Abundance Architect - Paving the way into Prosperity

[Evolver]

Whats PZzzzzz

[Parsifal]

Paragon Sleep Zzzzz

[Parsifal]

June 27th 2024
Listening Day 5
AA 5:04 PZzzz 3:00

June 29th 2024
Listening Day 6
Primal 5:00 KB 5:10

[Parsifal]

I didn’t journal much in the last fortnight.
It’s partly because a lot happened but also because of my fiancees new job, we try to spend her scarce free time more meaningful. So no mpre 30 minutes of Journaling while lying next to her in the evening.

We went to a wedding eves party at our neighbors. The ones we have a family feud with for almost two decades. It’s a thing between the parent generation, so we thought it’s good to start over freely in our generation. It was a pleasant surprise. I had a couple of conversations with all members of their family and they were authentically happy to see me and meet my fiancee.
On the bad side. Hangover was serious. For my better half even worse.

Work

Work wise things were strange. First, my boss almost begged me to work part time because she didn’t have enough employees to cover all shifts (and i had only 4 hours left this month) and when I offered a few hours later, I didn’t hear a word from her. For two weeks.
It felt like something was off.
Was it because I register missed 9 bucks (first time, usually it’s below 1€)?
I think this was a trigger for my existential dread.
I know that my trick to get more tips is probably against corporate policy. But since not paying minimum wage is against the law, it feels OK.
Nevertheless, a part of me felt like I’m in trouble big time.
After two weeks of no contact I had another shift on sunday. My sweet colleague said she missed me and customers asked for me almost on a daily basis. That was a nice experience.
But again no contact after my shift.
This week the dread was horrible. It felt like a fist was crushing my solar plexus. I used tapping once to get rid of the feeling before sleeping.
Yesterday I thought I should switch back to LB and drop Primal. That was the moment I realized that this is recon. My system is working through some tough blocks and that’s how it shows. Run a breakthrough loop and it got better soon after.
And this morning my boss wrote, that she’s sorry, but she has a few new employees and everything is super chaotic. So that’s that.

Mail

I decided it’s time to open my mail. I knew that procrastinating on it just makes things worse, but I couldn’t find the courage or strength to do it.
So on Sunday I finally did.
All in all, my debts are manageable. I still have to answer all letters, but if I would get a job in production I could pay it off in a few months.
So basically nothing to fret about.

[Parsifal]

July 2nd 2024
Listening Day 7
AA 11:02

July 4th 2024
Listening Day 8
Primal 4:07 KB4 3:00 PZzzz 4:11

[Parsifal]

The cat is out of the bag. One of my projects I’ve spent quite some time on, was the Q-Module Compendium.
First, collecting all the texts, formatting them, amending some information, formatting it agin took quite some time.
Then making the actual book as well.
Here is the thread where I’ve published it in the forum.

Q-Modules A Compendium

[20240705_143947] I still believe in the value of haptic experience. It gives another dimension to information if you can hold it in your hands, like browsing through a book, remembering where in the book you can find information and making a note at the side. That’s why I printed out all the sales copies of the subs I used. That’s also why I created this compendium. To print it out and create a book out of it. I would like to extend my deepest gratitude to Fire and SaintSovereign, the vis…

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Yesterday I’ve paid a few entities (car insurance, audible, etc) I owed money to, and contacted two more to find an agreement.
One remains for today.
So big steps forward.

[Parsifal]

July 8th 2024
Listening Day 9
AA 15 minutes

My girl was pretty stressed out last week because “bureaucracy”. I was pretty stressed out because of my mail stuff.
This combined with the sexual urges from Primal led to a short relapse with pmo.
Found an old phone without monitoring software and bam.
But it was rather short. Two days, one time each, not more than 2 minutes each day.
Then I felt the need to install the software on this phone aswell.

This led to some relationship trouble again, because it hurt my better half. Understandably with her history.

We had a long conversation on Friday night, after my late shift. And another one the next morning.
We solved our issue.

Then we went to her favorite thermal bath with a huge sauna area. It was a huge disappointment.
The lemon sauna didn’t have this intense lemon smell it used to have.
The thermal bath was now open for children, so it was super loud and not at all relaxing.
And in the sauna area was a Mallorca styled party.

On the bright side, we had a beautiful aromatic salt peeling and our skin is now super soft. And we know that we don’t need to drive 2.5 hours for this sauna world, when we have a much better and cheaper one just 1 hour away.

I forgot to listen to subs over the weekend, so I had 3 rest days in total.
Yesterday I felt like listening to my custom in full.
No recon so far.

First positive effect I noticed, usually when I wake up at night because I need to pee, I stay in bed and wake up every 15 minutes or so. Tonight I had this strange command in my head Don’t be stupid and just go to the toilet, you’ll sleep much better afterwards. And so I did.

Atm, I’m checking out other possibilities to get into a sales job and the possibility of getting another paid job until I found one in sales.

My days a rather productive atm, not as much wasting my time.

[Parsifal]

Today I feel kinda shit. Late shift yesterday. Slept around 1 am, what isn’t that bad, but our neighbors started some construction work around 6am, throwing bricks and tiles in metal container, so my night was over.
Might also be a bit of a strain from the full loop of AA. But I don’t know.

Some threads made me deeply think about my motivation for running Primal. And it was a fruitfull endeavor.

@Parsifal

To me it seems like Primal is preparing the base, getting you fit and running. With that base, you can run SSX much differently because you’ve grown so much personality wise.

The X from SSX means it’s a title from the old Weapon X series. A series that aimes to improve skills. Like UWX (Ultimate Writer) improves writing, GMX (Gaming Mastery) improves Gaming or MTX (Muay Thai Master) improves Muay Thai skills.

But Primal isn’t about seduction skills.
It’s about a seductive personality.
It’s changing you in your core.
Skills don’t need that.

A few years back, I took a course for stage training. We were 200 people. Some participated the 2nd or 3rd time. Some of them had acquired the skills already. They did everything right.
But it still wasn’t them.
Some used a lot of energy and big motions, exactly as they’ve learned to do it. But it didn’t do much. Because it wasn’t coming from their inner center. It was just something they learned to do right.
Others went on the stage and with minimal motion they stirred up the crowd. Because they were present and their energy was tangible.
It wasn’t a mask they put on, but an expression of their authentic self.

That’s the difference for me between beeing and skill.

If you change who you are, it doesn’t need extrem levels of skill to succeed.

Skill, of course, amplifies your success.
On the stage or with seduction.

And of course, learning and using skills will change you over time. So SSX will help as well. Over time.
Just like many of these seduction and PUA coaches teach their stuff, that works for them, but if others do it, it often seems fake, artifical. Because it’s not their nature. And they shy away from the hard shadow work that is necessary to change that.
But over time, asking 500 women for their number does its thing on you. You change nevertheless.
But here as well, if you’re already a person that can attract women, the same skills and techniques are more effective.

So Primal is about making you a seducer by nature. It’s about confronting your shadows, your limiting beliefs. To let them go and become the Primal, untamed man you are deep down inside. To shed all the layers of conditioning, of limitations.

That’s why I see Primal as a fundamental sub.

It’s about loosing all the conditioning to be a nice boy. To loose my strict catholic conditioning about sexuality, which wasn’t taught in a healthy manner. To loose this false humility that isn’t virtuous at all.

For me it’s not about skill but about being.

[Goldfinger]

I love this, I had this same insight not too long ago - that Primal is about my way of being and not just skills.

I read the copy twice when it released, analysed it and I concluded that it wasn’t for me. Only for me to start getting the pull to run it one month later.

Only then, was I able to start seeing the true nature of the sub and how beneficial it’ll be for me.

[Parsifal]

Primal feels a bit like the beginning of most fantasy novels where the hero has to do certain boring tasks, learn certain boring skills, only later to notice how all this crap primed him for the adventure he now has mastered.

[Parsifal]

What I wanted to say with the post above is, of course you can use the qualities you get from Primal to seduce hundreds of women.
Just like any hero could use the skills he learned for the tasks his environment intented him to use them for.

But he didn’t. No hero ever used the skills and the qualities he gained for a small goal. No. He used them to save the world.

And the same way, we could use the qualities from Primal to seduce hundreds of women.
Or we can use them for a goal much greater.

[SoulFire]

I agree so much, seducing the whole universe is my jam, and there’s much more than hundreds of women in it!!!

[Parsifal]

July 13th 2024
Listening Day 1
KB4 6:40 PZzzz 3:33 Primal 6:32

After my last full loop of my Custom I felt pretty low energy the following days, so I decided to take a few additional rest days. So with 4 days now and 3 days before, I feel comfortable with starting a new cycle right away.

I don’t know, how the full loop influenced me or co-caused my low energy. It was extremely sticky and my whole family felt similarly. So I may try it again the following week.

[Parsifal]

I don’t know if its some subconscious protection mechanisms, but I forgot to listen to my subs today, again.
Perhaps 1 day on 2 days off is my rhythm for now?

[Parsifal]

July 16th 2024
Listening Day 2
AA 15:00 PZzzz 3:00

[Parsifal]

July 18th 2024
Listening Day 3
KB4 8:16 Primal 4:14 PZzzz 4:44

I listened to my custom now two times for the full 15 minutes. I felt super procrastinating the first time. The second time was much better, but still, it was there.
BUT I managed to get in contact with a few debt collectors and started finally to create payment plans. It still felt a bit like having anxiety attacks, but I managed to do it nevertheless.
So for me, it’s huge step forwards.
My health insurance accepted to handle it themselves without a debt collector which makes it much easier because I have just one rate to pay each month instead of two, also they offer to spread it over 2 years instead of one.
So now only IRS remains.

Job wise, I’m still struggling with procrastination. I guess it’s because I’m not sure what the best route would be. So instead of going the wrong way, I stay where I am. Not clever, but everything I can do atm.

I’m kinda pissed that the job center doesn’t answer. Even when they would say no, it would be something to work with.

I found a job offer as a traveling salesman for gas and electric companies 25 minutes away. But is it what I want to do?
I would prefer telesales with home office for family reasons.
But could it be a starting point?

I also noticed, that I started to open letters right away in the last couple of days.
Could also be Debt Annihilator at work.

My sexual impulses are still strong, though when I release, it’s without visual aid.
I also noticed when I look at our couple photos, the urge often vanishes. I think thats because it makes me realize what is really important: My relationship.

[Parsifal]

It occurred to me today, that I only felt this strong drive to attack my unopened letters after listening to AA for full loops.
I have to observe this further, but it may be, that, similar to KB1, full loops bring effects I don’t get from microloops.
I can’t certainly tell, because I don’t know what is in the script, but KB1 only had this cleansing effect only after 15 minutes. And now again, after a full loop I get a result I desired.
But again, I prepared for full loops with 2 cycles of much shorter loops, preparing me.
I think I’ll run AA only in full loops for the rest of this Cycle to see if there manifests a consistency of results.

[Parsifal]

July 21st 2024
Listening Day 4
AA 15:00 PZzzz 15:00

[Parsifal]

After the two full loops yesterday, I feel totally spent today. I slept 8.5 hours. I woke up a few times and fell asleep again right after. Even now, three hours after getting up, I’m still tired.
But I know it’s doing something. I can feel it.

[Parsifal]

July 24th 2024
Listening Day 5
Ascension 5:00

Today I realized another big missing chunk of me. Or rather that I didn’t work on it as hard as I should have. I knew for a long time, that I’m missing the determination to take serious action.
I realized recently, that it’s missing confidence in me and my skills. Even for jobs for career changers, I felt like I will not get in, I have nothing to show for.
And I sincerely believed that lovebomb will heal this. And longterm it probably could.
But @Sub.Zero pointed to Ascension for self-esteem and getting your shit done. So I read the copy (probably the first time since I found SC and was steamrolled by the abundance and variety of subs). And it just felt right.

@Sub.Zero

On the other hand, Ascension massively increases your self-esteem and helps you focus on getting your own shit done (setting goals and striving for their achievement) without being concerned about what other people have, how they are, what they’re doing and what they think of you, and Phoenix dissolves all complexes, comparing yourself with others may stem from.

Self-love is important but it’s more a matter of self-worth, what’s important to you, an what you’re focused on (your goals and ambitions).

@Parsifal

Lol. Now I’m considering Ascension, because I know I’m missing a lot of that.
Also it’s a narrow and fast acting sub.

OK. I read the description.
And I bought it.
5 minutes in.
That’s all for now.

Strange how I never read Ascensions sales copy.
I’ve recommended it.

Perhaps I thought I’ve run emperor before, I don’t need ascension

Now it feels like the missing puzzle piece.

I thought confidence comes along as long as I work on self love. But I might push it for a few cycles.

Probably will drop KB4 for it. Not that I make any use of the energy scripting without the self esteem to take serious action.

I don’t know yet, how things will develop, but Ascension feels like another step in the right direction. Just like the natural development I experienced this year Phoenix-> LB → Primal → Ascension.

So I now have two subs working on masculinity.

Primal and Ascension.

Plus AA for my wealth goals.

I’ll drop PZzzz since my sleep is good enough for the moment and I can make better use of my processing power.

And I think, Ascension might even be a good replacement for KB4 in relation to porn, since the main reason for relapses was missing self esteem or problems originating from me not taking the necessary action to succeed in life.
So I’m not tackling the the inner wound but I’m taking away the possible gateways for the triggers.