Throwing this out there for anyone struggling with loop usage because it’s been tricky for me.
It’s important to identify between overstimulation vs reconciliation. Unfortunately sometimes they overlap, but I’ve found the following holds true.
Overstimulation
- Really tense, possible unconscious jaw clenching behavior
- inability to relax, incredibly agitated or on edge, minor things set me off (for example my fridge running too loud, it’s a constant low level hum)
- ADHD much worse, needing to expend more energy doing the simplest of tasks and exhausted after
- Action on anything is non-existent
Reconciliation
- Feelings of hopelessness or intense sadness
- Doubts about subliminal working
- Much much more negative about myself
- Very distorted black and white all or nothing thinking
- Old patterns and behaviors emerging, attempts to convince that the improvements were a lucky accident
- Self sabotage behavior. Doing things that would intentionally cause me to avoid using the sub or use it in the wrong way. For example listening too loud, listening too quiet, skipping a day when I’m not ovverstimulated but actually going through reconciliation, listening to an ultima and custom when I know it won’t work, stuff like that.
- Self isolation
So the distinction is important because reconciliation can be helped a lot by runing a single loop to get me back on track. But a single loop when overstimulated will make things much worse. Identifying these two different states is really important.
In an overstimulated state there has to be no input whatsoever. That means no attempts at healing, no booster type ultima, nothing. It has nothing to do with the content of the subliminal causing the issue. It’s the processing in my brain that can’t keep up. So any well intentioned ideas to move me forward will actually push me back more. This is very hard to deal with because if I hit an overstimulated state there’s not much that can be done for myself. For that reason it’s more important to be mindful of my internal state more than a strict listening routine.
