ABC333 Khan Black

Journals - Major Programs
#121

Day 1 of 5- No listening.

I don’t think I remembered this until now. I wanted to mention that the CWON gratitude scripting is showing lately. Not a lot but I do releasing as my inner work practice. Whenever I think about my job I’m starting to feel gratitude now and appreciating that I have a job. So that’s a shift in that dept. Opening the door to some financial manifestations even though I’m not running any titles focused on that. I did listen to the audiobook of The Science of Getting Rich like 30 times, so some of that helped to change my mindset as well.

End of Night Update:

I’m really looking forward to the sexy women manifestations from Primal. They’ve been almost non-existent since I dropped SSX out of my stack.

#122

DAY 3 No Listening

Nothing really to report. A pretty uneventful 3 days of no listening so far. No figuring out my stack. It’s still going to be CWON,New Primal, and KB 3. I will probably go to new LB in 2 cycles if CWON hasn’t been updated by then. I also could be tempted to try out Stark Black without fame experimental verison.

#123

Last day of 5 days no listening

Tomorrow will be the first day of my new 21 day listening cycle. I’m going to go with 15 mins of new Primal. I will only listen to it 1x per week. CWON stays and I move to KB 3.

Been feeling like it’s natural to take more action. I can see I still have improvements to make. I’m talking on the dating/social front. I will definitely be running Heartsong this year. Since I got into action more junk has come to the surface, nothing major but still has me eyeing Heartsong as soon as I can fit it in my stack. I want a few cycles of Primal under my belt first and in the mean time I’m sticking with CWON since I consider it kind of foundational for me.

#124

Day 1 15 mins New Primal.

Initial impressions: 15 mins of Primal 1x weekly will be sustainable. It doesn’t seem like it’s going to be a super heavy dense title yet. My first round of new LB was pretty smooth, so that tells me that I’ve laid a lot of the ground work as far as the deeper healing goes.

Evening Update:

Mostly just been feeling good today since listening.

#125

Day 2 - no listening.

Tomorrow will be my first loop of KB 3.

End of Night Update:

Last minute change. I’ve decided on going forward with new LB. So I’ll be dropping CWON. So tomorrow it’ll be 15 mins KB 3, and 30 seconds of new LB. I’ll stick with 30 seconds of new LB for this next cycle.

#126

Day 3: 15 mins KB 3, 30 sec. new LB.

I had lots of dreams last night. Definitely working through some things already.

I just listened maybe half an hour ago. I’m already feeling some of that new LB goodness from my 30 second listen.

Afternoon Update:

Had some anxiety come up when I went to the store today. Still feeling it. It’s not overwhelming and once again I’m reminded that it’s been awhile since I’ve felt anxious like this. So I chalk it up to my first loop of KB 3. To me it seems normal that I’d have some anxiety from diving into KB 3. Seems like it has some grand goals and objectives and it’s just part of the process. I feel like things are going to get interesting in terms of how people respond to me on KB3.

I’ve already started seeing some increased attention from the ladies today. I saw this nice looking woman drive by and she saw me looking and she just felt good and was smiling to herself. Then a little further down I passed a bar. I was looking the opposite direction at this park area. All of the sudden I picked up on her checking me out. She was sitting outside on the patio with her friends. As soon as I looked at her she just started talking to her friends.

The anxiety from earlier didn’t last long and didn’t hold me back from doing what I wanted.

Oh, and I don’t know how many younger blonde women I saw driving around today. I drive every day and I don’t even remember seeing this many blondes around.

End of Night Update:

I got to work and I was in the flow. It’s been awhile since I had a day where I was just locked in at work like that. It tends to happen when I first get back into keto after a layoff. That’s one of the things many people report when they get on the keto diet, increased energy and focus. I’ve been on keto for 4 days again. I’m doing my summer cut for 6 weeks and then I’ll see where I’m at.

#127

Day 4: No listening.

Went to the store again. The old cashier lady was having fun with me. I showed up on a cute chick’s radar, she was looking at flowers. So I’m already seeing more positive attention and attraction signals.

I also didn’t realize until I was almost home that I’ve had this song playing in my head. Kind of on a subliminal level. It’s some cheesy fun quirky song from like jr. high. Pretty Fly For A White Guy- The Offspring.

#128

Day 5: 30 seconds of KB 3, 30 seconds of new LB.

#129

Day 6: No listening.

End of night update: I’ve noticed at times my mind is a lot quieter again. Having some insights but haven’t sprung forth into anything I’ve wanted to journal about. Maybe keeping more for myself and less needing to be vulnerable or open for the sake of others. Seeing a bit more of the social game I guess. But maybe don’t have the words to describe it yet. Like when I was running SSX or maybe it was when I first started KB (around the same time), like I could just see and innately understand more from the sexual/energy perspective. Just maybe wouldn’t be able to put it into words.

This is right around the time recon would hit with zp v2. But since I’m microlooping new LB and keeping new Primal at 1x per week, I don’t think I’ll hit that recon.

On the workout front: I just started doing 2 sets of kettlebell swings. Not everyday but at least 4-5 times a week. Tonight was the first time for 2 sets. Going slow and consistent is great for me. It’s also helping me build up the habit again. After doing just 2 sets for the first time it kind of put a pep in my step. Like my body likes it and it’s going to actually improve my daily activity performance. I’m going to build up to 5 sets (each side) of 1 arm kettlebell swings (10 reps) but for now I’m going slow with adding 1 set per week of two handed swings until maybe 5 sets then I’ll start adding one arm swings.

I guess I did have some very slight signs of recon though. Today I was thinking of what to run after new LB. But it’s not really important since after this cycle I still have 2 more cycles with it in my stack.

1 Like
#130

Day 7: 15 mins KB 3, 30 seconds of New LB.

1 Like
#131

Day 8: No listening.

Been waking up from dreams a lot lately. Nothing too intense.

No recon so far. It was easy for me to forget about trying to come up with what to run next. I’ve also been noticing there’s more of the fun starting to bubble up from the unconscious. Like today I noticed oh I’m feeling a bit of that fun/positive stuff, and it was almost at a subliminal level, I almost didn’t notice it until I did.

I definitely feel like positive attention is once again rising. Also getting more interest from the ladies so I’m looking forward to things really getting good. Tomorrow is my second loop of new Primal.

#132

Day 9: 15 mins new Primal.

End of night update: Earlier in the day I felt a little raw. Very slight as though I was in some healing. I wasn’t even going to mention it.

Then I got to work and my favorite hot topic came up- an old breakup situation. It didn’t last long. Then I felt like I was in dark mode. Where it wasn’t dating bs coming up, it was just crappy people I’ve been around and dealt with in the past. I haven’t gotten into I don’t give an F mode yet, I got into don’t f with me mode.

But it was more grounded and solid- not like in the past where I’d end up having some sort of catharsis. This was more, even though I don’t use the terms, shadow integration. Like that protector of me kind of got integrated. Then after a few minutes I’d completely forgotten about it and was lighter, but not in bliss or happiness, more like it was just integration. Which is kind of new in my experience so far.

#133

Day 10: No Listening.

More dreams, I would chalk them up to more of the integration theme from last night’s update.

afternoon update: I think I’ll be on new Primal for the rest of the year for sure.

Evening Update: I’m kind of wishing I was in a place to use Inner Circle or have a custom with You Are Not Alone. I don’t have any genuine connections anymore. Where I live it’s kind of meet a woman and start a family and work all the time so just having friends to hang out with isn’t a thing the older you get. I don’t want a massive social life but just some true connections that I can call whenever, people who at least have time for me. I’m definitely open to trying out Daredevil in the future. I’ll probably want to go with Heartsong first. I still think that Heartsong healing is definitely next in line.

So yea I’d say some light healing going on. I would say it’s whatever is in opposition to new LB’s scripting being dealt with.

#134

Day 11: 30 seconds KB 3, 30 seconds New LB.

1 Like
#135

Day 12: No Listening.

Being on two update titles (new LB, and new Primal) I can say once again that the recon passes even faster. Within minutes. Though I’ve been conservative with my listening times and haven’t gone constant full loops. New Primal I do 15 mins 1x a week and that works. I only listen to 30 seconds of new LB every time I listen. And I’ve been alternating between 15 mins and 30 seconds with KB.

I wish I had one person at least who I could message and even hang out with. Two of my favorite people haven’t replied to my last messages. They’re women so I’m not going to double message. So for now those are not options anymore. I still wish that I could have gotten more out of Code of Loyalty module. It seems all it did was make me aware that loyalty might be extremely rare. I didn’t find any loyal people. It made me aware of an old situation from like Jr high, where I stopped hanging out with somebody I probably should have kept around.

I definitely want to be running a custom so I can get You Are Not Alone module in the mix. I just don’t know what custom I’d make. I’d like to custom Khan Black stage 4 but once KB is updated I’ll run through the whole thing again. So any custom with KB could be a year away yet.

I want to do Heartsong, but would a heartsong/Primal work? I don’t know. I don’t know that I’ll listen to heartsong long enough to make a custom. I also probably need to run Will to Power so maybe Primal/Will To Power custom.

I also think between Primal and LB and KB things will work themselves out.

PS: I just realized that Heartsong will be a big help for me with all this too. It’ll help remove my unhelpful beliefs about myself and others in regards to relationships so I’m looking for some general benefit as well as the romantic.

#136

Day 13: 15 mins KB3, 30 seconds new LB.

Feel like I have more energy that I’d like to channel into working out and studying/learning. I think part of it is a little wanting things to get moving quicker, but I know that it’s just a matter of staying consistent and sticking with it. I think part of it is being able to see where other people are at and knowing it’s best for me to let them go and keep moving. I think that is the recon of the old reality vs. the new input from my stack. Getting me to see things and move through things so we can keep it moving so we level up.

It seems like generally people are where they’re at and that’s where they’re gonna stay. I’ve always been someone who believes in growth and self development. The issue was always I was loyal and so the people thing was always tough for me. I’d gone too far and worked on myself so I couldn’t stay where they were but maybe I hadn’t gone far enough to get to the new people I want to be around.

#137

Day 14: No listening.

Seems like the cycle is still back and forth. Progression and then some regression. It’s not major but it’s there and part of the process. I’ll be free of the old patterns then I’ll slip back into them for awhile and before I know it I’m still moving forward and leaving it behind me.

#138

Day 15: 30 seconds of KB 3. 30 seconds of new LB.

Still noticing some subtle signs from others that my stack is working. But I know to just stick with it and even if I don’t get all the internal changes as fast as I want, things are working and shifting for me.

I started listening to Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle yesterday. I’m doing the audiobook. That was the first spiritual book I ever read. So I guess I was lucky that I never got into any culty stuff and never had to fear that, being an introvert helps and hsp. The people I found who I like the most are not people who want you dependent on them, they are the opposite. They want to awaken you to the truth of who and what you are.

In my experience the types who are afraid of everything being a cult, are already conditioned and set in their beliefs. They don’t want anything to possibly shift their version of reality. I’ve always wanted the ultimate reality even if it’s not what I believe. I like to give up those beliefs because I know they’re only limitations. Like I don’t have to believe that the sun will rise tomorrow, because it just does.

One time somebody I worked with was telling me to listen to Alan Watts, and the ego guy walks by and says it sounds like a cult. It’s anything but, but that’s what I mean. Although I myself have held myself back from many great opportunities and experiences because of my own insecurities and limiting beliefs as well. But I think generally people are conditioned and trained to belief in certain things, and oftentimes it is limiting. Yet they’ll argue for it, they call it the agent smith effect. Like it’s not about being stupid, nobody’s going to touch a hot stove on purpose, unless it’s their first time. That is also how we learn, we make mistakes, we take chances. That’s the stuff we overcome to become and do what we want.

So I’m hearing it differently now. I listened to it a few years ago at least like 20 times in a row. It was definitely part of the reason I had some spiritual awakening type experiences. On my first listen this time I just felt kind of good, like I knew it was good. So I plan to listen to it like 10 times in a row and go through what I consider my foundational books that deserve a read every year.

One thing that stuck out was he says constant growth isn’t actually a good thing. It can be destructive or something. And that disillusionment is kind of necessary because it makes you go within and turn back to the spiritual. If life was perfect and I was happy I never would have gotten into listening to the enlightened types.

I had planned on quoting eckhart directly but I don’t feel like going back through the physical book to get the right quotes and sections. But definitely a book that’s helped me and something I’ll listen to or read probably once a year from here on out.

#139

Day 16: No listening.

Tomorrow is my third full loop of new Primal.

I planned on switching spots with new LB and new Primal. Where I’d run Primal for 30 seconds as normal and move LB back to 15 mins 1x weekly. I think I will keep Primal in the 1x weekly spot at 15 mins. I’ll bump it up to 3 mins with new LB next cycle.

#140

Day 17: 15 mins new Primal.