i have so much to learn and im so mellow rn. i trust everything will workout. i want to fast forward to next year or even next month. i am not caring to much for the journey just the destination. there isnt much urgency unless i dont do things to move things forward. as long as i do what moves things forward i feel alright. after so long with DR i know everything is going to be solved and i can achieve my goals. its only a matter of how well and when that gets to me.
i bought KB and RoM and just listened to KB1 for 3 minutes. this wasnt the plan but i was tempted to test it. if i like it i wont be able to fit it in my stack next cycle cus im running RoM DR and PZ. its already pretty dense. the only way would be to replace PZ with a a DR, RoM, or KB1 custom with deep sleep. RoM and KB are new for my subconscious so it wouldnt be a good idea plus the KB core isnt even available yet. and with DR im still on st3 not st4.
but if i do make a st3 custom it would probably be something like
- DRST3 Core
- Deep Sleep
- Result enhancer
- Result enhancer
- Result enhancer
- etc…
but again its dense to run that much. Q(DRST3), KB1, RoM. that sounds like a lot. i dont want to slow things down too much. better just keep KB a test.
few hours after testing KB:
i feel energy surge through out my body, mostly my chest. lots of random emotions surfacing faintly. i have no idea wat they r connected to.
it feels like it magnified the energetic effects of DR too. im really liking this. its feels similar to that energetic feeling that u get from when u havnt gotten off in a while.
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you can apply this time limit
for specific apps on your iPhone (if you have one) :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BOZNZ6z45ik&ab_channel=TrevorNace
for android:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ApRtZ7ut4JI&ab_channel=AirDroidOfficial
(( unsure if this works didn’t try it ))
You can also block specific websites like youtube from your PC:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lugj153oYII&ab_channel=FoxyTechTips
Instead, you can refocus your newly found time and attention
to podcasts, audiobooks, music or your work
thanks but ive tried these before and it doesnt work unless i want to avoid it already. if i want to i just work around it. pretty much everything i do is on a screen. when im off them i usually dont know what to do so i go back to my laptop or phone or just take a short break. driving, errands, exercise, talk to someone, eating, meditation, naps/sleep r the things i do without screens.
i could instead of watching videos for work i could listen to them. i only really need the audio for most of the time. maybe ill even exercise while doing that. 2 birds 1 stone
it sounds like a contradiction but Im feeling more sensitive to things yet more unaffected by those very same things.
its like my mind is unaffected but my body reacts as if i am. my body reacts like im anxious but my mind is totally calm and secure. later my body will feel like its sad or depressed but my mind is chill, peaceful and content. im curious to why im experiencing this.
I think everyones psyche is hinging from deep rooted fears. There are many layers of fear and they block you from going deep and letting go. It forces you to live externally and often makes u become a more material person.
Each fear we believe in, forces us to divert our minds and actions away from are true selfs. But it also shows us exactly where we are. Some fears are clearly illusive, the rest are seemingly real. None are. If you ignore the signs of fear, you will live at that level of fear. If u face it, the fear either shows its illusive nature or exposes more deeper layers you are not yet ready to understand.
Experience with facing my deeper fears, the shock of terrorizing my own mind, fear becomes less real and more illusive. When im faced with the disposal of my ego, im more prepared to face it. When I am facing potential death, im more prepared to face loss. When im faced with forgetfulness of wat I’ve learned, suffering becomes real again. all i have to do is remember and the illusive pain i experience gets unraveled, leaving behind what ‘is’ instead of wat i thought i was seeing.
listened to KB again today. i wasnt sure if i was going to listen to it 1, 2 or 3 times this cycle for a test. i think i will do 3 times. KB showed that its not really a high priority to run rn. PZ DR and RoM are all better as well as other subs im not running. it seems cool but ill have to save it for later. hopefully next year.
DR has pushed me to look at so many different subs thinking that it will be good to run and it sounds like a good idea. time passes and i move on to the next thing. because DR covers so much i often dont mind sticking to it and not switching up my stack. its when i question if there is a sub that i am missing out on some benefit because i chose my stack. i ask does DR help with this? if it does, then great but if it doesnt, should i add something? if i add something would it conflict or slow things down too much? can i commit to it long term?
the over analyzing has lead me to do a lot of reading in the forum and really helped me understand the art and science of paving my subliminal path.
i could have journaled offline more so im considering doing more soon. i can journal much more deeper in depth and personal offline than online. i only want to journal offline to get more results.
im much more reactive to my emotions physically but mentally im chill. ill cringe and twitch from them but internally im calm and settled. weird. maybe i just stopped suppressing my reactions. maybe DR is highlighting something. i would like it to stop at some point but i trust its part of the process. I dont think i can contemplate this away. ill just wait it out. only thing i can do about it is wait or try journalling.
i keep questioning if im taking enough action. i could force myself to do more but its hard to tell wat i need to do. i dont want to take stressful action in vain. i feel like DR does things behind the scenes so i would not have to take much action. idk if thats right or not. i hope it is. i hope DR is a somewhat passive sub. I want to get more out of DR than what i can on my own. i already have which leads me to believe its a passive sub that doesnt necessarily require action to work. the actions i took were not nearly enough to reach this level of change i had.
i remember someone saying that the alpha titles are like building up a wall and DR is tearing it down. so you should heal first then do alpha titles. but im doing both rn. im building myself up on DR3. im building myself and my life up a little bit. im allowing healing to happen too. i want to add titles to my stack but idk if it will be good or bad. RoM seems like a title that can be in the middle. it seems like it will work with titles that heal but also with titles that will build.
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i manifested a painful incident yesterday that lead me to badly want to change my stack out of impulse. i realized at the end of the day i was just avoiding pain and not seeing the big picture. i have a relatively passive stack that seems to not require much action to still work. i wanted to add a title that requires a lot of action. i dont want to miss out on other titles but im not even close to finished with wat im running.
anyways, i realized i wasnt willing to tolerate the pain and sit through wat im going through. i just assumed that pain was bad and i should do watever i can to avoid it. but now im reminded that thats a discipline i need in order to be consistent and get the most out of these subs. just cus im experiencing something unpleasant doesnt mean i should switch subs for that issue. and maybe that was the subs manifesting it for a reason and if i switch up my stack i will miss out on a opportunity for growth.
Ive been trying to consciously guide the subs to work on specific things. things are unfolding a little. i see a different perspective. its not profound but im hoping it will dig deeper. im digging on a subject that i have traced to early childhood. idk when it started but it is beyond the point where my memories become indistinct. Im tryign to unfold this riddle without RoM. i wont be using it until next cycle.
i think if i work on this, it could become a catalyst for incredible growth. ive been holding myself back in so many ways and blaming the wrong things. i dropped some things that only make me run in circles. now im looking for things i can change. im going a different route and thinking it will work. thanks to DR i have the clarity to not run around in circles thinking i would arrive at the destination i sought for. Its removed so much muck and blurry vision.
even though i think im on the right or at least a better path than before, i think it will take a long time to really see the benefits of wat im doing. im thinking years ahead sometimes decades and even my whole life. planning, strategizing on how i can get the most out of my life and figuring out what “the most” really is.
i personally dont like the copy for the newer titles. i dont want to say this on the main threads but its to much poetry and story telling. metaphors thrown around a little is fine (actually preferable especially when its explains/clarifies a point thats difficult to explain) but not every other sentence. i like the part of the copy thats direct, to the point. this is wat you are getting this is what it does. the extra stuff i have to decipher and the story part i dont see a point. For me, i only want to know about what it does for the listener. the beginning gives none of that and as it goes further to the bottom it gets closer to wat i personally like. less fluff and more direct explanations of what it can do.
feeling really tired. im not sure if its just me or recon. it could be recon. i have been tired lately. it could be because i listened to KB on top of my stack. i journaled offline and got some clarity but i dont think it would help to do any more for today. journalling can make me get in my head and i came up with what i should do about my current situation. now if i start digging anymore it wouldnt be helpful. i am consciously guiding my subconscious to focus on what i m consciously focusing on.
this tiredness is making me lazy. if im not moving things forward i dont feel right. i have to have consistency even if its just a little bit. i have to alway be aware that what i do each day will not just be wasted. so when im lazy, it bothers me, when i dont take action on the sub and dont notice any changed it bothers me. DR works behind the scenes so it make it worse when i do feel that way. i question if im wasting any more of my time. ive spent so much already. i dont want to spend any more on things i dont benefit from. when i do spend my time on things i dont benefit from it at the very least pesters me mentally.
i still trust everything will workout. everything is aligning. everything i want is becoming more and more possible and probable. im on the right path. i just wish i could see the path better and speed through it faster. impatience.
i am still feeling tired. low energy. i can function just not with anything taxing. im on my third day of not listening. i expect spontaneous healing from DR. i dont really know wat its doing. i take action at times but i could do more. i just dont know how much it will help. i could start meditating again.
ive been on my laptop or my phone pretty much any time ive had free time. ive been very distracted and low will power. i have a constant motivation under the surface. sounds like a contradiction but im just going through my days directing my energy into things that drain me or waste time but just enough in the right things to feel good about myself and feel a sense of progress. im irritated, impatient, at peace and euphoric. i cant tell if im grounded or neurotic. can i be both at the same time?
im unable to be in the present moment. its like im making a huge sacrifice to do so. “there not enough time to just chill and meditate”-my mind. but i am so disorganized that i waste pretty much most of my day doing things that are not productive. meditation most of the time is just something that builds up a tolerance but doesnt heal. maybe i just havnt been consistent with meditation long enough to make the significant changes i want. meditation along with knowledge occasionally gave me shifts in my perception that changed my world view. thats profound. but i dont think it will do something like that again unless i dedicate a tremendous amount of time to it. im asking myself if its worth it? and if i can even be consistent? when it comes to meditation i never was able to be consistent. bad habits would make me so impatient at times that i stop and lose that momentum. i think later maybe on RoM or some future stack after ive matured i will be able to be consistent.
i have noticed pain patterns that come up consistently. i started thinking i should track them. i dont think journalling would make a big difference about these things. its stuff i have spent so much time contemplating on that it feels impossible to simply just heal from. it seems too deep to be able to unravel. idk if it can simply be unraveled or something else is required. thats why i said earlier i expect spontaneous healing from DR. idk what to do exactly on my part. seems like just picking and sticking to the right stack at the right times is the biggest key factor.
not really sure wat im feeling rn. mix of things. i feel good and bad. impatient. questioning if im doing things the way i should or differently. not sure wat is best but just trying to make things move forward and not stagnate. i dont want to be this slow but im consistent. im frustrated that i havnt changed to the level i want. i want to change stacks and move on to the next thing but ive commited to my plan and i have to wait. i got to check things off the list of things that are holding me back. DR covers so much and i need to listen to it long enough to really check things off the list. I think RoM will too. i want to check everything off the list asap. i got to remind myself that its not something one stack will solve everything and help me achieve my all my goals. i have to patiently go through the transformation im going through. shortcuts may mess things up. i would love to be able to run 4 titles but it would slow things down. man, i have to wait probably 5-6 more months at least before the next thing. i dont want to wait but not as much as how much i dont want to stop.
DR has numbed me in a good way. its not like ive become desensitized and unable to feel. its just a lot of gunk is gone. its very liberating. the transformation i had this year is huge but i still wonder if it can take things that much farther. it feels a little impossible. but i wont know until later this year.
work has me realizing that it requires more effort if im going to really get wat i want out of it. im in no way ready for that rn. i want to focus on healing deeply. i think that theres something that will get healed that it holding me back. i dont have the clarity to understand whats going on in my head. its too subtle. hopefully RoM will give that clarity. what i dont get is why am i making the decisions i am. why am i making decisions that dont help me reach my goals and solve my problems. why am i holding myself back and slowing things down but still never giving up and continuing work towards bettering my life.
i think i have figured things out with wat ive been reconing about. i have to apply what ive learned to know for sure.
Are you thinking you might be stuck?
well i was already stuck before subclub but its helping me get unstuck. im trouble shooting. DR is covering a lot of trauma. but im not doing things to the best of my ability. i could workout harder work harder i could waste less time and have healthier habits. i kinda am still running DR just cus i want to solidify the results more than getting more. more would be great but idk if itll make much of a difference. i committed to a year and didnt believe i could heal so much these past 7 months so maybe it will be the same.
am i stuck? i hope not. but it does feel like when ever i try to use any discipline i always fall back and run in circles. i wasted too many years and now i feel rushed to fix it. i have become very hesitant to push myself too much from so much failure. thats where ive always been stuck and im troubleshooting it by using DR for now. then something else
right now im ramping up the discipline im using again. im thinking i might need something like spartan later to really ingrain willpower and discipline in me so i can be consistent.
Now that you’re off GLM would you be willing to give an overall summary of your whole opinion on the sub and what you saw, long term, now that it’s all behind you?
Considering exactly when to add it into my stack 
When you were talking about focus and overall quality of life I was really thinking about RoM for you… cognitively it’s an insane boost, and, spirit-ually (not as in spirituality but as in the quality of life as perceived by your sense of spirit) it is a blessing for purpose/direction/goals/meaning.
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