Hey all. I’ve entered a point in my life where I’ve started having concerns for my own safety. I don’t know if it’s fear or legitimate and I guess that’s the scariest part for me. I’d rather not downplay my environments around me out of denial and end up hurt. I’m also moving to another state soon so that’s gonna be a whole other level of mapping out safe areas.
My original intent was to run Sanguine to keep me emotionally stable and think clearer and not be overwhelmed by what could happen. But then the other part of me feels like the fear is there as a sign I need to do something to prepare myself more. So I was considering Aegis Initiative: Survival Instinct. The caveat being I probably wouldn’t take up martial arts or go hardcore into survival skills. In a self defense situation that’s life or death it’s going to come down to two things for me, not freezing up and being able to put aside empathy enough to do some damaging things to another human being to stop them from harming me. Obviously #1 is avoiding situations that could be harmful and people that would harm me.
My main concern with Aegis is that this title will activate my fight or flight response more because I’m fixating on undesirable scenarios and how to avoid them vs focusing on the good things in life. But just because I don’t want things to exist in reality doesn’t make them magically disappear.
I’m really conflicted and just thought I’d crowdsource some opinions if anyone is up to it. Thanks!