would benefit greatly from watching some of this man’s videos, he is a disciple in the lineage of Babaji and Lahiri Mahasaya and teaches a breathing technique that is very simple, balanced but profound, that can be included in any practice you already do to ground more and skyrocket results.

It’s called Heart Rate Variability breathing, he has tons of other interesting videos on his channel around kriya and the different aspects and mechanisms of it, here’s a couple: