last day of this cycle. recon/or just wanting to switch was going on through out it. my plan for when and what to listen to after this cycle changed many times. sleep has improved a lot. im able to fall asleep much more easily. i have more drive than before. im more intense with work but still slack off at times. thing are going well. i could be eating healthier and exercising more. its a little concerning how little discipline i have been using for that. its been building up and i might automatically work a little bit harder to improve my health.
i spend so much time and energy thinking about my subs. if i put that time and energy into work instead i would be making a lot more money. but why do i think about this so much. i want to get it right. i want to know as much as possible and think things through as thoroughly as possible to make sure im listening to wat i should be listening to. all this effort comes naturally when directed to thinking about subliminals. but why not direct it elsewhere. i think i would miss something. miss info or mis-calculate something. is it really that useful for me to think about what subs im listening to. am i giving to much power to the subs and not my own conscious will. why do i feel hesitant to shift focus and put that time and energy into something productive and healthy.
i really think Emperor is what will be key in my path. i want to use it but im currently have a full stack with DR. and i want to run KB afterwards. maybe next year i could do a KB and Emperor stack. i could replace my GLM custom with Emperor rn.
but i havnt ran AM yet. and im not very financially stable. it may not be a good idea. but i can experiment. i think all i need in the GLM slot is just a ambition/drive sub that will push me to success. AM or Emperor.
i know i have AM but never ran it. i could try a cycle but it doesnt feel right to me. i really want Emperor. i assume Emperor will have that no more playing around effect and i want to get serious with my life. no messing around wasting time. really get grinding. that sounds great.
Trying to focus on healing AND building is counterproductive.
Finish healing. Then start building your foundation. I think part of the reason you want that ambitious drive is to offset the healing recon with the healing.
Best advice is to just ride DR out, making the best decisions you can in lieu of the healing burden. I get it, I was there myself. But trying to add subs to treat a side effect isnât the smartest decision. Youâre just bogging yourself down and increasing the time it takes to process and integrate.
As I said in the other post, Iâd highly recommend sticking to two subs for the remainder of your healing journey. Wether thatâs Pzzz + DR or DR + Custom. Thatâs your choice.
But give yourself some support, listen less and increase the length of your next washout by another 3 days. Time off will calm you down and give you clarity.
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this is something hard to see during recon. im glad u said it. i know ur right about that.
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time is constantly ticking. i keep feeling rushed to solve all my problems and achieve all my goals. thats where my shiny object syndrome is coming from. DR is first priority and i hope it tackles this feeling of not having enough time.
man its been only about six months. feels like im almost done with DR. feels like its been almost a year but im only half way done(at least). next cycle im going to lighten the load. DRST3 and PZzz. i kinda want to make a PZzz custom to keep the result enhancers like pragya, Epigeneticâs & DNA Modulator, Energetic Development XI. i think based off their description if i use them long term it will improve my subconsicousâs capacity to use subliminals. but im going to keep it simple for now. to main site titles. simple.
i was rushing so much that i was over calculating and got impatient with my sub results. wanting to switch. im calmed down for now. how can i be relaxed and also push myself to be better at the same time? if i have to feel like im wasting time to get better results faster it only makes sense. im saving time by wasting time. so im not really wasting time. i feel like i am. i just dont like doing things passively. i have to wait it out and let the subs do their thing. being passive makes me feel like im wasting time being active alleviates that.
By thinking less and doing more. The sub is a script, you taking action on your goals is what allows the script to activate and support your actions.
Listening less or washing out is not wasting time, not taking action each and everyday(regardless of subs) is wasting time.
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What all might you want to build?
probably something maybe like
PZzz core
Pragya
Epigeneticâs & DNA modulator
Energetic Development XI
Mosaic
DEUS
Omnidiminsional
Naturalizer
Plateau Transcendent
Subconscious Flow
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im starting my new stack today. i took my GLM custom out and listening to DR and PZ.
been getting lazy lately. still getting everything done just not as intense and delaying things a little. i dont think it will be a problem but i got to see how things go this cycle. i was tempted to add something now that there are only 2 subs in my stack but i remind myself that if i do more i slow things down. i want to see wat these subs can do by themselves.
after one cycle with PZ my sleep has never been this consistently better. even if i dont prep well for bed i still get better sleep. i have this rested-like feeling even when im not fully rested too. sometimes ill feel rested and not rested at the same time. i think long term my sleep is going to be incredible.
DR has been doing what ever its doing. i wish i could be aware of wats happening. what i do notice is things dont affect me negatively as much mental or physical.what i mean is junk food or emotions. arguments dont bother me as much. painful memories keep coming up but they feel weaker but also in my face more at the same time.
the loops just finished. lets see how this goes. i will test out more break days. im no longer alternating A/B listening days. its just A. no B.
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already 5 mins and i feel a little impatient for more. it could be my mood rn or recon. i think i need to take a lot of rest days this cycle and see how it goes. i was debating about taking an extra day in my washout but i didnt want to go through the effort to make a bunch of changes to my calendar.
many past pains are coming up randomly. it makes me want to stay on DR for a long time to really clean these things out for good.
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thinking out loud:
im very tempted to test KB. i want to know what would happen but idk how it could effect DR. if i listen to it today and then stop there would it really affect my cycle that much? im still barely over a week away from stopping my GLM custom. my subconscious is probably still processing it. to really know what itâll do, id have to run it after GLM has stopped being processed. maybe i will do a loop this cycle and a loop next cycle and compare. fuck it, what harm is one 5 min loop.
actually⌠i dont even know what its like without a third sub. i have no control study. but i can intuitively know wats going on. empirical science is slow.
does it really matter or not?
well no. then fine ill test a loop. 5 min.
but something feels off. nevermind ill just think about it later
if this is recon then i should just take rest days rn.
ive been blaming the wrong problems for a long time. ive been lying to myself and not even realizing it. its relieving to let go of beliefs that constantly contradicts my existence. the past few days i realized things that should be so obvious but for whatever reason i couldnt see clearly.
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the uncertainty of what to stack and wat sub to listen to now and in the future is wat makes me constantly think about it. thats really the only significant recon i experience. constant recon of it. but now im clear for this cycle and the next. i know wat im going to run with certainty. i do feel something with DR but its so underneath the surface i cant really know wats going on. i might feel some emotions but they arent that big of a deal. if they are, its just something im used to already and has improved after 6+ months of DR.
despite wat i said, it seems like DR is stronger in the sense of the recon im getting. emotions and suppressed things surfacing. i wanted to run DR by itself and PZ. i will for this cycle. but the next, im adding RoM. i know i talk a lot on switching stacks due to recon but this is different. its a solid choice. no wishy washy stuff.
ive been going with the flow more. the mental things that use to hold me back are still there but it has less grip on me and my life. i am attached to DR and would not stop listening unless i know what it has done for me will stay. the sense of relief i carry everyday is invaluable. i considered doing 2 years of DR. if i did that it would be amazing to see the transformation and i wont recognize myself. i know for sure im listening for a full year and im half way there. idk if 1 yr is enough to reach my goals.
ive been soft with myself. i always have. especially the older i got. every time i pushed myself id give out at some point. it gets too painful and i give in. i dont see the pain i have to go through worth it. thats why i dont try hard enough. my mindset is so soft. go with the flow. choosing paths with less resistance. this is a big block for why i never achieved everything i wanted. i held back and didnt do my very best. i didnt and still dont want to suffer to get what i want. but if i dont suffer now i will suffer later and loath myself for not doing what i should have.
how do i get my willingness to suffer back? im committed to DR and i hope it will help with this but i think i need something like spartan. i wont be running spartan though. Can DR help me become a person willing to suffer for what he wants? i hope so
i know things are changing even though i dont feel anything profound rn. i kinda want to have recon so i feel like i am getting a lot out of dr. i know things are happening beyond my awareness. i dont really feel the urgent impatience for change its more like being more entertained. i got to do something to preoccupy my time. i cant be idle. i get to restless. almost always have.
i can feel the sub doing something energetically in my body its like a cozy fire in my chest. the heat dissipating outwardly throughout my body and limbs. giving me a sense of comfort and chill insolation from any possibly strong emotions. like a wall has been put up. its kinda like if someone is on the other side of the wall angrily yelling and trying to argue. i hear everything but i wouldnt care as much because we are separated. hes blocked off by the wall between us. but if it was face to face i would be more reactive by this angry man. who knows, he could throw a punch. i need to address this or i could get hurt. in the same way thats wat it feels like but internally. my emotional triggers are behind a wall. what can they really do to me. DR is creating this emotion buffer.
after deciding to add RoM to my stack next cycle ive been reading through the RoM thread. Saint recommends against it cus it could be too much(overwhelming). when read the results ppl are having i think this is exactly wat is missing. and i am in a position that i can handle recon rn. im really excited for it.
i know there are things going on mentally that im not aware of but i should. thoughts come up that if i had more awareness i could have powerful breakthroughs but the problem is the thoughts pass so quickly and they are so subtle its difficult to pinpoint wat just happened. i think RoM will be perfect for this. and if its very intense its ok cus i want a deep healing and im open to a radical change in myself even if its terrifying. also the concentration and intuition, cognitive and memory enhancement will help me a lot with work.
this DR + RoM combo sounds perfect for me.
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correcting what i said in the last post. i said Saint doesnt reccomend mixing DR and RoM but i read further into the RoM thread and Saint said its RoS not RoM. now imagine DR + RoM + RoS. 
that sounds intense.