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#161

Day 14: No listening.

I was feeling good until I had to go run some errands today. I guess part of me didn’t want to be disturbed with such things. I decided that I’ll take a week of rest before I pick up the workout routine again. I wasn’t getting many days off the past year and never two consecutive unless it lined up for a holiday. I seem to be more drawn to doing my inner work again while some feelings were coming up.

Evening update: Yea it’s definitely recon. But not a bad thing. Just the changeover process from the old to the new. No problems, thinks are going well. Just a matter of that ego mind quieting down so we can enjoy the good stuff.

I just now felt like some of that adventure side was coming out but at the same time not knowing what to do. Wishing I had friends to call like when I was younger and you could just call your friends and hang out maybe go on an adventure.

End of night update: Healing hitting pretty good again now. Laying the ground flat to build the runway on I suppose.

#162

Day 15 3 mins of KB 3. 3 mins of new LB.

I went for a drive and listened out in nature. I had a pretty good relaxed drive. Everything is green and it just felt nice and good to be out driving. Then I drove through the city a bit and felt comfortable being around people.

#163

Day 16: No listening.

#164

Day 17: 15 mins KB 3, 3 mins new LB.

I was going through some of that healing again today. It didn’t last as long as previously. I see it as an opportunity to release it and be free of it. I was doing sedona method on it. But it’s also helped me to practice without doing the process.

I just practice mindfulness. I notice my feelings and/or the mind getting wound up. I immediately see it and check if I’m wanting to change it and just like that it releases and I’m back to resistance free awareness/presence. That’s something I guess I held on to, doing the process but they told you that at some point you’d just see it and release. And I never got there because I was attached to doing the process. But since I’ve been going through stuff, recon I’ve been practicing that in action. It’s just a matter of continuing it so it just becomes second nature.

Evening update: I don’t really put any effort into my appearance. I still get surprised sometimes when women check me out and they show signs of interest or attraction. I’ve been working on self love again. I let go of disapproving of myself and then I let myself love myself as much as I do. That’s definitely getting me back in touch with good feelings so I’ll touch on that angle daily again. It seems like I’m ready to take it to a new level with it. It’s like revisiting a good book later, more insights await as you grow and can see anew.

#165

Day 18: No listening.

Still squeezing out the weaksauce. Also haven’t gotten a work out in in over a week now. I have been letting go a lot though and so I’m sure things will start clicking anytime.

End of night update: I think I got rid of some supressed stuff. That’s been the feelings coming up. Today at one point and might’ve been yesterday, I had the sensation that tears were going to come, just without those sad feelings. So I think I got rid of the suprression and so I was getting into some natural expression of those feelings. Say I probably should have cried at one time but I pushed it all down so that didn’t make it go away, it was just pushed down and the healthy thing would have been to just express it and be done with it. But that’s not how many of are trained. Instead of healthy expression of emotions we are trained to not express because it might bother somebody else, who has consequently been trained to supress their feelings too, but you have to hide yours too so they don’t have to feel theirs because it’s all your fault and you’re making them feel what they don’t like! lol.

So my plan is to stick to the same routine. Keep new LB at 3 mins since I did hit some rough spots. I’ll switch to KB 4 finally. I’ll keep new Primal at 1x a week at 15 mins. That seems to be working well, I’m also excited about moving Primal into the driver’s seat. I’d move KB 4 to the 1x weekly at 15 mins spot. and run new LB and Primal as my main drivers.

#166

Day 19: 3 mins KB 3, 15 mins new LB

I like to get one 15 min loop of new LB in before my cycle ends just for good measure. My last listening day in 2 days is 15 mins of new Primal.

End of night update: I’ve kind of been thinking I’d like more healing with maybe Phoenix. But since this cycle was kind of rough at times I plan to just stick with it and keep new LB listening time the exact same. I’ll stick to 3 mins of it next cycle. I kind of want to move new Primal into a more front slot but I’ll finish out the first 2 cycles of KB 4 the same as the previous 3. I’ll keep KB4 the main focus title.

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#167

Day 20: No listening.

I did my workout first thing today. It was like nothing. I got in all the inner work I wanted. And now I’m again feeling some of those sad type feelings.

I am feeling good about my workouts, I’ll just do it first thing in the day and then I can’t procrastinate it. I was thinking I need more healing but at this point I think Inner Circle or Daredevil since IC isn’t updated yet. I guess part of me still longs for some connection with legit people again. So that is probably what new LB is working on. I always felt like I was okay being alone and preferred it to any drama and forcing my will upon the world. But new LB is working on rooting out whatever is left of wanting to depend on stuff outside of myself for my fulfillment.

The crazy thing is when that’s all done then, based on my experience, the right people will just drop into my life without any effort or planning. I like a lot of the people who claim you have to make things happen, well life is going to win out in the end and why not get in harmony with what life wants? That’s what The Surrender Experiment book is getting me back to. I never had great success with manifestation yet the best things were always things I never planned or intended. So to me it was more about letting go and life already has a course, nobody’s is the same of course but that’s where the best things happen. I’m not saying don’t take action at all. The guy in The Surrender Experiment wanted solitude and to do his inner work. But he surrendered to life and all these things happened effortlessly, money, people etc. Yet he did work and he worked hard. He even became the CEO of a company that was worth Billions. A programming company and he had to learn how to code and it started with him learning how to build and he worked on his own house. That turned into a contracting company and he acquired all this land starting from the tiny piece of land he bought for his shack to live in or so he thought. Yet it wasn’t about him forcing life, it was about him living life with his sails filled by life’s will.

End of Night Update:

I’m going to play around with new custom ideas. I was thinking what could I pair new LB with. Well, why not consider to just bundle it with new Primal. That way I’m staying focused on these two titles, and maybe just add back in those modules that I miss and bring on board those that I think would tackle what I think some of my nagging issues are, to get more focused healing with. It wouldn’t be too spendy I’d maybe have to purchase new Primal and the build, but I think the modules I’ve already purchased give me plenty to work with.

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#168

Day 21 6/7. 6/13 starts new cycle.

15 mins new Primal.

I’m kind of excited about making a new LB/Primal custom. I never wanted to make a custom with Primal because it was already so packed. So I was always thinking what could I custom with new LB. Well then it clicked yesterday- just combine LB and Primal in one that way you don’t add another core but you can pick up those modules that you miss from previous customs, and give some of them more time. So that’s my plan. So it looks like I’ll finish out my first run through of KB. Then when I finish that I’ll have a custom ready to go. I’m still thinking I’m due for a 30 day washout so that’s probably a good idea before I start the new custom.

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#169

No listening. 5 days of no listening.

Having some strong feelings come up was a good thing. It got me back to making letting go a priority and it’s paying off. By the time I get to work my mind is pretty quiet so I don’t have to spend the time trying to let go. I just focus on my work and stay in the flow and am able to more easily focus on the audiobook or podcast that I’m listening to.

Tonight I was also feeling something. I don’t remember what though. Just more okay with being sexy or something along those lines. Just at the right pace for me where the internal reality is shifting as fast or faster than the external.

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#170

No listening.

I made one rough draft of my custom. I was happy with it. Now I’m looking through the synergy modules and have two in the rough draft. One of them just combines two modules I was already using. One of them just adds a module.

So my second version of my new custom has 5 synergy modules. So I’ll leave it alone for awhile and come back to it with a fresh mind. I want to build the best custom I can but I do plan on going for Khan regular next year.

I don’t want to stop Khan Black but there’s also a synergy module on energetic development and so leaving khan black out for awhile wouldn’t be such a big deal. Since the plan is to pair up Khan Black and regular Khan next year. I just want to keep KB going but I also could stand to go with something with wealth scripting so I can get started on that front.

P.S. literally after ending this post a notification dropped in my lap and it was about this book about the energy of money. I’ve had the physical book and audiobook but haven’t gone through them. So just for fun I’ll make that my next book that I go through.

PPS:

Just like that I’ve come full circle. I’m now in favor of building a new Primal new Sanguine custom. With the synergy module on energetic development. I think that’s the perfect baseline for me to finish out the year before I go to double Khan. The reason why I’d do it that way is because I’d want to combing KB and Khan. And I feel like a stack of primal and a sanguine/love bomb custom with some targeted healing and essential modules is just what I need to prepare and also have the best rest of the year I can without being too heavy in healing and massive growth. It’ll be just more fun and right paced.

end of night update: So now I think I expanded so much that I’ll just put the custom ideas out of my mind for awhile. Let it cook. lol. Still like 3 months away from having in my stack.

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#171

5 day break update

So I’m feeling kind of good. Not the equal and opposite of the lows from previous days yet. But I’m feeling good like I’m getting to higher levels or something. So just some of that optimism maybe, just feeling good and being more grateful for now and things as they are too. I also notice with where my mind goes it isn’t going back to old hurts and problems, it’s kind of been giving me new perspective on some past memories. Not sure how to describe it. It’s a positive in my book.

One from earlier was an old memory from work. I worked with an ego maniac guy and his whole thing was to be a clown and make people laugh. He was also one of those guys that thinks its his job to tell the world how to live. I thought he was my friend back then, but another person I should have never put up with. Maybe it was a keep your enemies closer kind of thing, knowing he had a big mouth it was kind of a had to think of him as a friend and so he could think of me as a friend too. But it was just me putting up with it and being kind of nice guy. Anyway there was one random memory that popped up. Some guy came to our work on his shift and he was making buddies and he was gonna buy some herb from him. So he’s telling me all in a good mood. The next time I see him he’s ready to fight complaining he hasn’t gotten me my herb he better give me my money back. lol. At the time I was caught up in being a nice guy. I didn’t see the humor in it, even though I always felt like humor was one of my specialties as well. Whereas now it strikes me as some kind of comedy show. Like my mind was showing it how they’d do it in a comedy film/video. First scene the dude is all happy. The next scene guy is all out of sorts. The contrast.

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#172

5 days off update

I’m not keeping track of individual days. I’m on 5 days off until the 13th.

Today I feel like some more of the Primal is activating. My mind is filled with more seductive thoughts and vibes, with some optimism and fun still there.

I’ve only been listening to Primal 1x weekly at 15 mins. So far it’s been smooth and I’ve been patient with results because like I said my stack currently seems to be the right pace for me. Inner changes are occurring maybe even faster than externals and to me that’s always what I’ve been looking for mainly. Those internal changes because I’ve always had opportunities and good things but I was somehow holding myself back internally.

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#173

So my tentative plan is laid out. In 2 cycles I’ll have completed a round of Khan Black. I’ll take a month off and I’m thinking I’ll finish out the year with a Love Bomb/Sanguine custom, Primal, and Daredevil.

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#174

I had a slight pang of wanting friends again today. So I saw that it was just the mind using that to distract me from being on task. I didn’t get on task necessarily but it just kind of dropped away when I saw that. Still some light feelings but they don’t have stories attached. So just more squeezing of the lemon as I call it.

Still having some procrastination around getting back on track with my workout. I started listening to some talks from one of the self realized people I like to listen to. And just casually thinking about the times when things in my life were good, where I felt my best. None of it was forced, it wasn’t me exerting my will. It was less “me” in the personal sense and just being along for the ride of life. So I think when I get to Daredevil that could be fun and get me back in touch with that sense of adventure, that’s something I had when I felt my best as well.

I’m still kind of curious about stage 4 of Khan Black. I plan on only running it for 2 cycles before taking a 30 day washout. I think Daredevil will help me unlock more of that taking action at least in terms of the social game. I think that would really unlock a lot of doors for me in terms of dating, making money.

My custom idea is definitely evolving. Now I think I’m taking out the healing modules, some I’ve used for a year already. I am thinking just make it a custom that maximizes relaxation and calm under stress, energetic transcendence, iron law synergy etc. And the ultimate results/manifestation synergy pack. with Fortune’s Favorite and The way of ROI and Way Finder. Also you are not alone module, safety net, love without attachment, attachment destroyer as the two healing focused modules. formless clarity, the flow.

So yea thinking to maximize the relaxation/stress relief/manifestation, and slightly spiritual focus with being in the now and Energetic Transcendence. So I think I’ve reached my final draft on my Love Bomb/Sanguine custom.

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#175

I haven’t noticed any status hits lately. Where people seem to react to some perceived higher status of me. I think Primal must be already in line with my internal sense of status so nothing stands out. Well, not yet anyway.

I had it in mind that tomorrow was my first full loop of KB 4. It’s actually going to be my weekly 15 min loop of new Primal. That’ll stay consistent with all four stages of KB4. But I think that’s good as I’m still curious to find out what stage 4 KB could be like, it’s still a priority for now. As much as I’m excited to make Primal a priority after KB is finished.

I was at the store today just to get a couple things. There was a new guy working and his boss must have been showing him what to do. So when i walked in they were walking out and I didn’t pay much attention because I was going in. Then I was where I was for a couple minutes and they showed up beside me to stock something. But I just got like some sad vibes from the dude and I was just trying not be affected. Lol maybe I shoulda said hey man congrats on getting the job I can’t even get an interview! lol. I was trying to push it and apply for all these jobs, no interviews but I realized why am pushing so hard here, I actually probably need rest since I’ve been working like 6-7 days a week for the past year. I got cut back to half time and had my pay cut this month. Next month I might actually lose my main job altogether for a few months too.

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#176

I finally got a good workout in. It wasn’t a “full” workout, or the workout I thought I should do. But I feel good and didn’t put it off until tomorrow. I saw a photo of a guy working out on FB and for whatever reason it brought to life my own inner experience of why I like to workout. And so I did work out. So here’s to doing something every day even if it’s not as much as I think I should be doing.

After a good night’s sleep I get to start up with new Primal. New cycle!

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#177

Day 1 15 mins new Primal.

I felt good while listening. I just closed my eyes and maintained my awareness on the good feeling. So that was my meditation.

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I took a drive got some gas today. I was kind of bored while driving. Also had some more feelings come up. Still seems to be about wishing I had some genuine connections. But this will be cycle

#4 new LB - So I’m looking for things to maybe pick up and I’m still having some healing from it. Though it makes me look forward to when I’ll have You Are Not Alone module in my custom.

Cycle 1 with KB 4 in the stack.

Cycle 3 with new Primal in the stack. I only run it 1x per week at 15 mins. But it’s been helping at the right pace.

I’ve been with subclub for a few years and I’m still not a millionaire, don’t have the dating/social life I want. But I have grown by leaps and bounds. I tend to stick to a minimum of 4 cycles before I consider changing titles. I was able to stick to my custom for a full year.

I think the new Sanguine is the title that I needed when I first started but it had to go through its changes and updates also. I haven’t even used the new Sanguine but looking back, I probably needed to get myself out of the toxic work situations and hermit up and let new Sanguine reset my nervous system and just get me back to being regulated and healthy.

So we have what we have to work with and we make the best of it. No one way is right for everybody.

End of night update

I forgot a cool experience I had today. After driving around feeling bored and having some feelings come up. I thought about driving through a particular area and felt good about it. Like maybe there’s some reason. It’s an area near a marina and I used to go park in the public parking lot with a view of the water. I got hassled too many times by the law just for parking there. People park there all the time but I just stopped going for a few years. I’ll drive through but generally have avoided the area most of the time. So I drive through there thinking of course maybe I’ll meet a hot lady. And I’m going through there and there is a probably hot blonde walking her dog.

Now I live in one of the safest places, women can job and walk their dogs by themselves and they’re safe. But most people hear the news stories from around the country of women being harmed or whatever jogging or walking by themselves. So that’s on many women’s minds even in safe places, it’s like just on the back of the mind. So I get a little excited but I notice her vibe and she’s just cold, the not interested at all vibes.

So I don’t make any judgements I don’t even look at her, just enough to show that I’ve seen her and her dog and am not gonna run them over lol. So I can’t say that was the reason why I felt like there was something there for me, why I decided to drive though. It’s just in the LBFH and Chosen era I figure if anything even if I’m not aware of it, maybe somebody just needs a small crack so the light can get in. Maybe they just needed to get a taste of that Love Bomb or whatever.

Plus it’s a nice experiment for myself- that I’m going to start following my inner guidance again. Even if nothing noticeable happens I’m going to start following my good feelings, those ones that don’t seem to have a reason especially.

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#178

Day 2 No listening.

I’ve been feeling some more of the kind of sad feelings I guess. I still have no story with them. So my take is still things getting resolved and reconciled on an other than conscious level. I think from my experience at some point those feelings will be resolved and it’ll bring more life and something good. So I’m not making a big deal of it. Just having patience.

I do feel like Daredevil is going to be pretty good in bringing back my sense of action and overcoming any social anxieties that are lingering. I think those are probably some of the things resolved too. The holdbacks from living more of the life I want.

So Daredevil is the most attractive title on my list at the moment. It’s not one of those things where I want to switch titles yet. It’s just that’s my next title to run for sure.

Morning update: got a full night’s sleep. I had lots of dreams. And I dont remember what any were about now. I just remember that yea, things being worked on worked through yet.

I was laying in bed and feeling good but I also noticed that my mind was creating all this resistance to it. Like I should get up etc. I noticed that and just gave my permission to lay there and do nothing but feel good for as long as I wanted. It only lasted another couple minutes because i had to get up and go to the bathroom, there was no resistance to that. Now that I’m up and moving around the resistance level to it is way low. So it’s keeping with my theme of just letting myself feel good and breaking the resistance habit.

After Work Update

I was pretty focused at work. It’s physical and it’s not easy but no big deal. Give me alone time and let’s me focus on the now and listen to audiobooks.

I was on my way home and of course I do some personal thinking, it’s a habit. It’s like oh if i do this then maybe this or that etc. But it’s always nice to know you don’t need that, that’s all just clutter. So anyway I like to do then when it comes to taking the route home. I have been going through the business area lately, thinking it’ll be more interesting, more chance of seeing some hot chicks, who knows. So I had resistance to that and I just went the other way, through a residential area, neighborhoods. Well it’s finally nice weather and I actually saw more people out in the neighborhoods. There was even a skinny blonde in a black dress walking her dog. She picked up on me just vibing. She was probably single or at least not attached. I was getting all the good body language and vibes. She was doing some primping and doing that thing women do where they can check you out but you might miss it if you don’t have a trained eye kind of thing. But I wasn’t feeling my most confident, I still get surprised when I would say hot chicks are into me. Especially like a skinny blonde, I don’t have that in my book of experiences. And it’s not my typical what I would think of as my type. I just make note because the other day at the bank there was a skinny lighter haired woman walking in. She had some tattoos on her legs but there was some mutual curiosity there. But I haven’t made any moves yet, and it’s not been ideal situations. Like when you’re in you’re car how are you gonna open someone anyway? ’

And then further down the way some younger dudes were walking by, one of them was looking at me he caught my vibes somehow and I can’t say what but maybe he was just curious or just maybe a well I don’t have the words. Like sometimes you see someone and you’re like struck by something about them. Maybe just their vibe or something.

#179

Day 3 15 mins KB 4, 3 mins new LB.

I think this cycle could end up being healing yet. Or I’m hoping for at least a mix of the things all coming together and healing this cycle.

I feel like some Daredevil is the missing ingredient at this point, though I am still committed to my current stack. There is not a title that I’m willing to give up or switch out yet. Plus I haven’t made new Primal a regular in my stack yet, it’s still 1x a week. So I think when I add new Primal into my stack in a normal rotation, that could bring on whatever I think Daredevil could provide.

Just now I was looking through the new Dragon Reborn Gold copy and though like somebody said it could be the closest thing to a multi-stage Chosen; I’m just not going for it at this time. I absolutely loved some of the things in Chosen and especially the quality and type of woman I was attracting yet for whatever reason I didn’t think the leadership and all the attention was for me just yet. I feel like Primal is more working on my inner game and finding my internal freedom first.

So my plan kind of changed now. I think I will bring new Primal on board as regular rotation. I’ll go 15 mins then the next two listening days will be 30 seconds. That will be my new listening routine.

I’ll give myself time with Primal in regular rotation and then that’ll give me a better idea of whether or not to try out Daredevil sooner. 4 cycles of new Primal and then test out Daredevil and I can always come back to Primal if I prefer it but Daredevil will probably help shake things up for me where I need them. Because Primal is about that internal freedom but it’s also about sexual, and as much as I wanted that of course, the more social oriented base will benefit me. I’ll already have plenty of the romance/seduction covered but Daredevil could be the key to unlocking more if that expression for me.

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#180

Day 4 No listening.

Still feeling light, so far, like 15 mins of KB 4 was not too much for me. Only the first listen of it though.

I made it to page 25 of this book The Energy of Money, by Maria Nemeth. It kind of brings things more practical in terms of taking something from the metaphysical (energy/formless) into the physical. And it brings home that it’s not you just think the good thoughts and good things happen. Like say if i have positive thoughts of money then money will just come to me. It’s that money comes to you from the action you take. Like you create the product and market it and sell it etc.

For me it’s a better book than I thought it was going to be. I thought it was going to be a book that I’d just have to force myself to read, but I do feel like it’s helping me see things in a new way already. It’s a bit of the idea of setting a goal with the how included rather than setting a goal and just following inspiration or letting life be the way. Like Sedona Method would say I allow myself to have an extra 10K.

And this way seems to be I allow myself to have an extra 10k by doing this this and this, which is what Sedona tells you not to do. In my personal experience it’s more surrender experiment than what I want. Life is not limited and anything I come up with is going to be limited, so it’s about learning to be in life’s flow rather than make life flow to where I want. Although Sedona has you do action steps. What’s an action step I can take to achieve this goal? Then you release or clear on that so there’s no resistance. Then you naturally take the right actions. That’s like why I’ve gotten into a lot of procrastination around things I want because there’s still that resistance and holdback, and forcing in the long run can be exhausting and draining. But when I’ve released the resistance it’s like effortless and just coincidence and things happen and I may have to work hard too but it’s not hard work to me kind of thing.

Another thing is this book says it’s about clearing the metaphysical first then you act. Which is still on board with how I like to operate. You clear out the limiting beliefs energy, or monkey mind as this book calls it. Then you act in the world.

I’m sticking to the same routine as previous cycles with KB. I think things could definitely get interesting in stage 4 so I’ll just keep everything the same as originally planned. I’m still not sure how or why KB will benefit me but stage 4 brings everything together. For me it’s just less concrete than say a wealth title or a fitness titles or something with a strong focus. I’m an energy guy for sure but it’s still that I’m finding my way how to work with that aspect. I think energy is one thing and then there’s the part where you still gotta do the groundwork. You can energetically be appealing but you still have to talk to the woman and seal the deal.