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#25

I’m just sitting on our terrace with my fiancee. We’re listening to songs, when suddenly one of my favorite lovesongs plays. I look at her and just start weeping buckets.

It’s a German song, but I’ve got you an English translation.

A room full of moonlight, full of light
That reflects and breaks on you tonight
Touches my eyes and pierces through
Until this moon sinks out of view
You hold your hands before your face
For such long looks, you give no grace
But what I see, I must confess
Even without my eyes, I guess
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

A room full of night, with sleeping you,
And I lie awake, watching you too
A shell of human, full of life and death,
Just a moment that soon draws breath
I feel it burning on my tongue,
And I like to call things by name for long
So I wake you up, turn on the light
To tell you this face to face tonight
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

A room full of sky with stars so bright
That take the dark out of the night
Your blinking eyes disdain the light,
I can read it in your face so slight
You tell me not to look, I ask why
Your answer is wordless, you just sigh
And I will bear it, to forego the sight
But I just love to look so right
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

First, more word wise translation

A room full of moonlight, full of light
That reflects and breaks on you,
Touches and penetrates my eyes
Until this moon sinks again.
You hold your hands over your face,
For such long gazes you don’t allow me.
But what I behold here, I must confess,
I can see even without my eyes.
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

A room full of night, full of sleeping you,
And I lie here awake, watching the sleeper.
A shell full of human, full of life and death,
Just a moment that also threatens an end.
I feel it burning on the tip of my tongue,
And I like to call things by their names.
So I wake you up, I turn on the light for this,
So I can tell you personally.
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

A room full of sky with artificial stars
That remove the darkness under the night.
Your blinking eyes disdain the light,
I can read it in your face.
You tell me not to look, I ask you why,
Your answer is wordless, you just turn away.
And I will bear it, to forego the sight,
But I just love to look so much.
You are so beautiful,
You are so beautiful.

But as the Italiens say: Traditore - Trahitore
Translator - Traitor

The text looses much with this fast translation.

Edit 2

This second translation is much better.

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#26

June 16th Sunday
4th Rest Day

I almost wrote 2nd rest day. Time flees atm.
Managed the pressure cleaning and the repair of the bench. Grapes are still waiting.

Had two late shifts on Thursday and Friday.
Thursday managed to get my cleaning done fast, so I could leave rather early (22:30). But I stayed up until I got tired at 3 am. Following day was shit. But I realized that maybe I don’t need to stay up so long that I fall asleep while watching TV, but rather try to sleep earlier.

So for Friday I decided to go to bed much earlier. But gas was super cheap (15 cents cheaper than usual), so I was standing behind the register almost until my shift ended and I needed to do most of the cleaning afterwards. Still I managed to leave only 30 minutes later than the day before. In a similar situation before, I needed 1 hour more. So I improved a lot.
When I am home, I managed to sleep shortly after midnight, so another huge improvement.

Yesterday I took fiancee to a sauna. We both needed some relaxation. I had a slight headache all day long. I immediately thought Primal recon. LOL. Why did I listen to more than 10 minutes again for a first loop?
Another interesting realization was that I can take the heat pretty well now. It was only my fourth time visiting the sauna this year. In a 95°C Sauna I managed to take 5 infusions on third rank. Even many veterans left the sauna early or dropped down. For me it wasn’t that challenging.
Nothing to boast, just a curious observation.

Tonight I dreamed some crazy stuff. I can’t remember much. I remember something about sex with some entities that fought me before.
I think this is the second of these dreams since my first Primal loop.
Reintegration of parts of me that I fought before?

I also remember waking up a couple of times, my head filled with numbers, like when I school days I prepared for a math exam to intensively so math was also the determining factor in my dreams. HoM? I don’t know.

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#27

5th rest day

My bleeding gums are back worse than ever (maybe because I decided to use a manual toothbrush instead of a electric one).

So I decided to look it up in “The Key to self-liberation”.

Tonight, just one thing.

The first sentence spoke of walking with having a wart on the sole of the left foot. And what do I have on the sole of the left foot?
A wart.

Both speak about self love and frustration.
Gonna post the text tomorrow.

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#28

June 19th 2024
Listening Day 1
AA 4:20 PZzzz 3:33 Primal 4:44

#29

June 20th 2024

I don’t know what it is.
I feel like a hand is crushing my heart and filling it with dread.

I think this is the second day with this feeling. Only today it’s much more intense.

I tried the Sedona method. Can’t remember who proposed it on here, but it worked a bit. Only managed to do one round. You’re supposed to do 9 so I’d say its working well so far.

But is this recon feom Primal?

If it is, then Primal is working on some very deep issues and I’m gratefull af.

BTW, since starting Primal, I’m don’t just have more morning wood, but also I’m more horny again. So I’m looking forward to start my KB journey again tomorrow with stage 4.

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#30

Should be here as well

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#31

Yeah Primal will hit you like a man, a fun loving exciting tough man, it’s :fire: and worth it!

#32

I’d like to point out that I took a week break from KB1 while running Primal and it felt more difficult to process than when I started KB1 again along Primal, it’s like KB1 opens the flood gates of energy and allows Primal to just flow in and execute confidently.

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#33

June 21st 2024
KB4 9:04 PZzzz 3:00 Primal 0:25

June 23rd 2024
AA 5:04 PZzzz 3:00

#34

June 25th 2024
Listening Day 4
PZzzz 3:00 Primal 4:30 KB 2:10

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#35

Whats PZzzzzz

#36

Paragon Sleep :sleeping:Zzzzz

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#37

June 27th 2024
Listening Day 5
AA 5:04 PZzzz 3:00

June 29th 2024
Listening Day 6
Primal 5:00 KB 5:10

#38

I didn’t journal much in the last fortnight.
It’s partly because a lot happened but also because of my fiancees new job, we try to spend her scarce free time more meaningful. So no mpre 30 minutes of Journaling while lying next to her in the evening.

We went to a wedding eves party at our neighbors. The ones we have a family feud with for almost two decades. It’s a thing between the parent generation, so we thought it’s good to start over freely in our generation. It was a pleasant surprise. I had a couple of conversations with all members of their family and they were authentically happy to see me and meet my fiancee.
On the bad side. Hangover was serious. For my better half even worse.

Work

Work wise things were strange. First, my boss almost begged me to work part time because she didn’t have enough employees to cover all shifts (and i had only 4 hours left this month) and when I offered a few hours later, I didn’t hear a word from her. For two weeks.
It felt like something was off.
Was it because I register missed 9 bucks (first time, usually it’s below 1€)?
I think this was a trigger for my existential dread.
I know that my trick to get more tips is probably against corporate policy. But since not paying minimum wage is against the law, it feels OK.
Nevertheless, a part of me felt like I’m in trouble big time.
After two weeks of no contact I had another shift on sunday. My sweet colleague said she missed me and customers asked for me almost on a daily basis. That was a nice experience.
But again no contact after my shift.
This week the dread was horrible. It felt like a fist was crushing my solar plexus. I used tapping once to get rid of the feeling before sleeping.
Yesterday I thought I should switch back to LB and drop Primal. That was the moment I realized that this is recon. My system is working through some tough blocks and that’s how it shows. Run a breakthrough loop and it got better soon after.
And this morning my boss wrote, that she’s sorry, but she has a few new employees and everything is super chaotic. So that’s that.

Mail

I decided it’s time to open my mail. I knew that procrastinating on it just makes things worse, but I couldn’t find the courage or strength to do it.
So on Sunday I finally did.
All in all, my debts are manageable. I still have to answer all letters, but if I would get a job in production I could pay it off in a few months.
So basically nothing to fret about.

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#39

July 2nd 2024
Listening Day 7
AA 11:02

July 4th 2024
Listening Day 8
Primal 4:07 KB4 3:00 PZzzz 4:11

#40

The cat is out of the bag. One of my projects I’ve spent quite some time on, was the Q-Module Compendium.
First, collecting all the texts, formatting them, amending some information, formatting it agin took quite some time.
Then making the actual book as well.
Here is the thread where I’ve published it in the forum.

Yesterday I’ve paid a few entities (car insurance, audible, etc) I owed money to, and contacted two more to find an agreement.
One remains for today.
So big steps forward.

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#41

July 8th 2024
Listening Day 9
AA 15 minutes

My girl was pretty stressed out last week because “bureaucracy”. I was pretty stressed out because of my mail stuff.
This combined with the sexual urges from Primal led to a short relapse with pmo.
Found an old phone without monitoring software and bam.
But it was rather short. Two days, one time each, not more than 2 minutes each day.
Then I felt the need to install the software on this phone aswell.

This led to some relationship trouble again, because it hurt my better half. Understandably with her history.

We had a long conversation on Friday night, after my late shift. And another one the next morning.
We solved our issue.

Then we went to her favorite thermal bath with a huge sauna area. It was a huge disappointment.
The lemon sauna didn’t have this intense lemon smell it used to have.
The thermal bath was now open for children, so it was super loud and not at all relaxing.
And in the sauna area was a Mallorca styled party.

On the bright side, we had a beautiful aromatic salt peeling and our skin is now super soft. And we know that we don’t need to drive 2.5 hours for this sauna world, when we have a much better and cheaper one just 1 hour away.

I forgot to listen to subs over the weekend, so I had 3 rest days in total.
Yesterday I felt like listening to my custom in full.
No recon so far.

First positive effect I noticed, usually when I wake up at night because I need to pee, I stay in bed and wake up every 15 minutes or so. Tonight I had this strange command in my head Don’t be stupid and just go to the toilet, you’ll sleep much better afterwards. And so I did.

Atm, I’m checking out other possibilities to get into a sales job and the possibility of getting another paid job until I found one in sales.

My days a rather productive atm, not as much wasting my time.

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#42

Today I feel kinda shit. Late shift yesterday. Slept around 1 am, what isn’t that bad, but our neighbors started some construction work around 6am, throwing bricks and tiles in metal container, so my night was over.
Might also be a bit of a strain from the full loop of AA. But I don’t know.

Some threads made me deeply think about my motivation for running Primal. And it was a fruitfull endeavor.

It’s about loosing all the conditioning to be a nice boy. To loose my strict catholic conditioning about sexuality, which wasn’t taught in a healthy manner. To loose this false humility that isn’t virtuous at all.

For me it’s not about skill but about being.

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#43

I love this, I had this same insight not too long ago - that Primal is about my way of being and not just skills.

I read the copy twice when it released, analysed it and I concluded that it wasn’t for me. Only for me to start getting the pull to run it one month later.

Only then, was I able to start seeing the true nature of the sub and how beneficial it’ll be for me.

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#44

Primal feels a bit like the beginning of most fantasy novels where the hero has to do certain boring tasks, learn certain boring skills, only later to notice how all this crap primed him for the adventure he now has mastered.

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